CHAPTER ONE

 

Changmin stared at her twin sister in shock. ‘You surely don’t mean to go through with it?’

Jaejoong gave her a defiant look from beneath lashes heavy with thick black mascara. ‘I can’t cope with a baby. Besides, I never really wanted her in the first place.’

 

‘But Yeonhee is so young!’ Changmin protested. ‘How can you possibly think of giving her away?’

 

‘It’s easy.’ Jaejoong pouted. ‘This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. If I don’t take it with both hands it might never come again.’

 

‘But she’s only four months old!’ Changmin cried. ‘Surely you owe it to Yoochun’s memory to raise her.’

 

‘I owe him nothing!’ Jaejoong spat. ‘You seem to be forgetting that he refused to acknowledge her as his child. He wouldn’t even agree to a paternity test, no doubt because he didn’t want to upset that cow of a fiancée of his.’ She paced the room angrily. ‘I should’ve known he wasn’t to be trusted. The Jung males are known for their playboy lifestyle; you have only to look at yesterday’s paper to realise that.’

 

Changmin  was well aware of the photograph of Jung Yunho, Yoochun's older brother, in the Sydney weekend broadsheet. It was rare for a week to go past without some reference to his billionaire fast-paced fast-women lifestyle. His dark good looks had been the first thing she’d noticed when she’d opened the paper.

 

‘Does Jung Yunho know about your intention to give his niece up for adoption?’ she asked her sister.

 

Jaejoong turned back to face her. ‘I wrote to his father in Italy a few weeks ago but he flatly refused to acknowledge Yeonhee as his granddaughter. So this time I sent a photo of her. That should set the cat among the pigeons, when he sees how like Yoochun she is. I felt the need to twist the knife since it’s his precious son’s fault my life has been stuffed up.’

 

‘But surely—’

 

Jaejoong gave her a bristling look. ‘As far as I’m concerned, I want nothing more to do with the Jung family. I gave them a chance to claim Yeonhee but they brushed me off. That’s why I’m leaving now to get on with Plan B.’

 

‘Leaving?’Changmin stared at her in consternation. ‘Leaving to go where?’

 

‘America.’

 

‘But what about Yeonhee?’ she gasped, her heart tripping in alarm. ‘You’re surely not thinking of…’ She couldn’t even frame the rest of the words.

 

Jaejoong gave a dismissive shrug of one shoulder. ‘You can look after her for a month or two—you do most of the time anyway. Besides, it’s clear she loves you more than me, so I don’t see why I shouldn’t hand her over to you temporarily. You can take care of her until someone adopts her.’

 

Changmin’s stomach rolled over painfully. It was hard for her to imagine her sister having so little regard for the tiny infant who lay sleeping in the pram near the window. How could she be so unfeeling as to walk away from her own baby?

 

‘Look—’ she tried to reason with her ‘—I know you’re upset; it’s only been a few months since Yoochun…went.’

 

Jaejoong her furiously. ‘What’s with the euphemism? Yoochun didn’tgo somewhere—he died .’

 

Changmin swallowed. ‘I—I know.’

 

‘I’m just glad he took his stupid fiancée with him,’ Jaejoong added in a surly tone.

 

‘You surely don’t mean that?’

 

Jaejoong’s features twisted in bitterness. ‘Of course I mean it. I hatehe Jung family and anyone connected to them.’ She tossed her mane of blonde hair over one shoulder and looked back at her sister. ‘I have a chance at a new life with Kim Hyun Joong in America. He loves me and has promised me a part in one of his films. This will be my chance at the big screen. I’d be a fool to let it slip out of my hands. And if I play my cards right he might even ask me to marry him.’

 

‘Have you told him about Yeonhee?’

 

Jaejoong  rolled her eyes. ‘Are you nuts? Of course I didn’t tell him. He thinks Yeonhee  is your child.’

 

Changmin stared at her in alarm. ‘How can you even consider the possibility of marrying the man without telling him of your past?’

 

Jaejoong gave her sister a cutting look. 'Hyun Joong wouldn’t have considered being involved with me at all if I’d told him anything like that. He thinks the sun shines from my “childlike innocent” eyes, and I’m going to make sure he keeps thinking that way, even if I have to lie through my teeth every day to ensure he does.’

 

‘But surely if he really loves you—’

 

‘Look, Changmin, I don’t want to have the sort of life our mother had, flitting from one bad man to another and shunting kids off into horrible foster homes whenever things got tough. I want to have money and stability and I can’t have that with a kid hanging off my hip.’

 

‘But surely you could—’

 

‘No!’ Jaejoong cut her off impatiently. ‘You don’t get it, do you? I don’t want that child; I never did.’ She dumped Yeonhee’s changing bag next to the pram, the soft thump as it hit the floor striking a chord of disquiet in Changmin’s chest. ‘You were the one who talked me out of getting rid of the pregnancy, so I think it’s only fair you get to look after her now until I can find a private adoption candidate.’

 

‘Private adoption?’ Changmin instantly stiffened.

 

Jaejoong gave her sister a streetwise look. ‘There are people out there who will pay big money for a cute little baby. I want to make sure I get the best deal I can. With my connections With Hyun Joong I might even be able to find a Hollywood actor who will want Yeonhee . Think of the money they would be prepared to pay.’

 

Changmin’s eyes flared in shock and her heart began to thump unevenly behind her ribcage. ‘How can you do this to your own child?’

 

‘It’s none of your business what I do Jaejoong said. ‘She’s my child, not yours.’

 

‘Let me adopt her,’ Changmin begged. ‘I can do it. I’m a blood relative, which would make it so much easier, surely?’

 

Jaejoong shook her head. ‘No. I’m going to use this opportunity to its fullest extent.’ Her eyes glinted with unmistakable avarice. ‘It’s like a lucky windfall when you think about it. It’s my chance to free myself of Yoochun’s child and make a whole heap of money in the process.’

 

‘You’re so mercenary.’

 

‘Not mercenary—realistic,’ Jaejoong insisted. ‘We might be identical twins but I’m not like you, Changmin, and it’s high time you accepted it. I want to travel and I want the comfort of wealth and privilege around me. You can keep your long hours in a boring old library—I want a life.’

 

Changmin straightened her shoulders, her chin lifting in pride. ‘I enjoy my work.’

 

‘Yeah, well, I enjoy shopping and dining out and partying. And I’m going to do a hell of a lot of it when I get to Hyun Joong’s mansion in Los Angeles. I can’t wait.’

 

‘I can’t believe you’re simply going to walk away from your responsibilities. Yeonhee isn’t some sort of toy you can push to one side. She’s a baby, for God’s sake. Doesn’t that mean anything to you at all?’

 

‘No.’ Jaejoong’s cold grey eyes clashed with hers. ‘It means absolutely nothing to me. I told you—I don’t want her.’ She scooped up her bag and, rummaging in it, handed her sister a document folder. ‘Here is her birth certificate and passport; keep them safe for when it’s time to hand her over.’ She hoisted her handbag back on to her shoulder and turned for the door.

 

'Jaejoong, wait!’ Changmin cried, glancing at the pram in desperation. ‘Aren’t you even going to say goodbye to her?’

 

Jaejoong opened the door and, with one last determined look, closed it firmly behind her.

 

Changmin knew it would be hopeless running after her to implore her to come back. For most of her twenty-four years she’d been pleading with Jaejoong to stop and think about her actions, but to no avail. Her wayward and wilful twin had gone from one disaster to another, causing immeasurable hurt in the process and showing little remorse. But this was surely the worst so far.

 

There was a soft whimper from inside the pram and, moving across the small room, she reached inside to pick up the tiny pink bundle.

 

‘Hey, precious,’ she said as she cradled the infant close to her chest, marvelling yet again at the minute perfection of her features. ‘Are you hungry, little one?’

 

The baby began to nuzzle against her and Changmin felt a wave of overwhelming love wash through her. She couldn’t bear the thought of her niece being handed over to someone else to rear. What if things didn’t work out and Yeonhee's childhood ended up like hers and Jaejoong's? Changmin remembered it all too well—the regular stints in foster care, some of the placements a whole lot less desirable than the neglect she and her twin had received at home. How could she stand by and watch the same thing happen to Yeonhee?

 

Changmin knew how the legal adoption system worked but this private process made her feel very uneasy. What if someone totally unsuitable offered her sister a huge amount of money? What sort of screening process would the prospective parents go through, if any?

 

 

She became aware of the seeping wetness of Yeonhee's clothing and, carrying her through to her room, laid her on the bed and gently undressed her as she’d done countless times before. She got down to the last layer, a tiny yellowed vest that was frayed at the edges. She peeled it over the tiny child’s head, cooing to her niece as she did so until the soft nonsense of her words dried up in as she encountered what the vest had hidden from view. Her eyes widened in shock at the purple welt of bruises along Yeonhee’s ribcage, bruises that exactly matched the length and width of her own fingers as if she’d done the damage herself.

 

‘Oh, Jaejoong, how could you?’ she gulped, fighting back tears for how she hadn’t been able to prevent her niece from suffering what had been commonplace in her own childhood and that of her twin.

 

Changmin determined then and there that she would do whatever she could to keep Yeonhee herself. Surely there was a way to convince Jaejoong to give the baby to her permanently.

 

She had to find one!

 

Other single mothers coped, so too would she—somehow.

 

She chewed the ragged edge of one nail as she considered her options. It wouldn’t be easy for her—she could hardly afford childcare on her present salary at the library.

 

She looked down at the sleeping infant, her chest squeezing painfully at the thought of never seeing her tiny niece again.

 

No. She would simply not allow her sister to go through with it.

 

She would be Yeonhee's mother and if anyone thought differently, too bad.

 

No one was going to take her niece away from her.

 

No one.

 

 

Jung Yunho frowned as his secretary informed him via the office intercom that his father was on the phone from the Villa Jung in Sorrento, Italy.

 

He picked up the receiver and, swivelling in his leather chair, looked out at the expansive view over Sydney Harbour as he pressed the talk button.

 

‘Yunho! You have to do something about that woman and do it immediately,’ Jung Soo Man burst out in rapid-fire Italian.

 

‘I take it you mean Yoochun’s little ?’ Yunho answered smoothly.

 

‘She might be a but she is also the mother of my only grandchild,’ Soo Man growled.

 

Yunho stiffened in his chair. ‘What makes you so certain all of a sudden? Yoochun refused a paternity test; he said he had always used protection.’

 

 

‘He might have used protection but I now have reason to believe it failed.’

 

Yunho frowned and turned his chair back to his desk, the sudden thump of his heart in his chest surprising him into a temporary silence.

 

‘I have a letter in front of me with a small photo of the child.’ Soo Man’s voice cracked slightly as he continued. ‘She looks exactly like Yoochun at that age. It is Yoochun's child, I am sure of it.’

 

Yunho pressed his lips together as he fought to get his own raw emotions under some semblance of control. The death of his younger brother had privately devastated him, but for the sake of his terminally ill father he’d carried on the family business without a single hiccup. The Sydney branch of the Jung merchant bank was booming and he had every intention of maintaining the punishing hours he’d adopted to block out the pain of his brother’s death.

 

‘Papa.’ His voice was deep and rough around the edges. ‘This is all very hard to take in…’

 

‘We have to get that child,’ his father insisted. ‘She is all we have left of Yoochun.’

 

A tremor of unease passed through Yunho at the determined edge to his father’s tone. ‘How do you intend to accomplish this?’

 

‘The usual way,’ his father answered with undisguised cynicism. ‘If you offer her enough money she will do whatever you ask.’

 

‘How much money are you expecting me to spend on this mission of yours?’ Yunho asked.

 

Soo Man  named a figure that sent Yunho’s broad shoulders to the back of his chair.

 

‘That is a lot of money.’

 

‘I know,’ his father agreed. ‘But I cannot take the chance that she might not accept your offer. After the response I sent to her previous letter she might avenge my assessment of her character and deny us access to the child.’

 

Yunho inwardly cringed, recalling the content of that letter. His father had emailed him a copy and it had certainly not been complimentary. He could well imagine the Shim woman reacting to it out of revenge, particularly if what she said was true—Yoochun had indeed fathered her child.

 

He was well aware of Shim Jaejoong's reputation, even though he hadn’t met her personally. He’d seen one or two photos, however, which had shown a beautiful woman with thick long blonde hair, eyes that were an unusual smoky grey and the sort of figure that not only turned heads but other parts of the male anatomy at an astonishingly rapid rate as well. His brother had been completely besotted with her until her true character had come out. He could still recall Yoochun’s scathing description of how she had responded when he’d informed her that their short but passionate affair was over. She had hounded him for months, following him and harassing him relentlessly.

 

But somehow the thought of his dead brother’s blood flowing through the tiny veins of her child stirred him both unexpectedly and deeply.

 

‘Yunho.’ His father’s desperate voice cut across his reflections. ‘You have to do this. It is a matter of family honour. Yoochun would have done the same for you if things had been the other way around.’

 

It was hard for Yunho to imagine ever allowing himself to get into the sort of disasters his younger brother had for most of his life, but he didn’t think it worthwhile pointing that out now. His father had already suffered enough; he’d lost his beloved son.

 

It had been no secret in the Jung family that Yoochun had always been his father’s favourite. His sunny nature and charming boisterous personality had won everyone over virtually from the day he’d been born, leaving Yunho with his more serious disposition on the outside.

 

He frowned as he considered his father’s plan. What would it take to convince this woman to hand over the child? Would she take the money and go, or would she insist on something more formal, such as…

 

His stomach tightened momentarily as he recalled how his brother had told him that Shim Jaejoong was relentless in her search for a rich husband.

 

But surely his father wouldn’t expect him to gothat far!

 

So far Yunho had managed to ignore the pressure to marry, although he had come very close a few years ago. But it had ended rather badly and he’d actively avoided heavy emotional entanglements since then. Besides, Yoochun had always made it clear he was going to marry young and father all the Jung heirs so the family dynasty would be secure. Yunho had decided women were not to be trusted where money was involved. And in the Jung family alot of money was involved.

 

His heart contracted at the thought of a small dark-haired infant with black-brown eyes—eyes that would one day soon dance with mischief, as her father’s had for his too short thirty years of life.

 

‘So will you do it?’ Soo Man pressed. ‘Will you do this one thing for me and your late mother?’

 

Yunho pinched the bridge of his Roman nose, his eyes squeezing shut. The mention of his mother always tore at him deeply, the sharp guilt cutting into him until he felt as if he was bleeding. He still remembered that last day, the way she had smiled and waved at him from the other side of the busy street in Rome.

She hadn’t seen the motor scooter until it had ripped the shopping bags out of her hands, spinning her into the pathway of an oncoming car.

 

He couldn’t help believing that if he had been honest with her about why he was going to be late, maybe she would not have been killed. His father had begged him, and he had honoured him by doing as he’d asked, but the guilt even now was like a deep dark current that dragged at his feet, weighing him down relentlessly.

 

When his brother had been killed so soon after the death of his mother, Yunho hadn’t been able to rid himself of the feeling that his father would have grieved a whole lot less if it had been him instead of Yoochun in that mangled car.

 

He let out his breath and, releasing his fingers, answered resignedly. ‘I will see what I can do…’

 

‘Thank you.’ The relief in his father’s voice was unmistakable.

 

Yunho knew his father’s days were numbered. How much more precious would they be if he could hold his only grandchild in his arms?

 

‘She might refuse to even see me, you know,’ Yunho warned, thinking again of that vituperative letter hisBfather had sent. ‘Have you considered that possibility?’

 

‘Do whatever you have to do to make her see reason,’ Soo Man instructed. ‘And I mean anything. This is simply a business arrangement. Women like Shim Jaejoong expect nothing more and nothing less.’

 

A business arrangement.

 

What sort of woman was this, Yunho  thought, who would bargain with the life of a small child?

 

He put the phone down a few minutes later and ce more to the sweeping view outside. His dark eyes narrowed against the angle of the sun as he considered what he’d just agreed to do.

 

He was going to visit the one person he hated more than any other in the world—the woman he believed responsible for his brother’s untimely death.

 

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