Mark entered his new apartment unhurriedly with a heavy heart; his tears had dried off on their own as he glanced around his new home. He felt numb as he proceeded to his room in the same pace, putting down his shoulder bag and taking off his jacket, he immediately slumped on his new bed.

His room was spacious, beautifully appointed and just overall very comfortable. His dad had bought this room when Mark’s brother decided to study here in Korea but now that his high school was done, he went back to the States to enroll in university, leaving this amazing place unoccupied. But, obviously he wasn’t in his right mind to admire his living arrangements, especially when he thinks about how he is going to have a roommate. An idol (well now an ex-idol) living with a roommate? The idea seemed pretty outrageous to Mark but his dad didn’t see anything wrong with it.

‘If you want to live a normal life, this would be a good start. You can’t start living an ordinary life with the attitude and tantrums of an idol. It’s a good way to keep you grounded’ His dad had said when once he voiced out his doubts

After some convincing he agreed, mostly because he didn’t want to leave this place and buy another one. He had to hold on to whatever finances he had, considering he was unemployed at the moment and any careless spending could soon leave him penniless, especially since he had the habit of spending money like water. He didn’t want to take his family’s assistance in this matter (well he did with this apartment, but no more).

He wanted to start fresh, create an identity for himself but he knew it won’t be easy. The press and the fans alone would take a lot of time to digest the news of his departure.

Mark sighed as he thought that the paparazzi, the fans, and even the members might be able to move on from this one day but will he be able to do the same? He didn’t know what tomorrow held and uncertainty was clawing at his sense of security relentlessly.

There was too much to think about. What will he do now? Will fans hate him? Will they demand answers? If they do and they probably will, what will he say? What’s his official statement? Will the members hate him? Will they call him a coward? How will Jinyoung react?

At the thought of Jinyoung, he shut his eyes to stop himself from crying again. The younger male had shown him so much sincerity, showered him with so much love and comforted him whenever needed that Mark felt like he betrayed their friendship. He knew that he was being unfair to him, he had subtly started avoiding him ever since he realized what he was feeling for Jinyoung wasn’t brotherly love, but what else could he do? He wasn’t good at masking his emotions and if he stayed one day Jinyoung would definitely find out about his feelings. His theories were strengthened the day he ended up looki