V.

Donghae is trying to not to burst out crying while thinking of Hyukjae. It’s as if life is made up of lies, of nightmares, of dreams, of truths, mixing unhappiness and happiness. What he wants, more than anything and anyone else, is to be with him. It should last forever. In the past, in the present, in the future. Donghae wonders how life would it be without Hyukjae. What would be the best or the worst choice for them? Can Donghae live without Hyukjae? Can Hyukjae live without Donghae? Is it possible or impossible?

They must try to fix all of this, because it’s making suffer both of them too much.

He gets up, he reaches him in the kitchen and he hugs him, wrapping him in a tight embrace through which he loves him, he takes care of him and he protects him. He’s hugging him from behind. He’s feeling so emotional.

He gets closer to him. He makes his own chest adhere to his back.

“I’m sorry for rejecting you” Donghae whispers to Hyukjae.

Donghae feels Hyukjae tremble against himself. This must be the effect he still does to him.

"What are you hiding from me?“ Hyukjae whispers back to Donghae.

Hyukjae turns to face Donghae. Donghae falls silent while he’s in front of Hyukjae. 

"What’s happening to me, to us and to you? It’s confusing me” Hyukjae leans over to Donghae to give him a kiss, “I do love you, but I love you on my own way” he mutters softly against his mouth since h