#8. How you always ensure me with my insecurities. Of course, there are times where my insecurities takes over me. There are time where I was afraid this was all a dream. Times where there could be someone waiting for you on the other side. Someone better. Someone that can cook. Someone that is not clumsy. Someone that is smart. Someone that loves you better and takes care of you more than I could. Just someone. But you would just flap your hands back and forth, dismissing the idea. You would say that you didn’t need that someone. Because there’s a Kang Seulgi. _____ Friday: Curse words were the only things in my mind right now. I was suppose to pick you up today after work and bring you to a nice date, but apparently I’m 20 minutes late. I swore, I made an alarm at 6:00pm, but apparently......maybe, I just didn’t press enter button. That resulting me for being late. I was speeding through the highway, almost, just almost, got into 3 car accidents...(don’t tell Joohyun, readers). But, a sigh of relief came out when I saw you sitting at the front of the building’s bench. But of course, a guy, your ‘co-worker’, was sitting next to you. Too close that people walking by might’ve mistaken you both as couples. I clenched onto the steering wheel tightly, teeth clenched together. Stupid Friday night date has to be ruined by this guy. I drove up in the front of the building. You smiled when you saw me and waved good-bye to your ‘co-worker’. “Hey babe! You’re here early.” You enthusiastically say. Am I hallucinating, or just blind? I looked at the clock on the car again, to prove I’m not crazy. “Babe, I’m here 25 minutes late.” I mumbled. “O-oh. I must’ve forgotten the time.” You stuttered and gave me a quick peck before sitting back into your seat. “Mhm.” I sarcastically hummed. Or maybe you were so immersed into the dude’s story to even notice me coming. I sighed and drove to the restaurant for our date. The car ride was silent until you spoke up, “So, how was work today?” You smiled and looked over, leaning on the armrest. “It was good.” I said, without glancing over. You noticed something was wrong, but tried not to pried. After parking in the parking lot, we headed straight into the restaurant and ordered our food. While waiting for our food, you spoke up. “Are you okay? You’re really quiet tonight. Did something happened at work?” You leaned over and reached over my head. “You’re not sick is all I know of.” You worriedly grabbed my hand on the table. “I-It’s nothing. I’m just a little tired.” A small smiled formed on my lips while I held your hand. After eating, we decided to walk down Han River while holding hands. “Okay, what’s up? Your silent treatment is scaring me.” You stopped and turned to me. “It’s noting, work is just making me tired.” I tried to laugh it off, but you saw through me. “No, seriously, Seul. You seem out of your mind right now.” You pouted. “Alright, fine. You saw through me. I-It’s just that you were getting too close with that Booger guy lately.” I scratched the back of my head. “Booger, who?” Confused, you asked. “Wasn’t his name Boogum, Bogus, Booger?” I don’t have time to actually remember his name. “Bogum, one of my co-worker?” “Yea! That dude! That dude that brings you flowers all the time.” I crossed my arms on my chest and pouted. “Jealous bear, I see.” You teased which made me pouted more. “He just appreciate my work that I do in the office, that’s all. My baby doesn’t need to be jealous.” You pinched my cheeks, which got your hands smacked away. Then I realized something. Maybe you needed someone better than me. I mean, Bogus, Booger..that ‘Bo’ dude is good-looking, smart, and rich. He’s the perfect match for you, honestly. “Maybe he’s better for you.” I said softly. “Hmm?” You confusedly looked at me. “He’s handsome, rich, and a smartie pant. He can give you all the things I can’t.” I weakly said. “Sweetie, you’re overthinking. If I was to look for someone like that, I would’ve left you awhile ago. But I’m in love with Kang Seulgi. Bogum can’t give me everything. He can’t give me the love that you do. So stop all of the nonsense and let’s get some ice cream.” You dragged me to the ice cream parlor. You squeezed my hands for reassurance. Maybe you’re right. I am overthinking. _____ Sunday: “Babe, what did I do wrong?” I cried as I begged you to stay. “I just can’t do it anymore, Seulgi. Let’s just end it here. I-I...It’s fading. I don’t feel the same for you as I had before. Please, don’t make it hard for me.” You said as you packed your clothes and things. “Baby~hurry up! I want you to see our new house!” A voice shouted through the house. The almost empty house. The voice belonged to a person I never thought you would end up with. Wendy. My best friend. My best friend since I was in middle school. I never thought it would happened. Wendy was the person that helped me confess to you, and now, just now, the person that made me lose you. I slouched down to our ‘used to’ shared bed. “Coming Wen! I-uh..I’ll get going.” You walked out, not looking back. “NO!” I ran and grabbed your wrist. “You can’t leave me.” I kneeled down and cried. I held tightly onto your hands. “Seul, you’re hurting me.” You winced and tried to let go. “Hey, Seulgi. Can’t you see she’s hurting?” I got pushed back, by the one I trusted. The one I thought would never do this to me. Wendy then softly dragged you out the house and slammed the door. That’s when I realized that I... Lost... You. “NO!” I forced my eyes opened and sat up from the bed. Tears rolling down my cheeks, not stopping anytime soon. “Baby? Are you alright now?” I looked over and saw you looking at me worriedly. “Joohyun?” My eyes went wide and I hugged you tightly. Tears started to uncontrollably pouring down my face again. “Shhh~You’re fine now. I’m here.” You hugged back and rubbed circled on my back. “I-I thought I l-lost you.” I buried my face into your neck. “It’s okay, I’m here.” You slowly and gently patted my head, saying soothing words. “It was just a nightmare. I’m here for you.” You pulled away and wiped my tears. I finally stopped crying and leaned into your hand. “My poor baby. You had to go through all of that all by yourself.” You pinched my cheek and pulled me back down onto the bed. “I dreamed of you.” I looked over and the radiant of the moon shines perfectly onto you. “You don’t have to tell me.” You smiled and car