[KAI'S POV]

It’s been days since our wedding. Why he is acting weird? I feel like he is avoiding me. What the hell is wrong this time? What did I do wrong?!

"Hey Soo. What is wrong?" I ask him. He wants to go but I don’t let. I’m holding his hands.

"I need to go."

"Where?"

"Just... anywhere."

"Why?"

"I- I don’t know..."

"Soo.. Let's talk”

"No. I just can’t" I can’t help it but to wonder why.. Is he hating me now?

"You hate me now?" he is shock with such a question. Of course he loves me. 

"Then talk to me. What's your problem?" I pull his hand and he start to stumble. I caught him and sit him on my lap.

"Wha- what are you doing. Let me just go." I won’t. I look at his face. He is bright red.

"If you won’t talk to me I’ll kissed you."

"What the."

"Hey I’m serious"

"I don’t mind. Just kiss me." he puckered his lips. But I hold back. He is still waiting but I won’t. 

"This is the problem. You just... kind of holding it back with me. It is me who should ask either you loves me or not!" he complained.

"Well. You know that I"

"What? You don’t? Look I loves you very much but the way you act makes me mad. Ever since I got out from the hospital. Ever since that time! You won’t be affectionate to me anymore!" before I could say anything he cut me out.

"Is this all because I can’t get pregnant anymore? Am I that hateful when I am barren?!"

"Babe! You’re not barren! I just can’t help it but to takes a few distance between us."

"Why?"

"Because I’m scared of losing you. Whenever the thought of you dying. I’m scared baby."

"Just because of that?"

"Jongin.. We- We could use the protection right? Don’t be like this. I- I don’t like it. It feels like I’ve lost you. The one who is crazy over me" he said looking at me in the eyes and hugs me.

"Jonginnie.. I- I need you"

Today is our wedding anniversary. I’m so happy. 

"This time it’s going to be the three of us right, baby Tae?" I said to my unborn child. 

"I better start cooking now. Your daddy may be home anytime