N finally opened his eyes, slowly and lifelessly, he tried to check on his surrounding but obviously his surrounding was checking on him. At first, everything was blurry and unclear but seconds later he could see s’ heads on top of him. The sigh of them made him smile a bit before everyone started flooding him with questions “Are you okay?” “Can you hear us?” “What happened?” … but N couldn’t answer, he immediately shut his eyes again and opened them shortly after due to their screams. His eyes met the concerned faces of his team mates, he opened his mouth in a try to say something to them but he realized that there isn’t much to say until Leo asked “Are you feeling ok?” N looked up at him “My head hurts” he said in a shaking voice more like a whisper.

Everybody looked very worried, deep down N knew that they were worried but his thoughts took him further. He kept thinking to himself “Not only am I the worst among them, now they have to worry about me? I don’t have time to be sick, I can’t get sick” he tried to push his body up and to sit properly on the bed. He thought maybe somehow he’ll assure them that he’s ok but he couldn’t, next thing he felt was Hyuk and Ravi helping him sit, he was touched by their action but he felt guilty as well “Why would they?”

As soon as he set on the bed, he was hit by the wave of dizziness due to his high fever and his headache. He automatically had hold of his head which made the others worry even more. Ken stood up and hurried to get him some water while Leo tried to turn off the lights for him it was brighter than what his head could take. Leo got closer to him and with both hand he put one on N's cheek and the other on his forehead pushing N hands away “You’re still burning up”

“I’m sorry” said HakYeon but immediately after that, he grabbed his throat, it felt like fire was inside of him and that’s when Ken came back with the glass of cold water which he passed it to Leo. Leo got the glass closer to N’s lips and waited until he gulped it all “You want some more?” N nodded and Ken filled it again and gave it back to Leo.

“Here” said Ken “The doctor said that you need to eat something before you go back to sleep”

“Doctor? What doctor?”

“Hyung you were unconscious for about 3 hours” Hyuk spoke after a long period of watching his Hyung from a distance

“He even gave you an injection” commented Ravi

Hongbin “We were worried sick about you what happened what’s wrong?”

N lifted his head up to see some serious worried faces, his dongsaengs being this stressed because of him only made him feel worse “I don’t remember” he said “I’m sorry I got you worried about me”

 “We found these” Leo showed N the few papers that Hyuk found them earlier “Is this is why you have been slaying yourself about?”

“Who? Our Starlights? Of corse!! I will always do”

“CUT THE CRAP HAKYEON” Leo busted off at him “You know damn right that these are only anti-fans and they are nothing close to our Starlights”

“It was in the fan mail”

 Everyone busted in “SO?” … “We get them too you know Hyung?” … “This is not a reason for you to almost kill yourself about" … “There will always be black mails”

“But I’m the leader, I should take care of you guys, I should never let anyone say anything about all of you”

Ravi: “And do you think you can do that Unconscious?”

Everybody agreed, N lowered his head in guilt but also in pain, his headache suddenly increased and for some reason he couldn’t pick it up once again. He closed his eyes in an attempt to relax when Ken noticed it “What’s wrong?”

“My Head …”

Ken helped him lay down again and forced him to take few spoons from the chicken soup he just made for him, and then he offered him his medicine. The lights were officially off, it was around 21PM but all of them knew that there will no actual sleeping tonight until they make sure that HakYeon was ok.