Confused

P.S: I love you...

-Kyuhyun's POV-

Summer vacation started and for the first time ever in my life, I wasn't that excited about it. I will miss my Yujin.
I can't stop thinking about her every single minute of the day and life has made it harder because I have travelled with my family!
The only thing I could do was to drop her a message on SNS whenever I found time! I hope she doesn't find it ridiculous!
And by the way, I feel like a third wheel! I have seen how happy she was the last day when we took a picture with Changmin!
I understood it later but I was the only way she found to manage to have a picture with him! It should be awkward if she asked him to take a pic with her "ALONE" that's why she insisted I am there with them.
To be honest, I was hurt that day but I am shaking those thoughts away and I am planning to start another plan to get her come to me on her own!
I don't want to force anything especially when it comes to her. She's too fragile and too pure to get hurt so I will just let her choose.

-Yujin's POV-

What a boring vacation, I was home the whole day trying to adjust myself with the heat storm we are facing!
Okey I should be honest! I am thinking about Changmin the whole day. He hasn't contacted me at all since our last day before summer vacation.
I see him online all the time but I don't have the courage to talk to him. I doubt if he's thinking about me at all.

On the other hand, there seems to be one person who can't resist being far away and who drops a message twice or three times a day talking about random stuff!
You guessed it right, it's Kyuhyun. 
I know what you might be thinking, it's normal he's your buddy isn't it? Yes he is but I feel like there is something more! 
I have a strong feeling that he is secretly crushing on me and he's undercovered under the best friend position wanting to know what I actually feel about him before making a move. I mean come on, I am not that idiot to not notice the way his eyes sparkle when he sees me, his pure smile when I am talking to him and his way of standing like a guy who's head over heels over me when I am beside him. Even Jiyeon insisted on that!
But I really don't know what to do about it! I don't want to hurt him at all! He's really precious and he's Changmin's best friend!
What if he figures out that I am crushing on Changmin? Will he still looks the same way to me? 
AH! This is really confusing me!

-SKIP-

It was time to go back to college for our most hard year ever. We are actually taking a national exam in the end of the year and this one is going to decide which major we'll be taking. Of course, we will all be in different schools and places when this year is over. Only thinking about it makes my heart sink. I can't imagine not being with Jiyeon, Kyuhyun or Changmin every single day so I need to prepare myself for that.

Today is our first day and I was super hyper, I have prepared myself and went to college exited to meet Jiyeon and the guys.
I was near the entrance when I have seen Jiyeon coming from the other side of the road and I waited for her so we can go in together.

We passed our first session and in the break as we were walking toward the cafteria I bumped into Changmin and I couldn't be happier:
"Oh Hey! Morning Changmin-ssi, Welcome back to our worst nightmare keke"
He replied with a smile: "Morning Yujin-ssi! It's so nice to see you after a long time!"
"It's so nice to see you too! Are you ready for the big year?"
He sighed and said "I am not yet ready! can't they just delay it for a while?"
I couldn't help but to laugh at his silly comment.

We were taking our way outside when we found our friends gathered on the side so we went to them.
And yes, you guessed it right, Kyuhyun was there.

The moment he saw me, all I could see was a grin on his face and his eyes sparkling.
My heart started beating faster, and I felt a little bit nervous. Okey this sounds a little bit weird right now but I will just say that I was really happy to see him!
After all I missed my best buddy whom I didn't meet for the whole summer vacation!

-Kyuhyun's POV-

What a nice way to start the school year. I am having a cold today and I am not in the mood to study but I need to see Yujin.
I really missed her a lot especially that we couldn't meet up at all for three whole months!
Unfortunately, we are not in the same class this year but I will find a way to participate in few of her courses.
I took my first session in the morining and in the break I found few of my old classmates gathered so I just stood with them.
We were immensed in our talk when I saw her coming from the other side with Jiyeon and Changmin.
Okey I need to get myself together and be cool.

She came closer and she looked a little bit nervous. Maybe because Changmin was there .
I waved to her and smiled then said "Hello Bestie! Long time no see"
She smiled back and said "Hey best buddy! glad we are back so I could see you!"
I couldn't help but to chuckle at her cute response.
We chatted with the guys for a while and then we went back to our next sessions.

-SKIP-

-Yujin's POV-

Days have passed and we are already done with our first semester. I was busy with all the stuff that I have to do and I couldn't think straight about anything else.
Many things happened and I wasn't as confused as this period of time.

The past few weeks, I was hoping for Changmin to take a move or at least to keep the friendship we had for the past weeks but it wasn't working at all.
He ignored me whenever I tried to chat with him, he avoided me in the breaks and even when we take the same sessions he just politely says hi and passes by as if we weren't that close before.

There was a time that I tried to talk to him about all these concerns and how did we change in the last few months but he seemed not that interested at all and I was left with my crush on him torturing me like that. To my great luck, at the same time of that conversation, a message from Kyuhyun popped up and I immediately felt better with his presence. I remember I told him I was not feeling well and something is bothering me and all what he did was make me feel better.
He didn't force me to know what was going on or anything but he was just there for me trying to cheer me up and offering me to spill it out whenever I feel like doing it.

Kyuhyun is such a precious friend. We grew even closer the last few months: we took sessions together, we shared many meaningful moments, we cared for each other and he really took a big part of my daily life. 
Even when I was sick, he made sure I never skipped anything from our studies. He was bringing me lessons that I missed, offering to help me up if I need to and he was always there whenever I needed him.
If there is anyone that deserves my feelings it would be Kyuhyun but I don't want to confuse myself neither to confuse him right now.
I need a break from all these confusions and then to make up my mind and think about what should I do next.

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lulu8891 #1
Chapter 3: Kyu your start with her was super bad, but you are on the right road now , the thing is i hope it's not too late for you since she likes your friend chwang