Yoora's P.O.V

After Crying a little bit I went home because I realized that I a so tired and i just wanted to sleep

"Where did you go?" an Angry voice said which Made my system awake again

"I went to Dad's tomb" I said and started Yawning

"Yoora please be mature of your decisions" he said and stood up

"About what?" I asked sarcastically

"About you and Lay, I understand that he makes you feel happy but please i am your husband and he is my bandmate so please be responsible of your action" He said calmly

"Save your scolding I don't need it I'm tired" I said and started walking upstairs

"I am doing this for our image Yoora!" Tao shouted which angered me

"Damn It I said stop talking I told you that I am Tired i don't want to fight anymore now if you like to talk and criticize everything that i do then you are free to leave this house and never come back" I shouted as i started running for my room

"Yoora Open the door" Tao said knocking the door continously

"Can you please stop it and let me sleep I am tired" I said

"You know what? I wish i never married you, You are so hard to understand Park Yoora" He said softly which I didn't fail to hear because I was standing behind the door

I am angry But My love for him won over my anger so i opened the door only to find out that Tao already left

I hurriedly went downstair to chase after Tao but I heard his Voice and it seems like he was talking to someone

"Rachel I will go to Malaysia tomorrow for the concert want to come with me?"

"Yes I know I love you too see you at the airport then" he said before i could give him the chance to see me I ran to my room and closed it softly

I bit my hands so that he wouldn't hear me cry

do you know the feeling when you have something that is yours but you can't truly say that it is yours?

that is what I am feeling right now

I hurriedly went to my drawer to get my phone dialed Lay's number

"What is it Mei Mei?" he asked sleepily

"Lay oppa i need your help" I said and went to the balcony

"I need you to keep an eye on Tao during your concert in Malaysia" I said as I breathe in the fresh air 
"I thought you'll have your honeymoon there" Lay replied which made me shocked

"what do you mean?" I asked but then i realized what he is saying

"Tao had asked our manager's permission if he can stay in Malaysia for 10 days" Lay explained

"O-oh I'll be back I need to do something" I said and hung up because of loss of words

"Yoora are you still awake?" Tao asked as he entered my room

oh i forgot to lock it

"Yes" I said trying to mask all my emotions

"would you like to come with me in Malaysia?" he asked which shocked me

"When?"

"Tomorrow" He said and went to where i was and sat down

"No I'm busy" i reply and started playing with my nails

"But I planned a 10 day trip in there" He said which made me want to throw up

"I really Can't sorry maybe you can go with Rachel? i'm sure she will be happy if you ask her to come with you" I  replied and smiled at him like I don't care about it

"Okay" He replied and started walking away

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" he asked again

"I am always sure of my decision Huang Zi Tao" I said and stared at the night sky

"Goodnight then" He said softly and walked away without looking back

Why does it feel like he was walking out of my life when in fact he is only walking away to sleep?

Huang Zi Tao can Either Destroy or Fix you

but for me Huang Zi Tao Destroyed me completely living me shattered into pieces

To Love is to Be Destroyed, to love is to Either Destroy the one you love or be destroyed by the one you love

I chose to be destroyed by him

Because I love him

and Because He is Huang Zi Tao 
and I am Huang Yoora

even if he doesn't love me I am still his wife

And as His wife I am willing to fight whoever threatens to destroy our marriage

Enjoy While the two of you can Rachel and Tao Because when my husband comes back I am going to make him fall in love with me

I will make Huang Zi Tao Obsessed with me to the point that he will treat me like his lifeline

just like how i treat him like mine