Chunji POV

10 weeks had passed.

Time passed without byunghun by my side.

He just disappeared like that.

He broke his promise.

He betrayed our love.

He left me.

He left me!!

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I got discharged after 2 days I regain conscious n d day when I was discharged, mom told me that BOA n those 3 dirty were been arrested. I still remember d happiness chills in my stomach when I heard about d news. Finally, that will never get chances to bother me n my byunghun anymore.

However, curiousity burns inside me. I still don’t know where’s my byunghun.

After I got discharged, mom took me for vacations. Although I did protested but mom keeps telling me it’s for my own good. The hell for my goodness, I won’t care. I only want hunnie but as when I woke up, I saw strange surrounding me. I don’t even get any chances to meet my friends except taemin, my twin brother who was always keeping himself closed to accompany me. Mom said I need to rest. She want me to forget about everything had just happened so I can overcome my traumatize. Mom n taemin have been taken care of me very well. Unfortunately, mom was wrong. No matter how hard I tried, I still can’t brushed off d incident thingy in my head. It keeps plays in my mind. Moreover, I can’t  even throw hunnie side of pain out of my brain. I can’t forget about him. Not even a sec. I really need to see him. Although for just in a blink of eyes, please GOD just let me see my byunghun. I keep asking mom n taemin about my byunghun but none of them dare to answer me. Is it very tough to answer a simple question? Why is it too difficult for them to tell me d truth? What happened to my byunghun?? I don’t even know.

I unknowledge it until that day came, my birthday.   

We just got back to korea a day before my birthday. I was so excited waiting for it. Not because I really wanna celebrate my own birthday, but it cause I planned to meet byunghun on that day.

“where are u going chanhee??”

“to jiyoung place. Today is my birthday so I thought of celebrating it with hunnie”

“don’t go there”

“huh?? Pardon me?”

“I said don’t go. I’m not allowing u to go see him”

“what r u talking about mom?? I don’t understand”

“it’s useless chanhee. U will never see him anymore”

“mom…u know how much I love u right? I never object u, but please mom. Only this time I need u to understand me. I love byunghun so much n I really wanna see him. It almost 2 months I don’t get any news about him. I asked everyone about him but no one gave me any answer. i’ve been waiting long enough mom n today please let me see him”

“chanhee…I guess today is d right time for me telling u d truth about byunghun.” She paused for a while “listen here very carefully my dear, whatever I’m going to say next, I want u to calm down n accept it with an open heart. Promise??”

“mom…just wha-“ mom cut me off “promise me??”

“fine…I promise”  

mother cupped my face as I eyed her with my flaming eyes “u will never see byunghun anymore coz byunghun is dead honey…he is dead”

I scream in shock “NO!!! NO!!!WHAT ARE U SAYING MOM?!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS NO JOKE!!! PLEASE DON’T BE JOKING AROUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

“no baby no…I’m not joking. It is d truth. I know u love him but I need to keep it hide from u becoz I don’t want to put u in any pressure chanhee. “

“IT CAN’T BE TRUE!!! U LIE MOM!!! I KNOW U LIED!!! MY BYUNGHUN IS NOT DEAD YET!!! NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!”  I was totally loss my sane. Anger flaming me up. I was really mad. I lost control on myself. I pulled my hair strongly, feeling frustrated. I cupped both of my ears as I’m gonna be crazy for keep hearing d next words came out from my mother mouth.

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Chunji was at d club, fooling around in club.

Chunji has been acted as his old self. A playboy, a bullier, a rude-heartless kingka.

In middle of crowd seated chunji on couch with y girls cuddling around him. His hands both on any sensitive spot of those girls. They even didn’t cared how much deeper n stronger chunji touch on them. They like it everytime a hot guy like chunji would be making out with them, like what he’s currently doing.

“chunji let’s go now” myungsoo arrived while grabbing chunji wrist strongly, disgusting on seeing d tongue wrestling between chunji n BOM, one of his one-week ex-girlfriend.

“go?? Where?? I still not enough enjoying myself yet. Not even these girls though, right ladies???”

“right!!!!!!!!!” all d girls screamed, excited. Chunji smirk as he dashed away myungsoo gripped while turning back his focused on making out with d chicks surround him.

Myungsoo fist clenched in anger. He can’t stand to see his friend old behave. He really hate d rude chunji.

A patted on his shoulder somehow snapped him from keep burning himself with anger. He turned around to meet his gaze with jonghyun. “he’s been like that for whole month” jonghyun stared, shooking his head with sympathize look throws on chunji

Jonghyun bent his body down a bit, gesturing a pleased toward BOM “darlingggg, if u don’t mind, can u take all ur girlfriendsto  grab some drinks? I need to talk to chunji for awhile??” he said, sounded more like coaxing d girl following his y wink

“ouww…sure my handsome jongieeee oppa, come girls” as BOM n all d girls got up n leave, chunji scowled.  jonghyun took his seat beside chunji while myungsoo keep his standing posture.

“let’s go home chunji”

“why should i?!!! nothing exciting about home” chunji  is now facing jonghyun, his breath closed to d older as he noticed chunji is currently drunk. “This place is d best. This is my territory~~ I can do whatever I loves to. I can dance, drink, making out with all d chicks here. It’s heaven u know hyung!!!”

“hunnie will be really heart-broken to see u behaving like this”

Hearing that name, chunji’s heart ached all over again. He ran his fingers through his hair and hissed, "don't you dare mention that name in front of me ever again. Just go away n leave me here alone!!!"

"And why is that?" myungsoo slammed his fist onto the table "are u saying he broke his promise? He left u? he betrayed ur love? U think he is happy right now for leaving u?? u think he begged to GOD to take his life very soon?? U think he can do that?? U think so chunji huh?!!!"

chunji flopped his brown hair around. "u don't understand myungie. i…I know he can hear me that time. I told him not to leave me. I told him I can’t live without him but things turned up like this n I really can’t accept it. i…I want him back!!! I want him! I want my byunghun back to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

"so u regret now? Didn’t I told u before to not be stubborn or u might be late to redeem ur own mistakes? N now u lost him already chunji. there’s no point if u want to punish urself like this. I know u not happy living like this. We all knows pabo!!!”

Chunji eyed myungsoo, filled with anger. he punched the table and glared muddler at myungsoo "stop bringing up d past or I'll beat u!"

"Go ahead and beat me up then!" myungsoo yells.

“ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!” someone shout as they both turned their head to see a very serious-look jonghyun glaring on them. “myungie stop!” jonghyun then turned to keep his gaze on chunji “u had enough chunji. u succeeded. U was first one who wanna breaking up with him n now u guys really are breaking up. byunghun was no longer in this world n u won’t meet him again. Aren't that was ur wish at first?!"

Chunji kneeled down. Memories of him hurting byunghun’s heart replayed in his mind. He finally broke in tears.  Sobbing so hard as d two boys could only watch, letting d younger to let out all of his sadness.

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“mom…r u sure about this??”

“what do u mean son?”

“u see mom, chanhee is now behaving like his old self. Byunghun death is giving a total impact to him. This is too much for him, he can’t accept it mom. He never accept our fact”

“then what minnie what?? what do u think will be best for him?”

“mom…I think we should tell him d truth. how long we can keep this secret?? sooner or later he might kn-“

“enough Minnie. I don’t want to hear any of this anymore. I won’t let ur brother to meet that boy ever again. It’s final.”