Jihoon POV

Woojin gives me a box of tissues and waits for me to calm down

"I told you."

"You did."

"But did you listen?”

"No."

"Do you ever listen?"

"No."

"Are you listening now?"

"No."

Woojin smacks my head and scoffs in disbelief

"Really dude? Can you at least try???" I break into nervous laughter

"Sorry, I really am-" He cuts me off

"No your not." Woojin shakes his head and stands up

"If you were sorry you wouldn't have made that decision." He walks away shaking his head

Woojin's phone rings up and it's my mom. I stare at the phone for 3 seconds then picks up

"Hey mum. Sorry I hung up, something happened."

"No, no, it's okay sweetie. I just wanted to talk more.about your decision."

She takes a shakey breath and contines

"Your starting your senior year next year. So your going to be leaving near the end of your summer break."

"So I have 4 months left. . ." 

"Yes. And since you have 4 months left, after you finish your exams we want to give you freedom to do whatever you want with your friends. We want to give you independence before you leave."

"I'm sorry? Are you trying to say that your letting me go?" I was starting to get confused

"Jihoon we want you to be yourself. Nobody else but you. We're doing this to help you find who you really are. You've lost your spark and your smile ever since you were 6. We want to see your real smile not the fake one you give to everyone else around you. We want you to be happy. We want you to be you."

"So after exams you want me to go out and be free?" I was surprised I never expected they would let me have freedom

 "Do what you want after exams. Just nothing stupid. Something like hanging out with your friends or doing something you love by yourself."

"I can do anything. As long as it's not stupid. I can do anything?"

"Well, I talked to your father and we established some rules 

1. Don't do anything stupid

2. Don't do something that gets your self killed

3. Make sure to have fun. Don’t do anything you don’t want to to.

4. Don’t fall in love.”

“. . . I promise. . ." 

"Good, promise me you will listen to the rules okay?"

"Yea, I will."

"Okay we'll talk more about it once you get home tomorrow."

"Bye mum, I'll see you tomorrow."

She hangs up on the other line as I drop the floor to the on the ground. And sigh in disbelief at myself. Woojin walks out with a piece of paper and a pen and waves his hand to signal me to come over to the living room

"I heard what she said, should we make a list?" I stand up in excitement

"Are you approving of my decision?" He shakes his head

"I haven't approved it yet. But if it's what you what I'll still support you no matter what." We both sit on the couch staring at the piece of paper

"What's this for again? I forgot haha." Woojin slaps his forehead 

"What do you wanna do after exams? This is up to you so don't ask for my opinion." I tap my chin with my finger 

"I want to have dinner with you guys." He looks at me like I'm the biggest idiot in the world

"Really?? You have this once in a lifetime chance to do ANYTHING you want and you want to eat dinner????"

"No one asked for your opinion. And I just want something where we're not stressed out. So I want a calm and nice little night of eating OKAY???? DON'T JUDGE ME." Woojin rolls his eyes and writes down "Peaceful Dinner with Friends"

"Okay next!"

"I've always wanted to vist the movie theater with someone I love."

"So. . . Movie. . With. .  Jinyoung."

"What?! I didn't say Jinyoung!"

"Oh I know, alright next!"

"I want to vist the amusment park!"

"Alright then. How about you write all of the things down while I go take a shower." He hands me the pen and goes back inside his room. I stare at the list for awhile and write down everything I wanted to do down on the piece of paper. After 20 minutes I had everything I wanted down on the paper.

1. Peaceful Dinner with Friends

2. Watch a Movie with Jinyoung

3. Vist the Amusment Park with (?)

4. Hangout at the Beach with Friends

5. Vist an Cat Cafe

6. Go Star Watching

7. Library Vist

8. Lunch with Friends 

9. Ice Cream Date

10. Vist Amusment Park part 2

11. Vist an Owl Cafe

12. Movie Night Sleepover (2 Days), (at Woojin's House)

13. Vist my Grandma 

14. Vist a Flower Garden

15. Go to a Haunted House

16. Lunch with my Mom

17. Onesie Sleepover  (6 days), (at Woojin's House)

18. Campfire Night

19. Picnic at the Park

I sat on the couch pretty happy with my list. I'm sure no matter what I'm happy with nobody else will be. I slowly blink my eyes feeling more and more tired as a fall on the couch. And blackout.

I woke up the next morning feeling like trash as I get up covered in a blanket. I look around and notice the windows covered by the blinds, I stand up and scratch my head, looking at watch. 4:42 A.M I rub my eyes and make my way to Woojin's room, slowly opening his door I peek inside to see him soundly asleep.

"Woojinie~ I can't go back to sleep." No answer.

"Ya. I know your awake. Your not a heavy sleeper." I kick his back as he turns over

"You haven't took a shower yet. GROOOOSSSS." He kicks me back on my stomach pushing me away

"Don't talk to me. It's like what? 2:00 A.M? Frick, I don't know." 

"It's 4:00 A.M stupid." Woojin rises from the dead and rubs his eyes

"What are you doing just standing there? You stink." I roll my eyes and walk away looking for the box my mom packed for me. I pull out my second uniform she packed and headed to the bathroom. My head clouded with thoughts.

Wow, I spent my time not thinking of how I'm going to tell everyone that I'm leaving by the end of summer, not of how their going to feel when when I tell them, No I did none of that I slept my off instead.

What is wrong with me?

Finding the boy I've wanted to meet after 11 years and yet I'm already leaving him.

How am I going to tell everybody?

How am I going to tell him?

I'm a terrible person aren't I?

Disgusting, having to make this decision to leave the one person I wanted to see after so long

I pretended to act okay all these years 

Will it just be the same?

I clutch my heart  where the burning feeling is

I'll just continuing acting like this even though he's here

Wouldn't that be the best decision? 

No. It would be crueled 

I don't want to see him cry. Yet again telling him later would just affect him even more.

So which is it?

I step out of the shower and change into my uniform looing at my self in the mirror

I'm a horrible monster

I step out the door and put my old clothes on the box and go to check on Woojin already one step out the door 

"What?! How are you already ready all of a sudden?!"

"Dance practice remember? Seungwoo hyung is bound to hunt us down if we're late again." He puts in his sneakers into his duffle bag and is waiting for my slow to grab my bag and put on my shoes

"Dude it's like 5:53 A.M. What about breakfast?" He closes the door behind us 

"We still have time. Dance practice doesn't start until 7. We can stop by the cafe they open at 6 anyways." I give the okay and we head downstairs. We get on the elevator as Woojin hands me his extra pair of sneakers 

"Wait, I thought- Ohhhhh." I ruffles through my bag not finding my sneakers 

"The things I do for you that you can't even begin to repay me with."

". . . I can't even think about it."

"What? You mean your not telling anybody about your transfer?" I look at him confused

"Dude, how did you get that out of my one sentence that literally has nothing to do with my decision!"

"Liar, your planning not to tell anyone right?" 

"No. . . I'm planning to tell them when I have dinner with them." He looks at me awestruck

"That was the reason why you wanted to have dinner with everyone? So it'd be a good time to tell them?" I nod my head slowly

"Your ridiculous. I- How?- You know what, just do what you want." The elevator stops as the door opens

"Oh? Jihoonie hyung? Woojinie hyung? What are you guys doing here early in the morning?"

"Hi Sammy~" I wave as Samuel gets on

"First of all it's school, second this is a public elevator, and third we're in the same club." 

"That's right! Anyways I'm going to pick up Daewhi on my way down. Wanna come?"

"Can't we're gonna stop by the bakery cafe." Samuel nods his head as the elevator doors swing open on the 2nd floor as Samuel waves and bows goodbye to us 

Making finally to the last floor we check out of the apartment and walk 2 blocks down the road. While walking we run into Sungwoon hyung outside the cafe setting up the sign and turning on the lights. We greet and bow him as he waves at us.

"Hey kiddos, you guys are up pretty early today. What's up?" Sungwoon hyung asked, I elbowed Woojin in the stomach

"He was too lazy to cook breakfast. Also we have dance practice today." Woojin rolled his eyes and walked inside the cafe

"Aw! There are my two cuties!" Jisung runs up to us and group hug us both.

"Hi Jisungie hyung!" I hug him back and sit down at ah table with Woojin

"You're doing it again." I look at him with a confused face

"Doing what?"

"You're acting fake again." He frowns and stands up "I'm ordering, what do you want?" I space out at what he previously said 

". . . Oh! Uh. . . Anything is fine." He walks away, leaving me with a head full of thoughts

How lovely, I'm acting like a piece of fake trash again

Is this how I'm going to live the rest of my life like?

"Hyung,"

I'm a horrible person

I don't deserve any of the things I have

"Jihoonie hyung!" I feel a small tug on the sleeve of my uniform jacket

"I'm sorry who are you- Uhh." I turned around annoyed at the personopposites 

Well. . . 

Turns out the person was Jinyoung. Standing there smiling without a care.

I couldn't stand him smiling.

He seemed so happy so joyful

We've both suddenly turned complete opposites of each other

"H-Hi Jinyoungie." I glup down my saliva as he giggles like a 

"Ohhhhh~ what is this? Who is this?" Jisung walks over and puts his arm around Jinyoung with Minhyun following behind

"Hyung! Don't scare the kid away- hOLy jesus tap dancing christ, Jihoonie! Where did you find a gem like this?" Minhyun inspects him top to bottom and gives me a thumbs up

He basicially just approved Jinyoung for me. . . Okay then.

The continued inspecting him asking questions like

"What the- I was gone for 2 minutes! What did I miss!?" Woojin walks over and places down our tray of food and prys Minhyun and Jisung off of a very happy and peppy Jinyoung. "Stop it hyung, your going to give a weird impression." 

"Everybody mistakes me for one of the neighborhood aunties! I think everybody's impression of me is already ruined enough!" Jisung hyung clings on to Jinyoung and shakes his head that he won't let go

"Ya! Hwang Minhyun! Yoon Jisung! You both have a job to do!" They turn around to see Jonghyun hyung behind the counter with his arms crossed

"Aw your so cute when your angry! Cutie Jonghyunie!" Jisung runs behind the counter and hugs Jonghyun while patting his head

"Bye kids, come to us at school if you need something kay?" Minhyun hyung skips away while Woojin pulls out a chair for Jinyoung. I try my best to avoid eye contact with Jinyoung. But who can not help staring at him? His pretty eyes and cute glowing eye smile. I couldn't help but stare at him. His laugh was an adorable little child-like giggle which made me smileas he talked to Woojin. It wasn't long until I was caught.

Jinyoung turns at me and gently smiles 

"Do you need something cutie?" My cheeks felt warms as I quickly look away

"N-no! It's nothing. . ." Woojin rolls his eyes and hands me a sandwich and strawberry milk

"Here lover boy, eat this." I take the items from his hand "Hey Jinyoungie, did you eat yet?" Jinyoung shakes his head I 

"You should eat! You need to take care of your health! Here!" I slide him a melon bun as he looks at me and smiles

"Are you worried about me?" I nod my head 

"Yes! Yes I am!" His lips let out a small chuckle 

"Why are you worried about me?" I start to pout

"I'm worried because your precious-" 

Oh boy, I just realized...

I've been wrapped around his little finger.

"What??? What is it?!" He smiles widely

"N-o-t-h-i-n-g. It's nothing!" I cover my mouth, he leans in closer to my face

"What is it? What am I too you?"