Broken Reverie

Silent Tears
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‘You’re zoning out again hyung’ Jinyoung’s soft voice reverberated in the apartment and broke Mark’s reverie. He looked at Jinyoung and smiled sheepishly.

‘Sorry’ he mumbled, earning a chuckle from Jinyoung

They were sitting in the kitchen having breakfast together since Jinyoung didn’t have to go for practice today. Mark was touched the younger decided to spend his free time with him when he could have easily opted to go with the members’ planned outing which would have been more fun, in Mark’s opinion. He didn’t know how to entertain the younger, he didn’t want him to waste his free day sitting here with Mark and watching him stare off in space. He didn’t want to bore Jinyoung.

‘What are you thinking about?’ Jinyoung asked, a hint of concern in his lucid eyes and Mark felt like drowning in his gaze

‘I-I just-Jinyoung’ He exhaled loudly ‘staying here with me on your free day; you’re going to get bored. You should’ve gone with the guys, actually you still can, they’re probably still in the dorm.’ He said honestly, but Jinyoung smiled knowingly and shook his head

‘Are you trying to get rid of me hyung? You know its pointless right?’

Mark rolled his eyes, a slight chuckle escaping his lips.

‘Having experienced your stubbornness first hand, I gave up a long a time ago trying to get rid of you Jinyoungie, so you don’t need to worry about that’

‘Then you don’t need to worry about me getting bored. Okay hyung?’

Mark sighed in frustration, he was still unconvinced and he wanted the younger to have a good time, especially if he was staying with Mark, so he made an attempt.

‘Do you wanna go somewhere or do something? I’ll be down for anything.’ Mark actually felt like staying in his bedroom the whole day and lapse in a state of quietude but the second he saw Jinyoung eyes widening aglow with excitement at the idea, he knew he made the right call.

‘Really? I mean are you sure you want to? I’ll be fine with staying indoors with you…’ He trailed off when Mark started shaking his head.

‘I want to Jinyoung. It’s been days since I left my room. It will good for me too’ He said, sending a reassuring smile towards the younger who grinned back.

Jinyoung’s excitement was infectious so he didn’t have to feign his interest in planning their small outing. They decided to go the park near their apartment and have a picnic of sort since all Jinyoung wanted was to relax from his hectic and buzzing routine.

They got dressed quickly; Jinyoung wearing his face mask raised his eyebrows when he saw Mark without it.

‘What?’ Mark asked, in reply to Jinyoung’s questioning glance

‘Why are you not wearing one?’ He said, pointing to the mask which was shielding his face and Mark felt like ripping it off

‘I’m not an idol anymore’ He argued as nonchalantly as possible

‘But they don’t know that…yet’ Jinyoung’s voice was smaller, as if he didn’t like to be reminded of the fact that Mark was no longer a part of what they did. Seeing the change in the younger’s mood, he decided to not argue further. He shrugged, mumbling an ‘okay’ and went to bring out his mask.

Putting the mask on, he flashed the younger a smile but then realized he couldn’t see it because of the mask, so ended up giving a small reassuring nod.

They left their apartment and walked to the park in silence, the gentle breeze ruffling through their thoughts and the occasional gleam of sunshine would light up the entire street.

Mark loved how with Jinyoung he never felt pressured to fill up these silences. He liked to succumb to the stillness of the moment where the need for meaningless words was dispelled and peace had a chance to shine.

Reaching their destination, they were happy to see that the park was pretty isolated, except a few couples. Buying some ramen from the streets with the most enticing aroma ever, they proceeded to sit in the ground, not minding the tickle of blades of grass beneath their hands.

‘This is nice’ He heard Jinyoung say, and looking at the younger, his countenance content and pleased, Mark felt something warm stir in his chest.

He smiled and nodded ‘It is’ It really was. Everything felt at peace.

They started eating; thanks to the seclusion their spot provided, their masks were soon abandoned next to them.

It seemed like they had a silent agreement in which they decided not to talk about their current situation. So they talked about everything and nothing, sometimes they would contemplate in silence and then laugh at something silly the next second. Mark was happy with this. He will be happy with just with Jinyoung’s company. He won’t ask for more.

‘Hyung let’s have some ice-cream. I haven’t had some in ages’

‘You had one on Thursday’ Mark pointed out, laughing when Jinyoung scowled at him

‘But sure let’s go’

Mark’s heart flipped when Jinyoung clasped his hand on its own and dragged him to the store. The warmth and softness of Jinyoung’s touch felt so right that Mark had to shake his head to dispose his thoughts.

Entering a small store that was relatively empty as well except a few girls and the old shop owner, Mark was hit with the sweet aroma of all the desserts that were put on display that created an immediate crave to satiate his sweet tooth.

Jinyoung hurriedly made his way to the freezer and Mark could only chuckle at the younger’s eagerness. He was going to follow Jinyoung but then he heard a meek ‘Excuse me?’ from behind. Turning around he saw the two really pretty girls about his age looking at him with wide eyes and shy smiles and it was then he realized that he had forgotten his mask back at the park. He smiled back despite the rush of fear he felt and the girls found the courage to speak up.

‘Mark oppa, c-can we take a picture with you? I-I mean if you’re not busy, we d-don’t mean to interrupt it’s just that we are huge fans’ the girl said, twirling her hair in her fingers nervously, and barely able to maintain eye-contact with Mark. He found it adorable.

‘Of course’ he said, giving them a wide smile and ushered them to come closer so that they can take a picture. After taking a few pictures and a short chat initiated by Mark out of politeness, the girls left. He could hear them screaming outside the store saying ‘OH MY GOD THAT JUST HAPPENED!’ and Mark chuckled, feeling a hint of pride and embarrassment as he turned around to see Jinyoung smiling at him fondly.

‘What?’ He walked up to the younger and could feel his cheeks warming

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chenchen92
#1
Chapter 11: I miss this story so much. :((((( But I don't want to sound whiny and for you to feel pressured that I want you to update authornim! I just dropped by to say that I hope that you're alright and living well. Would wait no matter how long for your come back. Always take care authornim! ^^
nyanthar
#2
Chapter 11: My fav markjin story . And words in this story are scholarly. Now 3:28 am in my country. I abandon my sleep just to finish all chapters :) Thank for great story :)
chenchen92
#3
Chapter 11: Authorniiiiiiiiiiiiim!!! OMG, you're back with a new chapter! You don't know how much you're making me happy, I really really do miss this fic so much. T_____T And I am just smiling all through out the chapter! After all of the angst that happened, finally, MarkJin is tgt, maybe not as a couple but as best friends at least. And please, they're so sweet in this chapter, might as well progress to that. Kidding! I know it's still early for Jinyoung but I can already feel that he's getting there so closely but does not know yet that what he's feeling is more that what a best friend should be feeling. I'm excited how would you make Jinyoung realize his feelings authornim. Would there be a lot of angst before that, or just a peaceful eureka moment (slightly feeling there would be drama ofc. LOL)? Also, Mark is so cute and just so understanding when he tried to cheer up Jinyoung. He's such an angel, a sweetheart and it really shows how much Jinyoung means to him. That after all that happened, no one could really take up Jinyoung's place in his life. Thank you so much authornim for this chapter! I don't think I need to come back authornim since I'm always here. Kekeke~ I don't think we could really leave you so don't push yourself too hard if life must take place at the moment. We're always going to wait for you to come back (as long as you come back, pleaaaaase). ^^ Thank you again, great as always! <3 <3 <3
W_juliet
#4
Chapter 11: We still here as long as u come back XD and yeah this is the short one kkkk I'm glad that they r back to normal, well not really because Jinyoung seems still adjusting his feeling.. And i want Mark to get a bf just because i want to see Jinyoung's reaction XD
littlemarku #5
Chapter 11: omg I totally have missed the last updates, now reading all at once how jinyoung apologized and everything after... it warmed my heart a lot. I'm glad Jinyoung decided to go the way of educating himself. Anyways is it just me or is it very obvious how Jinyoung's developing jealousy. Like he has obviously gotten over his homophobia so his weird reaction towards the thought of mark dating feels a lot like him being jealous. I also thought of this bc of that one scene with jackson (idk which chapter) where he doesnt get mad at jinyoungs reaction towards the imagination of taehyung and mark kissing and jacks is like 'I see', seems like he's feeling whats secretely going on inside of Jinyoung even before Jinyoung himself does? A long time ago I wrote an oneshot about Mark being worried that he might be homophobic because he feels uncomfortable with Jinyoung dating guys, just to realize it was jealousy all along, it reminds me of this. I'm sure Jinyoung was truly homophobic but I think the fact that he saw mark with someone else than him also played part in his negative reaction and now he got over the homophobia but the jealousy still stays, I hope that he figures that out soon and that mark doesnt meet any new guys meanwhile. Even though Jinyoung acted awful I think he went through enough pain already and he wouldn't deserve having to deal with the hurt of seeing mark liking someone else right after realizing he likes him more than just as a friend. I'm cheering for them! please find your way towards each other guy. Anyways, I love this story a lot so you at least definitely don't have to worry about losing me as reader, I'll fatefully and patiently stay till the end!
Magentusrex
#6
Chapter 11: I, for one, am not going anywhere. I love this story so far, and i would like to read more of it. Thank you for the update.
jwy2030
#7
Chapter 11: wow..it's been a while..but it's worth the wait..and will keep on waiting for more updates..thanks for coming back
Tety_Vences #8
Chapter 11: Awe so cute and im reading this while listening to downpour by I.O.I but... I should really do my school work ;P hehe nice chapter author-Nam!
AjjushiLeader
#9
Chapter 11: Nyoung... argh...it hurt...
ijustreadmarkjin
#10
Chapter 11: I miss you authornim! <3
And I'm looking forward for the progress of their relationship and how the other members will react.