'I love her...'

Love was a strong word. One most people use with caution, but you can't not simply like her.

She was an angel. (Sometimes a weird angel.)

So it was through this love, that I got tickets to KCon for her.

I was excited. How different would it be to see her in real life. 

Would she smile different? What about her laugh? 

'Would she notice me?'

~

I had to wait for her performance though. Not that the others were bad, but there weren't her.

But when she came on stage, everything brightened. 

The world was actually okay. For once.

She smiled towards my area. 

I didn't know to react.

So, I smiled back.

She got brighter and waved towards another area.

'Did I make her... Happy?'

~

Sleep is for the weak.

Therefore, I didn't sleep. I am the strong.

But, pure will didn't keep me awake (though it helped). She did.

Funny moments, Try Not To Cry, videos of her only singing...

They got me through the night.

I have been wondering for a while what it would be like to be in another fandom... Along with this one.

'But I can't leave her.'

~

I struggled for months to learn Korean. 

'I could have a chance to be closer to her.'

It seemed like forever.

Different greetings, proper and improper... It was a miracle I survived.

But here I am, fluent in Korean.

'I can actually talk to her now.'

~

Blood, sweat, and tears got me to one of her fanmeets.

I stared at the sky, trying to contain my happiness. In what felt like no time, she was in front of me.

Smiling brightly, she grabbed my item and signed it. I barely had a chance to say hi.

'Before I was waved on.'

~

You want the good news or bad news first? 

I'm going to go with good news, because so many people prefer to hear the bad news first.

Well, she is now dating. It makes her smile even brighter. She laughs longer. I feel like I am falling in love with her all over again.

The bad news?

She isn't dating me.

I am stuck here, in an eternal cycle of loving her while she learns to love another.

But at least she is happy.

Ironic news? The person had caught her attention at the same KCon I went to.

It could have been me.

'I love her.... But why doesn't she love me?'

(Author's Note: The reality version. In KCon, she had brightened up because of the main character smiling at her? Wrong. That was because of the person she starts dating at the end. Oh yeah, plot twist.)