For some reason, I decided to leave my apartment. I guess I needed some air. I’ve been so busy and never gave myself any time. I don’t really know.

 

I don’t know where I’m going but I’m going to let my feet take me there.

 

I had left my apartment complex. I passed the park, buildings, stores.

 

Without really paying attention, my feet took me to the city. Bright lights, car sounds, people talking, dogs barking, music playing.

 

The city was busy. It always was. Just like me. Or that is what I seem to think.

 

The city was crowded. So many faces. Men, women, girls, boys, couples, kids. Out of all of them, my eyes focused on him or what looked like him I saw him. I stopped. My heart stopped.

 

I thought I was never going to see him again.

 

Seeing him here made me feel uneasy.

 

Don’t walk to him. Turn around now. Before he sees you and you fall in love with him all over again. Turn around Kim Nana.

 

Just do it.

 

I knew what I was supposed to do, but my heart refused. My mind says one thing, but my heart says another. Remember? No. I don’t. Don’t remember.

 

My heart is swaying my mind. I guess I’m weak all around.

 

From afar, I watched him like always. Is it really him? Maybe it’s just my mind playing games. It’s what my heart wants to see.

 

I saw him surrounded by people we both knew from before. I recognized them all. Is that really him and are those really his friends? Maybe it’s my mind messing with me.

 

I turn around. It’s time to go. But I don’t want to. I haven’t seen him in what feels like forever.

 

I turned my head for one quick glance. I hope he hadn’t seen me and will not see me.

 

I peeked over. I saw his eyes move away from the direction I am in. I think he saw me. I turned around quickly and walked.

 

I walked as fast as my short legs could take me. I will not fall again because he will not catch me.