(Unsent Love Letters)

Dear Sungmin,

I just wanted to write this because I needed to. I’ll never send it though. I know you’re happy with Ryeowook. Hell, I’m happy to see you two together after all the stuff that’s happened over the years.

But we’ve been through stuff together too. I feel like you just can’t see it. Even though you and I were in the exact same position you just couldn’t open your eyes and turn to see me standing right there. I was looking at you and cliché as ever, you were looking at Ryeowook. I mean…why couldn’t you tell that I really liked you – then and now? Fine, I’ll admit that I didn’t help myself by playing around so much and that whole sleeping with Taemin thing was just bad on my part. But the other times, the times when it was you and me.

What about when we went out to the city that one night shopping? I’ll never forget when I stumbled upon you looking at that pink and white striped sweater. I thought “Damn…he’s so cute.” You never let your guard down so seeing that was just…great. And then afterwards when you trusted me with your story? I still stay up sometimes thinking about it.

Did you ever tell Ryeowook about it? Did you ever trust anyone else with that history? I don’t think you did. I hope you didn’t. I really like being the only one who knows.

The saddest part though is that I can’t be with you. As much as I’d love to steal you from Ryeowook I couldn’t do that to either of you. Plus, I doubt you would go down without a fight. I wonder if you two are meant for each other. I’m betting you don’t believe in that quiz thing. I do though. Then again, I’m praying you would someday realize that it’s not bull. It could be real. Our percentage could be more than just a statistic. We could make it real.

As for Key…well, I do love him. I loved him a long time ago too. But as a lover, I’d take you in a heartbeat. He and I were sweethearts but when I’m with you, I know we’re soulmates.

A soulmate means a lot more to me than some first love. Key will always be important…but he’s not you.

Minho

Dear Mir,

I smile every time I see you and for the life of me I wish I knew. You’re gloomy and awkward and nervous and jumpy, yet that just comes off as precious. When I see you freak out from being sneaked up on I want to laugh and hug you. Which I suppose I do sometimes, huh?

I can’t help it! You saw our results. I believe in them. I really do. And I know that you’ll deny it but it’s the truth. I can see it in your eyes when I’m with you. You’re at ease. You can be yourself. You feel something special when we’re together and I do too. Why else do you think we have perfect compatibility?

Forever and always I’ll be everything you aren’t. Forever and always you’ll be everything I’m not.

You’re smart. I’m sort of dumb.

You had parents. I never did.

You can’t remember. I can.

You’re nervous. I’m outgoing.

You’re quiet. I’m loud.

You’re awkward. I’m casual.

You work hard. I don’t.

You think about your friends. I didn’t have friends to think about.

You dream. I didn’t dream until I started thinking about you.

I could go on and on. I’m not going to lie and say I think about you all the time. But for the most part, I am thinking about you. Constantly I wonder when you’ll be around for the club meeting. Or sometimes I’ll sit up in bed waiting for you to get back from your sleepovers with Taemin.

All of this…all of it is because I want to be your other half. I’m already your other half in name so why can’t we be one in reality?

And you know what? There’s no doubt we’re soulmates so don’t even fight me. How do I know, you ask?

If we weren’t soulmates then I wouldn’t know, without a doubt, that if I sent this letter you would be upset. You would be upset because your heart beats for Taemin. Your soul pulsates with mine but I’m not the heartbeat that synchs with yours.

So I’m not sending this letter even though I swear to all holy things…I just won’t.

I’ll write you another one sometime, one that I’ll actually send.

With All My Love,

Dongwoon

DearZhoumi,

You .

You were the worst ing boyfriend ever.

I try to be logical and say I don’t care but I do care. I care that you stomped all over me like I was nothing and then ran off to be happy with some blonde.

Did you ever think about all the stuff you put me through? Should I list it off?

1. You cheated on me because you thought I cheated.

2. You never tried to fix the misunderstanding from #1.

3. You waited for me to come crawling back to you.

4. You were sneaking around behind me back. Seriously, I’m not that stupid. I had an idea of what was going on. I may not have known for sure, but really? Am I that naïve in your eyes?

5. You went to someone else for emotional support.

6. You said you loved me while sleeping with someone else.

7. You couldn’t decide between me and Eunhyuk.

8. #7 shows you didn’t really love me. You only liked me.

9. You never apologized for doing all of this.

10. You never said goodbye.

Kyuhyun