N’s head was throbbing, his headache was so tense that he couldn’t concentrate, all what he wanted to do was to sleep it off. Nobody has left the room but it was quiet, Leo found himself a spot on N’s bed and leaned his back to the wall, Ken was on the ground, he was in charge of putting the wet towel on top of N’s forehead, Ravi went back and set on Leo’s bed Hongbin by his side but Hyuk was nowhere to be seen. Ken was going out to the kitchen in order to refill the water bowl when he found Hyuk in the living room just sitting on the couch. He approached him and set next to him “Hyukie what’s the matter? You’re not getting sick too are you?”

“If I’m getting sick it will be out of worry … I just can’t handle to see him like that”

“That’s why he needs us by his side, let’s make sure that this won’t happen again”

Hyuk nodded and Ken took him by the hand and they headed back inside the room.

It was around 5am in the morning, N opened his eyes slowly. He realized that his headache was gone, he moved a little to see around him; Ken sleeping his head on N’s arm, Ravi and Hongbin both on Leo’s bed while Hyuk was lying on the floor covered with the blankets that he got from his room.

“How are you feeling?”

N searched for the source of the voice, he looked at the edge of his bed where Leo was sitting his back to the wall. “For how long you were sitting there?”

“Does it matter? I asked first”

N smiled a bit, he knew that Leo never moved in the first place “Better I guess, my head doesn’t hurt anymore and the burning inside my throat is gone”

“Good” said Leo while he climbed the bed to rest himself near his friend who automatically moved a little to give him some space “So you better start talking” ordered Leo with a fixed look that scanned all over N’s face. N looked down to his hands feeling guilty “So?” said Leo

“It all started with the comments that the fans left for me, I realized that I was a bad leader, the fans hated the way I lead the team and I tried to change according to what they wanted and somehow it worked we were doing great so I continued”

“I don’t get it HakYeon, continue doing WHAT?”

“Staying away from you … all of you, you are better without me, you don’t need me around when you are practicing, everytime I give you instructions you guys just get more tired and no matter how many times I record and practice my parts they are never as good as your parts and it's not fair for all of you for the efforts you have been doing, I can’t ruin what you worked hard for it”

“But you LEAD us to all of this … the comments you believed are not even sent by our fans”

“I know … now I know that I was making a big mistake, I thought it didn’t matter if I was here or not, you guys did great without me and you didn’t care but everything changed that night”

“You know what?”

“What?

“You’re such an idiot!”

“I Know”

  “Do you have any idea how much worried we were? Did you know that Hyuk was crying silently under his blankets thinking that we couldn’t hear him but we did, did you know that even though Ken was so tired he refused to go and lay down because he felt responsible for what is happening to you? Did you know that we care about you?”

“I’m sorry … I didn’t …”

“Who cares about what a bunch of anti fans would say if WE CARE? WE care, our REAL Starlights care”

“TaekWoon-ah … I’m sorry” N looked into Leo’s eyes, they were all wet, red and fluffy, he was crying. N his hair gently “It won’t happen again I promise” he passed his hand to whip off the tears off his cheeks. N’s hand felt so warm because of the fever but it felt good and relieving that N promised him it won’t happen again. At that time, Ken chuckled a little by N’s arm he lifted his head “Hyung you’re awake?”  Leo turned his head to the other side and cleared his face. It was only a matter of minutes then everyone was up, talking and fooling around their sick N, comforting him and asking him all kind of concerned questions. The thing is that now everything is cooled off, N was determined to keep that promise he just made he will be the person is and he won’t believe what others would say about him, he will work hard as he always have for the sake of his team and his Loyal and Real Starlights.