These kind of lonely nights, filled with random thoughts are those kinds of nights Jihoon hated the most. He hates feeling terrible inside, he hates that his mind can’t stop thinking over something unnecessary, and it was raining that night. Jihoon wanted to take a break from overwhelming thought he was having when suddenly it rained. Jihoon sat on the bench didn’t care about his drenched clothes and the rain pouring hard over his small body. All he cared was those bad thought that haunting him on that night. Some nights he would filled with a lot of inspiration to write songs but some nights it would filled with ugly thoughts like haters comments about him, the lack of inspiration, lonely feelings he couldn’t help but feeling as an idol even though he is surrounded by a lot of members. On this kind of night Jihoon usually took a walk outside trying to chase away the thoughts but somehow on that night the feeling just didn’t go away even after hours he tried to distract himself. Jihoon sighed, wanted to cry it out but his mind refused to do so which eventually just led him to ponder over the bad thoughts clutching his chest tightly because it was just too painful at that moment. He still lost in his thought when suddenly he felt the rain stopped pouring over him and when he looked up he saw he was shielded by an umbrella. Jihoon turned his view to the side and saw Seungcheol, the leader of seventeen and also his boyfriend was standing next to him holding an umbrella protecting Jihoon from the rain while Seungcheol himself was unprotected. Jihoon tried to read the expression from Seungcheol, they both knew each other for so long that somehow it is really easy to read each other mind but on that night maybe because his mind was covered by a lot of unnecessary thoughts but Jihoon couldn’t read what was on Seungcheol mind watching him drenched with rain water, alone and was looking miserable at 2 am. Was it worried on his eyes? Or was he feeling upset? Any of it but Jihoon knew it wasn’t a good expression and it was his fault too for running away suddenly from the office without telling anyone and left his phone.

“let’s go back” Seungcheol offered his hand which was stared by Jihoon for a good 5 seconds before he took it, again Jihoon tried to read Seungcheol’s expression but still couldn’t understand the meaning of that look Seungcheol gave to him and he hated himself for looking so vulnerable like this

“I’m sorry” Jihoon finally said when they walked side by side to the office. Knowing s would worry over nothing when he came to the dorm wet like this. Seungcheol didn’t say anything which just added on the pain on Jihoon’s chest but he remained silent didn’t want to disturb a ‘silent-Seungcheol’

Jihoon changed his clothes and walk to his and Seungcheol’s shared recording studio with a towel on his hand. Seungcheol was daydreaming when he came in, but immediately turned alert when Jihoon came closer to him

“Dry your hair properly” Seungcheol took the towel from Jihoon’s hand and helped the younger to dry his hair, hated this. Jihoon hated this kind of Seungcheol when he remained silent like this. He would rather the leader to just vent out his anger to him for leaving without any message, he knew Seungcheol must worried a lot and he was really sorry for it, now he was feeling miserable, upset, angry to himself, and lonely knowing that his boyfriend was just in front of him but he felt so distant. The tears that he had held for few hours finally dropped he tried to rubbed it away but it just dropped more which eventually turned him into a sobbing mess

“Ji –“ Seungcheol was surprised when Jihoon suddenly hug him tightly while crying, but soon recovered knowing his boyfriend needed him the most at that time. Seungcheol hugged back the younger while caressing his back tightly

“I’m sorry” Jihoon said it again and again on Seungcheol’s chest hiding his face there

“Sssshhh baby it’s ok, I’m here and it’s ok, I know you are having bad thoughts again but it’s alright, I promise you everything will be alright” Seungcheol soothing and gentle voice successfully made Jihoon’s chest felt lighter and he felt the bad thoughts slowly faded away from his mind, it’s Seungcheol, it has always been Seungcheol why would he ran away from him thought that he could solve the ugly thoughts himself when eventually all he needed was Seungcheol.

“Better?” Seungcheol asked while caressing Jihoon’s hair gently, they were lying down side by side on the big sofa in the recording room – their favorite place to spend the night. Jihoon didn’t say anything but nodded his head still feeling guilty “I nearly call up police to look for you” Seungcheol joked trying to lighten the mood

“I’m sorry” Jihoon said again for the countless time that night

“You’ve said it so many times Lee Jihoon and I’ve told you it’s ok, I just a bit upset that you run away from me when you are having hard time, you know that I always ready to become your punching bag” Seungcheol said while playing with Jihoon’s fingers

“I didn’t know what was I thinking when I walked outside without you, it will never happen again – I promise”

“you don’t have to promise that, you can always have your alone time but do let me know don’t just disappear like that and when finally you need someone to talk to you can always come find me” Seungcheol smiled gently now caressing Jihoon’s cheek, the younger blushed and scooted closer to Seungcheol hiding himself on Seungcheol’s broad chest

“Uh, stop that, stop being perfect boyfriend” Jihoon muttered not really complaining and he could hear Seungcheol laughing while holding him close “I love you” Jihoon said it out of nowhere when finally his chest completely felt lighter. Seungcheol smiled looking down at the top of Jihoon’s head and kissed it gently

“I love you too baby, I really do” Jihoon pulled back a little bit and saw how his favorite pair of eyes showed him the love that belongs to him, only for him, Seungcheol leaned closer and captured Jihoon’s lips with his drowned the two of them in the love that they both shared long forgotten about the rough night. Because for Jihoon it is only Seungcheol able to turn his sad and lonely nights to a lovely and filled with love nights

“Don’t you think we need to do make up now baby?” Seungcheol winked

“YA ERT!”