As he pulled himself together to go on stage, he looked around at s. The Eunhae couple was discussing where to eat after the show, the Kyumin couple where all lovey dovey with Sungmin fixing Kyuhyun’s hair and the Yewook couple sat on the sofa snuggled up against each other. He felt a pang in his heart and had to look away. This was the first concert after his lover's enlistment in the army and he had never felt more alone, more , more vulnerable. There was no Kangin to sing to, no Kangin to goof around with, no Kangin to do fan service with. As the manager came and told them they were on in 15 minutes, Eeteuk knew he had to get out of the room to collect himself. He needed some space.

He found an empty dressing room at the end of the long hallway and entered. He closed the door behind him, slid down the wall opposite of the big mirror and felt his facade crumble. His face contorted and the tears started gathering in his eyes while he desperately tried to hold his sobs back. He held his legs tightly to his body and buried his face in his arms as he gave up on trying to withhold the sobs. He sobbed so loudly that he didn't notice when the door opened and Heechul stepped into the room. He quietly went to the leader and sat down beside him to offer some comfort; after all, he had lost his lover too and knew the pain Eeteuk was feeling. Eeteuk held on to Heechul for dear life and tried to calm down enough to be able to go on stage in ten mi