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early update! omg sorry im going to get another chapter in for this week because im just, , waste

alsoooooooo i started my second project: One Shots/Imagines/Fantasies !!! please give it a lot of sarangs and be sure to request toooo!!  i think my writing there is more ....hmmm.. fanfiction-y?? keke like its so detailed and descriptive... how idk bro

yeeeeeeeett okay bai ! also happy march break to those who currently have it ( ahem me )

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C H A P T E R  1 8

The screams and cheers are ear-piercing. I can barely hear NCT 127 talking over the audience, let alone hearing Yuta alone speak. I struggle trying to translate, and I can see how it hinders Yuta’s performance. I felt like I failed Yuta, which made me want to cry.

It was safe to say that I wasn’t in the best of moods anymore.

“Yuta..I’m sooo sorry I couldn’t hear anything and - “

“It’s okay. You should talk to the PD-nims...I really don’t want this to happen again.”

“Of course. I’ll work hard, I’m so sorry again..”

We all head to a theatre nearby for NCT 127 to hold their fanmeet. On the way there a PD hands me a device that would allow me to translate clearly without the background voices of the screaming audience. I thought that would mean that everything was solved, but…

There are so many girls. Perhaps that was what offset my mood, but I felt uneasy. I felt confused, why Doyoung was so nice to them when he should be like this only to me. And worse, I felt bad for the girls who treated Doyoung like he could be theirs, like he’s single. But he’s not single, he’s my boyfriend, and I don’t know what I could do the change this reality. In the end, I knew that Doyoung had to be Doyoung, and I had to just lay low.

I don’t like that inevitability, and I kept pondering whether I really wanted this relationship. Do I really like Doyoung? Enough to endure all this? Am I really ready for a relationship?

I don’t think so.