II.

Donghae looks at Hyukjae. And, while he tightly grabs him by the hips, he focuses on him. He would like to kiss him, to have him all for himself, he would like to hug him, but not being loved by him in the same way destroys him.

He squeezes him against himself in order to make their bodies adhere to each other.

“Why were you trembling?” Hyukjae asks Donghae as he touches his face, his neck and his chest through a series of kisses and caresses, “what scares you?” he kisses him, he kisses him, and he kisses him again as if it’s never, ever enough.

All that Donghae can do is to kiss Hyukjae. But there’s nothing and nobody left after what has just happened between them. Only darkness, only distance, only silence.

Donghae is scared of not to be loved in the same way by Hyukjae.

—

When Donghae hears the cell phone ring there’s always hope in him that it may be Hyukjae but it’s Siwon.

And, after picking up the call, Donghae feels better thanks to Siwon.

“How are you?” Siwon asks Donghae.

“I’m fine” Donghae answers Siwon.

Donghae wonders if he’s trusted by Siwon. He expects him to figure out it’s a lie.

“Would you like to join me at the gym?” Siwon asks Donghae in a softer voice.

“Yes, I would like to join you at the gym” Donghae answers Siwon in a softer voice as well.

And, all of a sudden, he manages to smile even if slightly.

He’s going to join him at the gym for a hardc