Everybody said that the plan would never work. It was far too risky. I could die for it. So what? This child is mine and i will never abort it.

This is my life. My name is kyungsoo. Age 25. Currently im pregnant with my first child. I have a husband. a selfish one! Jongin never want this child. He said he loves me but we can't have the baby. I felt really sad when he said that i have to abort this lovely child of mine.

I dont feel any burden over it but why must he? Those days made me cry so much. Ive been giving him a cold shoulder. I know Jongin feel bad over it and he dissapointed with my behaviour too. But what can i do? I had been having this level of ego since birth.

Jongin called me. He informed me that  he will be back in a few days. Right now, Jongin is not here. He went outstation. He thought that i need time by myself. He wants me to think things over and when he's back, he want me to change my mind. He said that im crazy. He thought that it is impossible for me to keep the baby. But i dont care. I still want the baby.

It's really hard for me to agree with Jongin. Ive gone to my monthly check up. And the doctor said that it might be a baby boy. Im happy with the news as i could imagine that this baby and his father are going to be a perfect buddy. Once, Jongin told me that he would love to have a son. He wants to befriend them and teach them soccer. But now he has change. He is cruel. he want to kill the baby. Our child for god sake. 

on the the day he is home. he looks happy. Maybe he thought that im gonna change my mind. Jongin wants to hug me but i dont let him. As if he can read my mind, he asked me. 

"You still wont change your mind isn it?"

"For god sake. Yes!"

"Why my love?" His both hand on my shoulder. Gripping hard on it. I could feel his tense. He is upset. 

"I want this baby. It