i always tell people of my ideal type
funny, cute,one who likes fashion and of course with common interest
people often mistook it as Gdragon probably because of the word fashion
but Jiyong is just like a brother to me..he professed his feelings to me way back but i already cut it off to avoid conflict..
He maybe every girls dream..because he's famous..rich and cute...he maybe called as a perfect guy...but there's more that i wanted in a guy.

I have been very vocal that i like someone..some may take that as a joke...but it's all half meant...that person..he may be cold outside...a stiff..emotionless man..but there's more that meets the eye...
when i arrived from the Phils. to take the workshop YG has given me..he was the last person i've met...of all the trainees..i find him serious..and not easily to decipher but everything changed...after getting to know him..you'll find him the sweetest...gentlest soul in the world...that's why i fell for him really hard

it was the fifth day of my stay in YG and was still adjusting..i was sitting at the canteen..waiting for jiyong whom was introduced to me on the day of my arrival...i was looking down at the table..a bit uneasy because of the noise of the people eating..when a figure appeared in front of me..with his thick brows..i was in awe of his perfection
"noona.are you waiting for jiyong"
"neh..you're seung hyun?"
"yes i am..would you mind if i sit down"
"no..no..no..it's okay"
"you seem restless...is there anything bothering you?"
"hmmm not really..i'm just a bit uncomfortable of the noise..probably because i'm still sleepy...i couldn't sleep last night.."
"why is that?"
"well that's just me..probably because in the Phils...i have tapings until morning...so my body clock adapted it..that's why it's hard to adjust sometimes"
"oh noona..you're an actress"
"neh.."
"have you made movies already?"
"yeah i have..have you seen the documentary KBS made?..it was documented there how i started"
"yes i watched it several times"
"really?thank you"
there's an awkward silence but i can feel that he's bridging the gap..
"someday i wanted to be an actor too..just like you"
"well anyone can be an actor...i don't know how to act..but because i really wanted to be an actress..i trained so hard.."
"noona someday you'll see me act"
"i'll look forward to that"

that was the first conversation i had with Seunghyun..the awkwardness was lessened and regularly we would talk personally or thru phone...talking about anything and everything

time has passed and my stay in Seoul is nearing its end..my co yg trainees gathered on the eve of my departure..they've prepared a send off for me..jiyong taeyang..bom hyesun minzi and others were present except him..i heard he went home..coming from affluential family..someone told me that he had a hard time adjusting in the dorm life..so he goes home regularly
i was a bit uneasy that i couldn't contact him the day that i'm leaving...it's almost 2 days that his phone is off..i'm a bit worried of what's happening with him...on my way to the airport..i received a message from him
"noona..have a safe flight"
"where have you been Seung hyun?"
"i've been in the house lately"
"so sad i couldn't see you...i'll be going to the philippines..it would take a while before i return"
but there's no response..waiting for it..i decided to say goodbye to him
"seunghyun..promise me you'll be a great actor and rapper..i trust you....don't forget your noona when you become the famous rapper and actor...fighting seunghyun"
the car came into halt and as i alight...a familiar figure was standing in front of me...it was him..i smiled and hugged him.was so happy to see him
"noona...have a safe flight"
there were tears in his eyes...he hugged me so tight
"i'll miss you noona..i promise i'll be a great actor and rapper when you come back..."
my eyes starts to well up..i was so moved on what seung hyun said..
"yes i know you will be..don't forget me okay"

he is clutching something that i asked
"what's that..is that for me?"
he nodded...
"i wanted to give this to you..it's a santokki...i was born in the year of the rabbit..i wanted to give this to you..so you'll remember me"
"ooohhh seung hyun..you're so sweet..thank you"
he handed me the rabbit..i was moved by his thougtfulness..but there was one thing that made me giddy.. it was the words he told me..
"can i drop the noona..can i just call you sandara? i don't want to be just your dongseang...i want to be a man for you"
he kissed my forehead and smile at me..the sweetest smile i've ever seen in my whole life