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Joshua POV I thought I had accepted the fact that my first love was in love with my best friend. I thought it would not be this painful because I already convinced myself that he will never be mine, and that they were for each other. I thought ... Yeah, it's all in my mind, and now ... My heart shattered into pieces when the truth slaps me in the face. *Flashback* My eyes widened, and I was taken aback. Coups kissing Jeonghan in front of everyone? In front of ... Me. I felt my legs weak, my whole body was shaking. "Jeonghan ah ..." His name slipped from my lips just like that, while looking at them. I laughed bitterly, This is why sometimes … I keep my feelings to myself. I know I can't be angry, but then I'm in pain, I feel shattered and broken. I'm scared … And sad because I don't think I'll ever recover from this pain. Please Shua … Stop looking at them, why are you so stupid? You're hurting yourself more.  I sighed heavily, Why am I even followed them here? Why am I so desperate? Why am I an idiot? Why am I so numb? Why am I still hoping? Why am I still falling deeper in love with you, Yoon Jeonghan? Why … Do you have to love my best friend and not ... Me? I felt my eyes stung … Great! Now I can't hold back my tears anymore. Who would've thought it will hurt like this? It's really hurt, Jeonghan ah … *End of Flashback* Hong residence,

I went back home, with a broken heart. "Darling! My handsome son Hong Jisoo, you're finally here!" Mom greeted me cheerfully once I stepped in, inside our house. I smiled at her and kissed her cheek. As usual, I need to pretend that I'm still okay, even though ... I'm actually falling apart inside. "I'm home, Mom ..." She caressed my hair lovingly and asked, "Do you want something to eat? I'll cook it for you," she smiled. My Mom is a famous chef not only here in Korea but also to other countries. "No, I'm good Mom, I'm not hungry ..." I replied, flashing her a convincing smile. Mom suddenly frowned while examining me from head to toe. "Did something wrong?" She worriedly asked. A Mother will always be a Mother, she really knows everything. She knew when there's something wrong with her son. But then, of course ... I don't want my Mom to worry about me so, I shook my head and answered. "I'm okay Mom, I just need to take some rest. School is really tiring today," I smiled. She pouted her lips, still not convinced of what I said. She then asked, "Is it about your Cheonsa?" My eyes widened, and I immediately looked away. Yes, my Mom knew about Yoon Jeonghan, I told her everything about him, and how much I ... Love him. "W-what do you mean Mom?" I still want to pretend that I don't know what she's talking about. "Did you confess to him?" I gave her a more surprised look, she looked at me straight in the eyes searching for an answer. I pursed my lips and answered, "A-almost ... But, Seungcheol came and I ... I should have know that Jeonghan ah is already in love with my best friend. I want him to be happy." Mom eyes soften and smiled at me with sympathy. "You're really a good guy my son, Jeonghan ah will definitely see it." I smiled back at her and nodded. Yes, he's only seeing me as a good guy and not someone special like Choi Seungcheol to him. End of Joshua POV Seungcheol POV "So, what did you do to my Hannie, Cheollie ya?" My Mom asked from the other line. She was currently in Paris with my Dad checking our fashion boutiques there. "What do you mean Mom?" I asked back. "The maids told me that Hannie refused to go out to his room so, I assumed it's your fault why he's acting like that." I rolled my eyes, "I didn't do anything wrong." "Oh really?" "I just kissed him, what's wrong with that?" I blurted out. I heard my Mom gasped, "You what?" Her voice is somehow excited than surprised. "You sound happy." "Well, I just think you really like him," she giggled. "I do ... But, if you mean romantically, I'm not in love with him." "Oho! Are you sure? The way you act around him is opposite from what you're saying now." "You know I don't want to fall in love again Mom. I told you about that a long time ago." "But you're not pushing him away. To be honest, I think you really have feelings for him." "I know why you're thinking like that Mom." I sighed, "Okay, I must admit … When I first met Cheonsa, he actually reminded me of her. I admit it that he caught my attention because I'm seeing her to Yoon Jeonghan. The way he smiles, the way he talks … I felt like … I'm with her everytime I'm with Cheonsa. That's why, I don't want to fall in love with him." "Is it because he looks like her? Or you're actually AFRAID to fall in love again?" "Look, I just really don't want to fall in love again,