It might sound impossible but they didn't really talk about it. What kind of relation they had. Why suddenly yunho kissed him. Why jaejoong was avoiding. When they started to grow feelings for eachother. They didn't know. It would be a lie if jae said he wasn't curious. But he was too afraid to find the answer. When he was little, he so wanted to go to jeju. People talked about how wonderful that place is! & jae imgined how beautiful it must had been! The night before finally he was off to jeju ; jae suddenly felt empty. What if the place he dreamt of wasn't as good as it appeared in his dreams? He was scared. though they went to jeju island but deep down in his mind jae always thought he never went. Cause the sea that he had in mind was more beautiful than it was in real. The situation is just like that. Jae is afraid. He is afraid ; yunho doesn't feel about him like he feels. Or he wants him to feel. He is afraid.once he will talk about it they will be labeled as lovers. And that label in his country is a dangerous label that can destroy him & yunho forever. So he kept silent. Did things because he loved yunho ; & hoped yunho would understand the love behind everything he did.

Jae was always a possessive friend. & once he got yunho ; the possessiveness grew into him more. whatever show they were attending ; whatever concert they were performing ; jae had his eyes stucked on yunho. In a variety show he even sang the chinese version of "hug" for yunho hoping the korean people won't understand! But they