AN: Hey guys~ I’m back with another chapter that you guys will hopefully enjoy :)

I have gotten a lot of comments and messages, and I really appreciate all of them – I really do!

It makes me want to write more and gives me a lot of motivation, so thank you!!!

Also, I am a Sunggyu-stan – for those of yall who don’t know – so Sunggyu will be appearing in a few chapters (but unfortunately will be missing for a while TT), and with a big role.

But for now I’m sorry TT TT I WANT MORE SUNGGYU TOO

But I made this fic more book stylish, so it’s probably only going to have Woohyun’s POV in it until the plot is finished (Though I might add a few bonuses at the end).

So, stay tuned! Imma gonna make Sunggyu’s reappearance AMAZING XD

P.S. I also realized I just don't have the self control to not post for a week ._.

I’m getting drunk enough to enjoy my own going-away party. The people I pass either gawk or get out of the way. It’s not every day that a rich-looking kid is spotted staggering through the projects of Gangnam with no coat and a bottle of his father’s favorite soju in his hand.

A seven-foot hulk in a black coat and knit hat emerges from the lobby of one of the buildings. In the darkness, he looks like a bear standing on its hind legs.

Suddenly the bear of a man takes off toward the west, moving more quickly than you’d think possible for a beast of his size. I have a feeling he’ll be back with friends. I don’t care.

I drop to the ground with a thump and sit with my back against a tree. I take a swig from the bottle and gag. I wonder if stealing a thirty-thousand-dollar bottle of liquor is grounds for expulsion from the Woollim Academy. Seems highly unlikely.

I guess I’ll find out in the morning.

Soju or no soju, Jungyeop can’t be too happy that I slipped out of his little cocktail party.

Six of his favorite alumnis had shown up to check out the horse he’d backed. The so-called ‘fans.’

And these weren’t your average gamblers. A lady senator. A chaebol. Two big-shots CEOs. A businesswoman who’d flown in from China. And some dude with a scraggly beard and camouflage pants. I knew they were all there to place their own bets. So Jungyeop made sure I’d been cleaned up and decked out in the finest duds.

As soon as we stepped into the alumni lounge on the first floor, the guests began examining my physique and picking my brain. They still seemed to walk away satisfied. When they began to pair off to compare notes, I grabbed a bottle from the bar and headed straight for the exit.

Jungyeop must have let me leave because he figured I’d be back. But if he was really smart, he’d have stopped me. His cameras probably caught me with a bottle in my hand, but nobody saw the piece of paper tucked into the waistband of my fancy new pants.

I pull out the course catalog and flip through its pages for the third time tonight. Jungyeop says the catalogs can’t leave the academy. But I think he’s being a little too cautious. No one would ever take this seriously.

I mean, who’s going to believe that the prestigious Woollim Academy offers classes on assassination techniques? So despite my sticky fingers, his secrets are probably safe. Too bad. I was hoping I’d be able to skip all this BS and persuade Jungyeop to make a trade.

His catalog for my dad’s life. But there’s no way he’ll go for it.

I cackle and close one eye so the words on the catalog’s pages stop squirming. There isn’t a single art class listed. No literature, either. Nothing useless. It’s all business all the time at the fabulous Woollim Academy.

No wonder the alumni have the personalities of cyborgs.

The more I read, the more nauseous I get. Finally I have to put the catalog down and wash the vomit back with a glug of soju. I’m cold. Starting to drift off, but my eyes pop open. A little boy is standing a few yards away, snapping my picture with the camera on his crappy phone.

“Hey, what time is it?” I shout.

The kid jumps about three feet in the air. He probably thought I was dead.

“What time?” I repeat. “Look at your goddamn phone.”

“Eight,” he squeaks, and runs away.

“That’s what I thought.” My eyes flutter shut again.

• • •

I left military school seven months ago, but there’s an alarm in my head that still goes off at eight every evening. That’s when they the Wi-Fi for an hour. You were supposed to cram all of your Internet research into sixty short minutes. I could have slept through every class and still been named the school’s valedictorian.

So I used the time to talk to Myung.

He was always there when I logged on—even on weekends when he must have had better things to do. We chatted about stupid stuff. Boxing and girls and dirty Busan slang I’d picked up from my fellow cadets.

Never once did he give me any reason to suspect that he had something planned. Then the night before I went AWOL, I found a message in my in-box. He’d sent it just before two o’clock that afternoon.

‘You’re coming home soon,’ it said. ‘I know something. He won’t hurt you or Mom again.’

My fingers couldn’t type fast enough.

‘Don’t do anything! Swear you won’t!’

I hit send and waited for a response. I was still waiting when the lights went out. Sometimes I imagine my message floating around cyberspace for the rest of eternity.

The next morning, I left for my daily cross-country jog with sixty-five dollars and three sets of clothing hidden under my tracksuit. I hopped the fence at the mile mark and walked until I hit the highway.

An old lady at the bus stop let me borrow her phone. A maid answered at my parents’ house. I asked for Myung and hung up when she started to cry.

I went to Incheon first. To the only mortuary in my hometown that my father would trust with his youngest son’s corpse. It was late when I got there, and the entrance was locked. I started searching for a way inside.

I would have broken a window or kicked down the door if a woman hadn’t shown up with a key. I don’t recall her name. I can’t even see her face in my mind. All I remember is the black box she was carrying.

“You’re the brother, aren’t you?” she asked. “The one who went missing.”

I must have managed a nod.

“They said you might come here,” she added. “We’re supposed to call your father if we see you.”

“Don’t,” I croaked.

“I wasn’t planning to,” she said kindly. “I made up my mind about that when I saw your brother.”

“What happened to him?” I asked.

“They say he fell. Down the stairs in your house.” I could tell she didn’t buy the story.

“Can I see him?”

She held up the black box. “They just finished cleaning him up a little while ago. I haven’t started his makeup yet. I don’t think . . .”

“Please.”

She sighed for my sake and unlocked the door.

• • •

Myungsoo was lying on an embalming table. I could see his freshly washed hair sticking out from beneath the sheet that covered the rest of his body. It was the only time I’d seen my brother so perfectly still. I stood at his side and slid the cloth down to his shoulders.

The face I saw wasn’t the one I remembered.

I thought I recognized my father’s handiwork in Myung’s broken nose and shattered bones. But if my dad’s fists could inflict that kind of damage, he must have been holding back all those times he beat me.

I couldn’t figure out why he’d let loose on him. And I knew I’d never be able to prove that he had. In fact, if it hadn’t been for Myungsoo’s email, I might have bought into the story that his death was an accident.

But I knew. I only had a single small clue, but I knew my brother must have died trying to help me.

“He used to be handsome,” I said.

“He looked like you. They gave me a picture,” the woman whispered behind me. I thought she might have been crying. I couldn’t turn around.

“Would it be okay if I stay here until you’re finished?”

I heard her take a deep breath. “Sure,” she said on the exhale.

“My father will have you fired if he finds out.” It was only fair to warn her.

“That’s okay, honey. Some things are more important than a job.”

I found a chair and sat with my forehead resting on the edge of the embalming table and one hand on my brother’s cold arm. I honestly thought I might die on that spot. The only thing I’d ever really believed in was Myungsoo. He was my evidence that our father was full of .

That you could choose to be something other than weak or strong.

But it turned out that my father had been right from the start. You’re either one or the other. There are no alternatives—and no space in between. Myung died because he had one fatal flaw. A chink in his armor. A soft spot that he couldn’t keep hidden.

Myungsoo was killed because his weakness was me.

That night was the first time he appeared to me in a dream. He wasn’t the dead sixteen-year-old with the broken face. He was the ten-year-old Peter Pan. Impish. Immortal.

“Myung-ah, please don’t leave me here,” I begged him.

“This isn’t goodbye,” he insisted. “You know that place between sleep and awake? The place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll be waiting.”

“That’s not f—ing good enough!” I shouted, almost choking on snot and tears.

“It’s not good, but it’s enough,” he said. “You’ll see. Did you get my gift?”

“Gift?”

He wiggled his fingers at me. “Use them wisely, and you’ll have everything that you need.”

The makeup lady shook me. “It’s morning,” she said. “You need to leave before my boss gets in.”

“Did you fix him?” I asked. “Myung has to look like himself when he gets there.”

She must have thought I meant heaven—not Never Land. She didn’t realize I’d lost my mind. “I worked on him all night. Would you like me to show you?”

“No,” I told her. “I have to keep him alive.”

It was as simple as that. I began to believe. That Myung wasn’t gone—just far, far away. And that as soon as I’d punished the man who had murdered my brother, I’d finally be able to join him.

• • •

The bear man from earlier is standing over me. I’m a goner for sure. That’s okay. A bear attack is a perfectly dignified way to die. There are probably bears in Never Land too. Then I hear a familiar voice.

“Can you carry him?” I can’t see Sunggyu. He must be standing in the bear’s shadow.

“Yeah,” says the bear.

“Be careful, he likes to fight,” some kid offers in the background.

“He’s not going to be doing any fighting tonight,” says the bear with a chortle.

When he bends down to pick me up, I recognize the man in the black coat who’d been watching me. He’s even bigger close up. I almost throw up when he tosses me over his shoulder.

“Thanks Changmin-ah.” Sunggyu says.

“Anything for you, baby,” Changmin replies with a toothy grin.

“Don’t call him baby.” I try to sound tough. Everyone laughs.

When I come to, I’m under Sunggyu’s sheets. He’s taken off my clothes and put a bucket next to the bed. I have a pounding headache, and my mouth is parched. But I’m sober enough to see that there’s someone sitting in a chair across the room.

“Myung-ah?” I whisper.

“Who’s Myung?” It’s Sunggyu in the chair.

“My brother.” I know I’m still drunk when I hear myself say it.

“You have a brother?”

“I had a brother.”

“Oh,” Sunggyu says, as if that explains it all. He’s smart, so I guess maybe it does.

“I’m sorry about what I said to you yesterday.”

“Good,” says Sunggyu. “So can I ask you something, Flick?”

“What happened to ‘Always listen, never ask’? Are you breaking your own rules?”

“Just tonight,” Sunggyu says. “Just for you.”

“Okay, then.”

“Are you in trouble? I mean, some guy in a sports car drops you off yesterday, and you get out looking like hell. Tonight you were roaming the projects dressed in head-to-toe million wear. Changmin said your bottle of soju must have cost two hundred bucks.”

“That Changmin really knows his soju,” I say.

“Don’t f—ing joke about this! You could have frozen to death out there!” He probably just woke up everyone in the colony.

“Why are you shouting at me?”

“Because . . .” He shakes her head. We both know why he’s so angry. It doesn’t need to be said.

“I came to the city to find something, Sunggyu. I didn’t even know what it was at first, but I think I just found it. So I won’t be getting drunk anymore.”

“I’m glad to hear that, cause the next time I have to go save your . . .”

“There won’t be a next time. I promise.” There won’t be. That’s one promise I’ll keep. “Come here. Please.”

He crawls into the bed beside me. Paradise must smell like vanilla bean and strawberry oil. It feels and tastes like Sunggyu’s kiss.

“Can I ask you a question? I swear it’s not about heaven.”

Sunggyu laughs. “Shoot.”

“Why do you love me?” I ask him.

“Because you love me back,” he says without hesitation.

“You have no idea how much,” I tell him.

“Yes, I do,” he says.

• • •

It’s the first time I’ve seen Peter Pan so pissed off. He’s pacing the room and muttering to himself.

“What?!” I demand.

He attacks, holding the blade of his wooden sword to my throat. “I won’t let you do it. You can’t take it away from him. You're his one good thing!”

“He’ll find another,” I say, pushing the sword back. “And I can’t let him get in the way. People like Sunggyu make you soft and vulnerable. Remember Lois Lane? Why do you think the comic guys invented her in the first place? ’Cause they needed Superman to have a weakness other than kryptonite.”

“You’ve lost your mind.” Myungsoo shakes his head.

“Tell me something I don’t know, Peter Pan. And then let me finish what you sent me to do.”

He’s stunned. “You think I brought you to Guryong for my sake? I brought you here to find Sunggyu, you idiot. Who else is going to sew your shadow back on?”

“I haven’t lost my shadow, Myung. It’s the rest of me that’s missing.”

“He’ll help you find it! I bet he knows just where to look!”

“I don’t want to look. I want to deal with Dad and I can only do that by going to Woollim. And then when I’m done, I’ll come be with you.”

“What if I don’t want you in Never Land?”

“You can’t keep me out.”

Myungsoo glares. “I don’t want your company! I want you to stay here and be happy!”

“I don’t deserve any of this, Myung-ah. I was the reason you died.”

“No, Dad was the reason I died.”

“And Jungyeop has the proof! He said he’d give it to me!”

“If you let him turn you into our father.”

“How else can I be strong enough to beat Dad? You have to let me do it, Myung. Please don’t try to stop me.”

Myungsoo doesn’t look pissed anymore. He looks like a terrified ten-year-old boy. “If you go, I won’t be able to go with you. You saw for yourself—all of the building’s windows are sealed shut. There’s no way for me to slip inside.”

“There must be . . .” I start to argue.

“No,” Peter Pan insists. “I can’t go with you. You’ll have to leave me behind.”

“Just for a little while, then. It won’t be forever,” I promise. “I’ll see you as soon as I’m done.”

“How can you be so sure?” he asks.