It has been weeks and I haven't heard from Ghun-ssi in a while.

Whenever I dropped by Little Xenos, he wasn't there.

I asked the rest but the only answer I'd get is...

"He was here a minute ago but he left.."

What was going on?

Somehow I miss his presence sooo bad.

I wonder, does he feel the same way about me?

Whenever I try to send him a text, he never replies me.

Calling him is useless too.

I was at home, alone.

I decided to give someone a call.

Someone I can ask for advice.

My father.

I took out my phone and dialled his number.

"Please pick up, please pick up..." I mumbled to myself, hoping that he'd pick up.

"Hello?" a husky voice was on the other line.

"Appa..."

"____-ah? Is...that you?" his voice was shaky.

"Ne... How are you, appa?" I asked him.

"I'm okay.. How's my little angel? Are you okay?"

I guess he knows.

"Appa, I miss you. When are you going to visit umma and I?" I tried to change the subject.

"You know how much I want to be with my angel, but I can't..."

"Appa..."

My parents divorced when I was still little.

I lived with my mother and I really miss seeing my father around.

"Appa.. I need some advice.." I told him.

"What is it, angel?"

I tried to find the right words to ask him.

"Appa.. How did you feel when you were no longer staying with umma?"

There was silence on the other line.

"Appa? Are you still there?"

After a minute or so, he finally answered.

"Angel.. It was not easy.. It was hard.."

"Then, why did you leave her, appa? Do you not love umma anymore?"

"I still love her, angel. But .."

"You do know that umma still loves you, right?"

"Ne.. Arasso.. But sometimes dear, you can't always have things your way.. Sometimes you need to let go of the one you love and set them free.."

I remained silent.

"My angel, are you having problems with JunKyu?"

"Appa..."

"I know it has been hard for you, but I'm sure he wants you to be happy, ne?"

"Appa, I love him too much. I can't..."

He cut me off.

"I know you do, but there's no point of you holding on. You need to move on.. It's been years since he..."

"Arasso.. But appa.."

"Yes, angel?"

"If umma were to find someone new, would you be happy for her?"

It took him a while to answer that.

"I don't see any harm in that. As long as she is happy, that's good enough. She'll find someone who can love her more than I do.."

I wiped my tears.

"There is nothing wrong in wanting to find happiness, remember that, my angel.."

"Thank you, appa.."

"I'm glad I could help my precious angel.. I need to go now, sweetie. It was nice to hear your sweet voice again.."

"Ne.. Goodbye, appa. Please take care of yourself, arasso?"

"Arasso, I love you, angel.."

"I love you too, appa.."

Hearing him saying that makes think.

I was unsure what I was I'm supposed to do.

I do love JunKyu but...

I made a promise with him.

I intend to keep that promise.

But then...

I'm in such a dilemma..

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