diary entry #7305  from the recklessness of my youth to the calming of my heart 

this was different from the first time i saw it. the writing had returned, almost all the pages have been filled.

and i knew how everything would go. omniscience is invigorating. 

lisa hasn’t even dared to peek.

and she specifically instructed me that all future versions of her would dare to, but that I should be firm from going against it.

because foreknowledge is dangerous. 

this diary was done to make sure i could keep track of my meetings with lisa,

to keep our timelines from becoming corrupted. 

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[49] 

“did you dance?” i saw lisa wearing a pretty red dress with her hair down almost exiting the party. has she always been this pretty? “well, you always dance at weddings, don’t you?” 

lisa turned to the source of the voice, her hands shot up in defeat, “you tell me.” 

i let out a bittersweet smile, “spoilers.” 

i walked closer to her as she handed me a little black book and a stare -  as if wanting to say something but would rather die than spitting out first. 

“are you married, jennie?” 

“are you asking?” i said, taunting. 

“yes.” 

i gazed at her, for god knows how long, let out a sigh and said, “yes.” 

“no, hang on. did you think i was asking you to marry me or.. or.. asking if you were married?” 

“yes.” 

“no b