Your POV

 Two months... two months without Jiyong. Even though it all felt like yesterday, even though he tried to keep in touch when he had free time in the midst of all the music broadcasts, talk shows and variety programs, I felt a bit lost and sad because of his comeback that started almost right after he arrived in Korea. On top of that he never asked me to date him or anything. So I didn't know if I should consider him as a friend or lover? He was too far away to be a lover and too close to be only a friend. All this undefined kind of relationship felt suffocating and made me feel hurt.

 I received my graduation diploma sooner than expected and right now I was choosing plane tickets on the internet. I finally clicked "buy" and felt sudden rush of excitement. Finally! 

The day of flight

- Go Eun, I'm finally going to Korea! - I exclaimed looking at my friend. - You will come after a month right? - I looked at my best friend in anticipation of her response. 

- Of course, - she told me and we hugged before waving each other good bye. I went towards the terminal feeling excited.

Arrival

Oh My God, - I gasped after landing in the huge airport of Incheon. I closed my eyes and made a wish. I wanted my time in Korea to be special. "Please let me find my destiny here"- I whispered quitely and made my out of the gate and headed towards the subway station. 

After taking a seat in the subway I sighed to myself thinking about Jiyong. Of course, I missed him... and I wanted him to be here tonight waiting for me in the airport. But I didn't tell him that I was coming to Korea. Simply because he didn't have time to keep in touch recently. And I needed some time to think a bit before meeting him in Korea. 

I unlocked the door of my aunt and stepped in her house. She seemed to be still at work. My aunt lived alone in Korea and she always invited me to come live with her but I never really considered it. Well, now is the time to see if I can live in Korea.

The next day

 - Rose, you should wake up now. Today's Saturday and I have to show you around! - my aunt was excited as if she was my friend who came to travel with me. 

- Good morning, - I said waking up with closed eyes and messy hair. It was hard for me to wake up after long flight. And honestly, I didn't have any energy because I kept thinking about Jiyong...

   Me and my aunt went to see all the hot places in Seoul. We were eating the famous korean pork cutlet called donkkaseu when a man approached us. 

- Hello! I'm from Tree J Entertainment. I wanted to ask you if you're interested in becoming an actress? - the man looked at me waiting for my response. I looked at my aunt and I felt like looking at myself cause we both seemed shocked.

- Uhm... I don't really know.. have a seat please, - I offered, being the first to get out of trance. 

- You can call me Mr. Kim. I'm a manager of Tree J Entertainment and we are currently looking for new actors to join our team. It's the company where Jang Keun Suk works. Actually he founded it himself, - he tried to explain after taking a seat.

- Hello, - me and my aunt both bowed slightly and introduced ourselves.

- So what about coming for a casting tomorrow? - Mr.Kim asked politely.

- Well... I never had any plans to become an actress before. But... I will give it a try, - I said surprising not only my aunt but even myself. 

- I'm glad that you decided to give it a chance. Here is my namecard. Please give me your number too so that I could contact you, - Mr.Kim gave me his phone to type my phone number. I did as he said and pressed "save".

- Thank you, Rose. Hope your casting tomorrow will be successful, - Mr.Kim smiled warmly and got up from his seat. Me and my aunt smiled back and after he left us we both looked at each other in awe. 

- Oh! My! God! - we both exclaimed as if we won a lottery.

The day of casting

- I'm so nervous! I didn't even prepare anything, - I jumped up slightly feeling extremely nervous and excited at the same time. 

- That's okay! They all know that you were invited to the casting yesterday, - my aunt smiled reassuringly and hugged me. - Now go and let them see how charming you are! - she patted my back. I smiled at her words feeling encouraged.

  After arriving at Tree J building I called Mr.Kim just as he told me to do yesterday during the phone call at home. 

- Hello, Rose! Did you come already? I will come and tell the guards to let you in, - he told me. I felt relieved that Mr.Kim was a warm person. 

After entering the room where my casting was to be held I started to feel nervous again. I felt myself like I was under a microscope. I looked at the judges one by one. Mr. Kim, Mr. Park (his name was written on the desk) and finally Mr.Jang. Yes, Jang Keun Suk. Great! Now I had to be tested right in front of my favorite actor. On top of that I had to show my acting skills, which I had none! After introducing myself they started to ask questions about my talents. 

- So Rose, show us singing or dancing. One out of two. The one that you do better, - they told me.

- I will go with dancing. Is free style okay? - I tensed up preparing to show everything I learned during high school when I attended dance classes. The judges nodded urging me to start.

With music on I tried my best to show my dancing skills. I tried to forget about the casting and feel the rhythm.

- Now act out the role of a very excited girl who speaks on the phone with her boyfriend, - they told me after seeing me dance. 

- I'll help you, - Jang Keun Suk spoke up for the first time with his perfect manly voice. - I'll play the role of boyfriend, is it okay? - he grinned at me. I nodded smiling back.

- Hi! Are you preparing to meet me? - Keun Suk suddenly sounded happy and excited doing the gesture of speaking on the phone. I followed the gesture.

- Hi oppa! - you chuckled. - I miss you already! - I tried to act cute like girls in the korean dramas.

- Aww, you miss me already? I can't bear it, we have to meet now! - he responded. I giggled in response.

- Oppa, I'm still putting my make up on. I have to be pretty, right? - I tried my best to be present in the moment. I tried my best to lose myself in the role.

- My girlfriend is pretty even without make-up on, - Keun Suk chuckled and I felt my heart beating fast as if it was all real.

- Cut! - Mr.Kim smiled and I smiled back hoping it all seemed well in their eyes too. Because in my eyes it all seemed not bad at all. - Rose, we will tell you the result in a few days. Thank you! - they stated and I thanked them, bowing while saying goodbye.

As I left the room and went towards the elevator I heard someone call my name. I turned to look at my back and saw Jang Keun Suk approaching me with something in his hand.

- Yes? - I felt confused not having any idea why he followed me here.

- You left it there on the floor, - Keun Suk gave me my silver bracelet. - I think it dropped when you were dancing, - he smiled.

- Thank you, Mr.Jang, - I bowed a bit.

- Oh no need to be so formal! - he chuckled. - Just call me Keun Suk oppa, - he looked at me amused at his own thoughts.

- Uhm, I don't think it'll be okay for me to call you oppa, - I stated.

- Well then sunbae maybe? Because if you become a trainee here I will be your sunbae! - Keun Suk looked right in my eyes. Intensity here too. His eyes somehow resembled Jiyong's. Or maybe I was too into thoughts of GD that I looked for his resemblance in others?

- Alright, sunbae! Thank you! - I bowed to him slightly and rode elevator still caught in the thoughts of Jiyong.