Sungmin's POV

Huff. I feel like my body is getting weaker day by day. I get tired easily. What happen to me? is it because of my anemia? I can assure you that I take all the medicine that doctor prescribe me. Well, let's forget it for a while first. Need to prepare myself to go exercise with three couple. I am happy that I can be with my beloved friend, kyuhyun, to be in one group. Even we are just 1 year into training but we will make our debut soon.

I am accepted as an SM trainee for about one year now. Of course my family knows about this. They support me fully, but I have to promise to them, despite I take the training in SM regularly, I must not leave my school behind. Education should be a priority for me. I took the audition by myself. It was a coincidence also. I came to that audition to accompany my friend, whom no other than cho kyuhyun. He really want to try his luck, besides his voice is good. While me? well, I can sing, at least not out off tune :p

He asked me to accompany him because he doesn't want to go there alone, or so he tell me. He is my dongsaeng's friend, senior to be exact. He forced me. He said to me if I was bored then it's better for me to just fill in the form then auditioned along with him. I refused him at first but he kept insisted me so I gave up and filled the form.

This kyuhyun guy likes to hang out in my house even though sungjin is not around yet. He usually come by evening after his class end and come crashing my tidy bedroom, yes, my bedroom not sungjin's. That guy can be annoying sometimes. But, I have to admit that he is cute. ^///^  

I prepared nothing. I used a clothes that I usually wears when I go to college. A pink-blue stripe shirt and a black slacks. It was so formal, yet they still accept me. Or is it because of those clothes that I am accepted? I look like a businessman~ maybe it was my plus point? hahaha It was unpredictable though. I sang 사랑하기 떼문에 (because of love). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9c811E42NXc&feature=player_embedded

This song just popped up in my head 15 minutes before I entered the audition room. I would say this again. It was indeed a miracle that I become SM trainee. About my friend, of course he's accepted too~ since his voice is way better than mine. kekeke

Ok so I am now ready and heading to SM building. Of course, hyukjae is with me, tailing me wherever I go. He becomes handy now, I don't have to drive the car myself because hyukjae will drive it for me <3 hahaha It's been, ermm 4 weeks since hyukjae works with me. I learn to accept him and he is nice you know. He usually jokes to cheer me up, even though his jokes are mostly crispy but I laugh nonetheless, and of course remind me to take my medicine so I will not collapse because of exhausted. I have anemia. Don't you remember that? :p

Narrator's POV

The ride to the building is somehow silent. Sungmin takes some time to sleep and leaves hyukjae alone driving. They are finally arrive at the said building and directly heading to the exercise room and join his team members. There you can see park jungsoo or leeteuk some people will call him or he would prefer to be called with, kyuhyun, taeyeon, sunny, and jessica. They are in the middle of stretching while they are waiting for him.

Sungmin maybe looks excited outside. In fact, there is a battle going on inside himself. He still can not erase the conversation that was happened between him and siwon that time when they were in the KBS building.

- flashback -

"Oh sungmin, I heard from your parents that you are a trainee in SM Entertainment. Is that true?" siwon asked in the middle of their walking around KBS building. Sungmin's parent and his brother sungjin were watching music bank. Sungjin is a big fans of IU. A talented girl who has a beautiful voice and of course pretty also. So he insisted their parents to go along with him and leave sungmin with siwon behind.

"Yeah it's true. It's been 1 year now." he took a seat in the one and only long bench that exist on there. They were at the rooftop of KBS building. Siwon lead them to go there. Siwon followed sungmin and sit beside him while hyukjae stood behind sungmin. He looked around and kept an eyes of the surrounding just in case something bad would happen to his mister.

"why? you seem curious about it?" he was facing siwon now

"Ah, no. It's just. Well." siwon looked hesitate at first and try to avoid ming's gaze at first but ming kept calling him and forced him to face him then he continued, "Well min, It's never been an easy task to be a CEO." siwon studied ming's facial expression. He wanted to know whether sungmin will take this easy or not. Seeing no change on sungmin's face he then continued. "You know that human will face choices in their live and like it or not, they should choose one right?" once again, sungmin gave siwon a blank face and replied none.

so siwon took a deep breath before continuing, "I, no, Mr. Lee and the rest of KBS staffs want you to choose one sungmin," he paused a little while and continued before sungmin could mutter a single word, "I know it is hard for you to choose, but please, decide whether you really want to be a singer or CEO."

"What the hell are you trying to say? We even just met for several hours yet u ask me to choose between those two? are you insane or simple you just forget to drink your medicine? huh?" obviously sungmin is mad toward siwon. 

without any notice sungmin stand up from his current position and leave siwon there. dumbfounded.

-end of flashack-

Sungmin is spacing out too often to his friends liking. So when they are having a break, kyuhyun is approaching sungmin who is now lying down panting because of exhausted. Kyuhyun sit beside sungmin and he handed the mineral water bottle to the elder who need it

"I bring you mineral water. I see that you haven't any"

Sungmin took it then he sit up to drink it. He then mumble a thank you to kyuhyun. He doesn't mutters any other words after. Hyukjae who is sitting in the other corner of the room eyed both sungmin and kyuhyun. He surely knows what sungmin exactly is thinking. He pitied the older. How such an ordinary person like sungmin can turned into someone that needed by many people; not to mention s in three couple, KBS, and chased by some bad guys are something that anyone would avoid if they can.

Sungmin's POV

Aish this kid!! why he has to approach me? I am not in my mood to interact with other people now. Ok let's just pretend that I did not know his coming but then he nudge me and give me the mineral water. I say thank you to him. Loud enough for him to hear me. Then here we go. The unwanted question that I wanted to avoid so much.

"Hyung, are you seriously sure that you ARE ok?" kyuhyun is now extremely close to my liking. I shifted a little, avoiding him. I tried to calm my heart and my head. I.. I... I don't know why my heart is beating so fast every time I near him but it just did. Moreover I am still not ready with that question. Of course I am not OK! Siwon's word keep ringing on my head! huff ><

"Huh? What with this sudden action cho? Hahaha" I keep my composure still so that he wouldn't notice that I am fidgeting. 

I search for hyukjae's figure. I sense that this conversation with kyuhyun will lead to no good. and there! I found him in the corner of the room. I look at him with pleading eyes as if asking for help. I know that hyukjae knows what's goin on my mind right now. Of course he knows, he's there too when I had that talk with siwon the day before.

Narrator's POV

As if reading sungmin's mind, hyukjae stand up from where he sits and approach the two. He then take a seat beside sungmin and hyukjae stand up from where he sits and approach the two. He then take a seat beside sungmin and he just sit, without even saying a word. Sungmin's frowning now. It's useless to ask for help from him he thought. As if heaven hears his prayer, their leader leeteuk and the other members are now gathering around them and take a sit.

Leeteuk then inform them that they will debut in about 3 months ahead. So they will have to record a song for their single and not to mention shoot for their MV and for their jacket album. Sungmin is frozen on his place. He knows that they will make a debut this year but he can't believe that it will this fast. 3 months?!

Hyukjae who sits next to sungmin see that sungmin is frozen on his place. He can't let sungmin to be in this state. He doesn't want sungmin's friends notice his curent condition. He then nudge him to get his attention and whisper to him that he should keep calm and take a deep breath. Loud enough for sungmin to hear and not the others. Sungmin then take a deep breath like hyukjae asked him before to and then he think hard again.

He should make his final decision tomorrow, since it's the day when they will take vocal. Sungmin is one of the lead vocal of the band so It's better for him to resign before they take the vocal to avoid the things that can mess up later on. So, I will resign from the band then? sungmin thought and ruffled his hair in frustration and making his friends look into him. Sungmin notice this and he just smile and shrug his shoulder and his friends focus back to leeteuk who is still explaining about their debut plan.

"What should I do? I am dead I know!" Sungmin ruffled his hair mentally as not to attract anymore attention from his friends. He then have a bright idea while he is thinking,

"Yes, I'm going to talk to Mr. Lee no matter what. I believe he will agree to my choice. His the president of KBS after all not siwon. I believe I can persude him and beside, he said that he is my father right? so, maybe I can do some aegyo and win his heart?" Sungmin thought and smile mischievously. 

Sungmin is oblivious of his surrounding. Sure all of his friends are listening obidiently to their leader but what sungmin doesn't know is this particular person who sits not so far beside him is watching him all the time. 

"Sungmin what is happening to you?" kyuhyun frowns and he doesn't stop staring at sungmin as if he is trying to read what is going on in sungmin's brain.

Lee hyukjae who sees this scene can just sigh. He believes that even sungmin may be petite in the outer and look young but it doesn't apply to his mind. He is mature enough to decide what is best for him and to people around him. Hyukjae knows that sungmin can decided this thing soon.

Nb: I am really sorry that this is take much much longer. Tbh I have no confident at all on continuing this one. Because well I have no feedback about this fic. It's not that I want comment(s). But I don't know~ I am losing my muse in writing this fic. Then I confuse whether should I continue this fic or not. But I am a reader too I know how it is when I already read a chaptered fic and the writer not continue it. Hah~ I'm sorry because I'm talking to myself here.. hihihi.. Thank you all for reading this.. I will try my best to write this fic and to get my muse back XD

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