it looks like i wouldnt be able to do a one shot.. gomen ne i am really busy right now but hopefully hopefully i can finish everything

Tada kimi dake wo

kowashi sou data

nanimo nakute aishi sugita

maybe we'll fall in this carzy love

I have a feeling that this is wearing you down to the point of breaking
My love for you is too much
Maybe we're falling in the crazy love

April 12 xxxx

Sehun looks at the clock as its hands closes to 5 am in the morning. He heaved another sigh as another passed, he was not able to see Jongin again. He felt a lump on his throat as he slowly picks himself up and walk towards the bedroom door. Dinner was left uneaten, candles have melted on top of the chocolate cake. It had marred the words written on it. Sehun wonders if his husband had ever loved him as much as he did. But he knew better

Jongin was forced to marry him at all. He had married Sehun, out of obligation. Out of his family's wish.

4 years ago

"what!!i can't marry Sehun! i dont love him that way. heck i dont even swing that way" He heard Jongin roared as Jongin had talked to his parents. Their families had decided to strenthen the ties between them by letting Jongin marry Sehun. Sehun was very much happy, for he was inlove with his bestfriend for the longest time. Marrying Kim Jongin was his life's dream.

"But Jongin, without the Wu family we are going to lose our shares and stocks. with them they can help us have a more stable business" Mr. Kim had pleaded his son.

Sehun heard an anguished cry that was followed by glasses falling down to the ground as he heard Jongin wailed her name in front of his parents. Sehun felt his heart was slowly falling into pieces, shattered more than once as Jongin grieved as he lost the right to marry the woman he has ever dream of

Sehun had woken up from the soft creaking of the floor. He slowly opened his eyes. He had yet falling asleep crying over his one sided love. The clock on his bedside read 6 am in the morning, Sehun saw Jongin dazed. He can smell alcohol radiating from his husband's shirt. 

"he is drunk again" he thought sadly. He slowly stood up and grabbed Jongin's arm as he steadies him to bed. But Jongin had pushed him away, eyes red. Sehun slowly let him go and padded towards the kitchen and grabbed some things for Jongin. He felt his heart breaking again. he tried to stop his tears from falling down his eyes as he pretends to be unaffected. Just like the past four years.

but this time, his resolve crumbled down.

he slowly plodded back to the shared bedroom. he was about to open the door but was stunned by the entrance as he heard his husband muttering soft notings of what seemed to be his phone. Sehun tried to stop himself from going in further and walk away but he was rooted on the same place as he heard jongin softly whispered the loving words that he had longed to hear

"i love you so much, Krystal" he said softly. He can hear Jongin chuckled behind the behind their bedroom door. Jongin had often refered to her in her Engiish name, and Sehun knows why.

So their parents wont suspect Jongin having an affair with another woman. it was funny that they could not recognize her. It was so funny that they were fooled but in the end, It was Sehun who was a sick joke. For he has forced his bestfriend to marry him against his will, he had force someone to love him like he has loved him. Sehun gulped the lump hi