..

"haii" she text but after a couple second she delete it
"its nice to see you again. how are you?" she text but delete it again

"do you have a time for us to hangout?" she take a deep breath, close her eyes and gain her courage to push the send button.

"No..no..no! i should just begin with call his name or ask how he is or.. God, i dont know what to say" she walk back and forth

"what would he thinking of me?"

"calm down tiffany. its only Nichkhun"

"it is Nichkhun, Tiffany" her heart remind her

she check out her phone many time but still has no reply.
after 3 hours, hee phone vibrated and she quickly take it and see..

"its not him.." she said disappointed
she sigh

he may not want to see me, he may unexpecting to see me again.

yeah, it could be true
after what i've done to him

someone is calling, she get up and make her almost screaming after knowing who's call her

"Hello" she hears his voice in the silent, never know that she will hear it again on her phone
"Tiff" called him.
he only call her that when he pissed or angry or maybe he forget how he used to call her.

"are you sleeping?" 
the man said sound a bit tired

"what?? no! i am just finished my practice" lied her. she cant said that she cant sleep for she's waiting for his answer.

"really? unbelievable haha. you can never sleep this late" he said

ha ha yeah true i cant sleep this late before we break up but now i used to it. she thought.

"im an idol now, i have my upcoming album so i have to practice for my new song"

"almost forgot, sorry madam"

"your appologize accepted sir, now tell me what are you doing this late?"

"im just finished my work out"

"what kind of work out at this hour sir?" 

"now we are adult and mature enough, you should know what im talking about"  he said in silent.

she dont know of its true or a joke.
she dont want to believe but part of her said that its true.

"you are joking right?"

"im not. she's here right beside me"
she dont have idea how it breaks her heart. no, dont say it steph. you are over and it happened because of your fault now dont beg him to come back, because its different right now.

"okay then. sorry for wasting your time, you can continue whatever you do right now" she said in disappointment

"hahaha do you really believe it?"

"you're lying???"

"i am just landed here how can i ask a woman to come to my condo? silly"

silly, he used to call her by that name. its so precious to her ear and now that he call her that again with his conscious or not make her heaet skipped a beat.

"then what are you doing?"

"im just done my editing."

"come and meet me tommorow. can you?" she just spoke it up

"okay" its all he said.

"bye. good night silly" he said make her lose her consciousness

"yeah. good night k" and they ended their call

-Nichkhun-

i was finished the photo session for vogue korea and meet such a young girl group from jyp, Twice.

they are so bright and adorable

"thank you for your hardwork, oppa"
they all said in sync.
is that the thing girl groups always do?

one of the girl come to me bring a lunch box
"you have work hard, have a nice lunch!" Jihyo said and hand it to me
"thank you jihyo, i will eat it well" i said and jihyo run back to her group..
"wow he know your name." one of the tall girl said and i see she look at me and flustered when i caught her eyes and smile shyly before bid a goodbye.

i look at my phone and tiffany just text where we should meet

"meet me at the hometown cafe and said 'TheWeekend' to the manager. see you there"

The Weekend?
yeah,  it was her first concert title.

i walk til i got there since the map said that its pretty near from the studio.

i look at the building and its just like a common building, nothing special.

"come in" the staff said
"i want to see the manager here"
he guide me to the other guy and whisper something and they both comes to me

"my name is Fujiya. is there anything i could help?" said the man politely
"The weekend" i said the code which i dont know if i do it right
"you are our special guest. let me show you the way." i walk behind him

we walk quiet far and enter the elevator and he push the 8th floor.

"i dont know that this place has this large amount area. You should work on your display" i said cause it amazed me that the interior and each room is looking so luxury.

"you dont get it Mr.K.. this place is not available for everyone" now i know.. why she bring me here? 

"this way..." he gesture and open the door
"your special guest arrived Miss"
"thank you Mr. Fujiya"

u enter the room and find her already behind the door

"hi.." she said, looks effortlessly beautiful
"hi.. are you good?" i look at her expression,  she think for a while. 
"you can say that. come in"

we sit on the sofa with a beautiful small garden infront of us and its so quiet, peace and calm.

"you must be have a lot of questions" she said smiling but her eyes....
hurt in her eyes... 

"ask me, i will answer it honestly" she said 

"answer me honestly,  do you happy? do you really enjoy your life?"
my question left her speechless

"why did you ask about it. i thought that you will ask why im bringing you here" she said looking down

"at least you wont kill me here, right?" i joke to lessen the tense 

"i wont but it would be an interesting serial killer if you let me kill you here since no one will found your body but im okay with only talking to you right now. so maybe next time" 

"honestly,  i dont know. im happy to achieved the dreams that i dream but this is not ..." she cried

i sit beside her and comfort her
"you can cry here. no one is stopping you" she cry louder and i gave her tissue

"thank you. im better now" she said

"are you going to continue live like this? because you dont seem okay, you stressed and depressed.  you cant live like this anymore" 

"help me..." she said 
"this place is soo good. so calm and peaceful but you cant live inside this building. you have to go out and do whatever that makes you happy. take a break and going somewhere new"
thats how i live actually. there is no exact place to be called home but im okay with it.

"thank you" she once again thanked me

"do you have your lunch?" she shakes her head
"i have something" i give her the lunch box that twice girl given to me
"whats this?"
"open it"
it is a set of mouth watering lunch box.

"you make it yourself?"
"nope. actually it is given by Twice's Jihyo this morning. they are all adorable girls. looks like the youger version of you"
"do you like them?" she eyeing me 
"of course. who doesn't?  so much energy, so good to work with them"
"not about work. i mean.. feelings"
"they are cute, kind, polite and lovely. of course i love them" i said as i tasted the food

"i was that cute too back then" she take the lunch box and eat them eagerly

"what??? you.. cute?? you horrible! you loves to yell, pinch even punch me. remember?" i said and get a grin from her

"you miss that pinch?" and she pinch my bicep and THATS SO HURRTTT

"Stop it Stephanie!" she let go and i rub the place she pinched me

and she laughed
she finally smile, i mean the smile i have always wanted to see
that kind of smile that brighter my days.

always smile like that Steph.. 

"why are you smiling like that khun? you looks ert" she laugh

"laugh as much as you want" i said and throw the pillows on the couch and she go to other room and bring couples of pillows

"Its a WAR" she said and throw it to me. we play until we run out of breath.

"i havent be this fun since i dont know when" Tiffany said as she lay beside me.

i look into her side profile.
her eyes.. her nose.. he lips.. her jaw..
down to her ch-estt??
i look at how it is up and down to the rhythm

i gulp down my saliva. i should stop looking her that way, but this is how normal guy react.. 
she is just too beautiful..

"khun"
"khun" she poke my cheek
"yes?" i blink at her a couple of seconds
"what are you thinking?"
"ah..nothing.." i block my eyes with my hands
"ahh... i know this gestures. . what are you thinking, you ert? !" she slap my arm
"no..no..no..arrgh" she pinch me again
"why you love to pinch me?"
"its fun" she said and lay back to the bed

"khun.. are you still mad at me?"
"about?"
"about what happpen in the past" she said, i look at her closed eyes
"to be honest. it is hard for me, you know i loved you" i sit and give her my back.

"i loved you, Stephanie. you are the first woman who enter my heart, you give me so much meaning in life, you make me a better person. but just how you came to my life bring the bright sky, the sun and all the colors of rainbows,  you left me with nothing to hang on. thats how i spent the day without you. suffers. pain. suffocated. but i believe that you are better without me. Siwon gives you all you need. i just wish your happiness then i let go."
all i can heard is silence

"i dont want to hold the grudge." i add and she start sobbing

"im sorry" why she cries again? how many times she have cried in a day?

she hug me from my back

"im sorry. i was so mean and i always regret for what i did to you. i always want to appologize to you for this is always haunting me" she swipe the tears with her hand and i hug her back

"i have let go and forget. you should too, Steph. you cant start your new life with under the shadows of your regret." she nod and we stay like this for a while.