"unnie...." someone enter the room without even knock it and from her aegyo i know perfectly who she is.

"Suzyahh" i scream as we hug each other. Last time we see each other was before i start my tour and i promise to take her for dinner.

"how are you unnie? why you look skinnier even after the tour is done"

"oh do i?" i look at the reflection on the mirror and she's right, I'm not notice it, not even siwon oppa

"yeah. Nichkhun oppa said so and I'm here to see and he is right"
suzy said

Suzy is our friend and now she become a top model in Seoul. You'll see her as a cover on magazine for every month. 

"you met him?" i ask her and tried not to show my excitement
"of course.  he is the best photographer in town right now, everyone wants to work with him"
she said full of excitement

We were eating dinner in a fine restaurant as i promised her
"lets eat" i said after the waitress serve us the best steak in town
"this is my first time. and its soo good" the girl said.
"enjoy your food" i said, happy look at her eating happily like its the most delicious thing she ate.

"i met Nichkhun oppa yesterday and he is really changed"
"what do you mean?"
"he is more handsome, have a good body shape, tall that was physically.  But not only that he is also kind, charming and mature." she said as she put on her hand on her cheek and smiling herself like i can see that she is having a crush on him

i get a bit sting on my heart, taken a back at what she said but she is right. Nichkhun appearance did impressed me but he already charming since we're kids.

"do you like him?" my question startled her
"me? i dont know. he is soo cool for an ordinary people" suzy said trying to hide her nervousness
"he is not ordinary, he is special. you will know it the more you know him" i said as i sip a tea

suzy stay quiet before she drop the bomb infront of me

"unnie i think i like him or maybe more. do you still have feelings for him?"
her question made me almost choked

"me? i already have siwon oppa. i love him and i won't hurt his feeling. you both single so i don't see any problem with it." i said it, try to give a fake smile.

"it's good then. cause i think that you still have remain feeling for Nichkhun oppa."
maybe yes, maybe no.
i dont even know what im feeling anymore. my close hoobae just confess that she like my ex. 

"no. don't worry about it" 
i don't think we will comeback anyway. Since we already sink on these business. 

"but you just met him yesterday" 

"actually we met couple times in new york before. he is my photographer on some magazines"

"Ow.." i don't know what to say. it hurt my feeling since i thought we're close but she never told me anything about it.

"hii" a man with a nasally voice greet from my back. i can said who he is though i dont see his face
"oppa" suzy said signaling him to come here.
"oh hi Steph. meet you again"
"hi khun" my greet maybe sound so weak. i dont know, today is just so unpredictable for my already weak heart. 

what's her motive to invite him here.
i kneading my head.
"are you okay?" he seem worried as he touch my hand
"im fine" i said and smile.
he is just too kind for this screwed world
"why did you ask me to come here?" Nichkhun ask to suzy like he could read my mind well. 
"oh.. you said that you are on the store near here so i ask you for a ride home. can i?"
suzy ask him but why he look at me? its getting awkward here, i wanted to leave.
"ohh.. of course.  but how about tiffany? you can't leave her here alone. it's 10 pm" he looks worried.  

"i...i will call a cab" i said to make him sure i am fine
"it's dangerous" 
"i will call siwon oppa to fetch me. dont worry" i smile assure them im okay. 

we bid goodbyes and i watch them leave. 
is it my fate to let him go this way?

i dial Siwon's number but he's not pick them up.
so i left him message to come and fetch me here.
'can you come here and take me home? i dont think i can go home by myself'

then i felt a bit thirsty so i ordered a bottle of whiskey ..

"did he really get over me?" 
"why did it happen to me again?"
i look at the empty glass and pour it again

tears stream down on my cheek

"why do im crying?" 
i felt so confuse and sad.
"do i have let him go? why it still hurt looking him with other girl?"

'sorry hun, i cant. im in the middle of meeting right now. you can take a taxi, okay?' 

meeting? its freaking 11 p.m
what kind of meeting? why cant he chose me instead of his work?!

my vision gets blurry and i see a tall man coming at me. he is so white, wearing a white shirt and pants. 

am i dreaming? is it the time?
that finally i have to leave this pathetic world?

"what are you do..." i cant hear him clearly
"are you an angel?" i touch his face and it was so soft and fluffy. 

i heard him chuckle

"lets go home" he said

"to heaven?" i furrowed my eye brows
and he laugh but i dont think i can stand up, my legs is too weak and cant open my eyes. but i believe im in a good hands. an angel.

then i felt my body's floating

"am i flying? do we flying right now?"
"yeah"
"cool" i said cant bear with my headache

Nichkhun

as long the ride to suzy's house i kept thinking about tiffany. 
what if no one pick her up?
what if she had to take a cab by herself? what if she got kidnapped? she is a famous star, she can't be alone.

"oppa you dont listen to me right?"
right, now i forgot that suzy is beside me.

"sorry, im just get sleepy" 
she pouted her lips 

she is cute, i thought

and she caught me staring at her

and the tension become awkward

"okay we're infront of your house" i said smiling at her.
then she kiss my cheek before get off my car
"thank you for the ride" she said and say goodbye

i keep poke my cheek that she pecked.   

why do im smiling?

"tiffany? did she already home?"

i call her phone but she's not pick it up.

"maybe she slept already?"

but i cant i have to make sure she already home.

i go back to the restaurant and find her still there.

she is drunk?

my heart get hurt seeing her

"hey" she look at me with already teary eye

she thought that im an angel.
she must be drunk

"where's your address? " 
she is unconscious

then it means i have to take her to my house.

i carry her in my arm and place her in my bed. 
"she's so light. she have to eat more" 

i put the blanket to her chest and dont realize that i am zoning out looking at her face. such a baby.

"sleep well, baby girl" unconsciously put a smile on my face before leaving her but she catch my hand that it make me fluster if shr might heard what i said just then.

"thank you" she said with her eyes open.
"no problem steph. Now you have to sleep."
"can you hug me for a moment? "

i am startled by her question but then her features change, she became so gloomy like the dark aura is around her.

"hey whats wrong?" i caress her arm but she look down and start sobbing. 
it get me worried and pull her to my hug. 

she shakes her head

"okay. tell me when you want to talk about it, kay?" she nod

after hug her to sleep, i watch her while laying next to her.

caressing her hair, tuck it behind her ear

"i hope those eyes smile more instead of crying"