All Taehyung wanted was to see Jungkook and Jimin happy.

 

Taehyung would always secretly walk away, while the two of them were immersed in their own world.

 

That’s good.

 

Taehyung would try to be his usual self, goofy and loud around them.

He didn’t know that some had noticed that.

 

Taehyung was not sure if it was okay to remain like that.

To be honest, he did had the intention of pulling Jungkook and Jimin apart before.

He is a human after all.

 

Who doesn’t try to satisfy their own wants and needs?

 

Taehyung would smile sadly whenever the thought came across his mind.

He knew he should not be that selfish.

 

He would not want to be the villain like in those super heroes shows, satisfy their own greed and in return, destroying the whole universe.

He did not want to destroy his friendship among them.

 

He did not know what to do.

 

All he could do was to accept the reality and let the feelings faded as the time goes by.

 

--

 

Namjoon observed every single move of Taehyung.

 

He found that it was amazing that Taehyung could hold back his feelings that well.

Namjoon could see a tinge of sadness lingered around Taehyung or how he would look away whenever Jungkook and Jimin shared an intimate moment together in front of the bunch of guys.

 

Sometimes,

 

Just sometimes,

 

Namjoon would want to push those two lovelydovey doves away.

 

Namjoon could not really tell why he had those feelings, but it was heart wrenching for him to see Taehyung looking away, or trying to hide those expressions.

 

Would it be alright if Taehyung wasn’t present at that loveydovey moments?

 

Namjoon had the urge to just stand up, held on to Taehyung’s hand and walked away, pulling Taehyugn along with him.

 

Namjoon did not get why Taehyung was not even putting in any effort to confess or to tell the truth at the first place. Taehyung had many chances to do so.

 

Why?

 

--

 

“Taehyung ah…”

Seokjin called out as Taehyung stared blankly at the field again.

 

“Hmm?”

Taehyung humed in response.

All he wanted was just to enjoy the wind and relive the moment where he always sat down there, not too far from the field, watching Jungkook running on the tracks.

 

Yoongi shook his head, telling Seokjin to stop asking what ever he initially wanted to. Seokjin just sighed.

 

“Do you want to eat ice cream? It’s Yoongi’s treat.”

Seokjin said happily while Yoongi just slaped his boyfriend’s back.

 

Taehyung eyes seemed to twinkle.

“Yes! Thank you hyung!”

 

He was in all smiles and Namjoon knew deep down, he wasn’t.

 

“Okay, then me and Yoongi would go buy the icecreams.”

Seokjin stood up and pulled Yoongi along with him.

“Namjoon, you stay here with Taehyung. We’ll be back soon”

 

Namjoon nodded while Taehyung had his eyes fixed on the field.

 

Namjoon sighed.

“What’s so special about Jungkook?”

 

Taehyung froze upon hearing those words from Namjoon.

“What… what do you mean?”

 

“Don’t feign ignorance. You know what I am talking about.”

Namjoon fidgeted his own fingers, hoping that the conversation would go well.

He did really want to help Taehyung.

 

He would also wanted to help himself too.

He wanted to stop feeling the sense of pitiness towards Taehyung.

He knew Taehyung did not deserve any one to take a pity on him.

 

 

Taehyung remained silence. But at the corner of his eyes, Namjoon could see Taehyung’s hand trembled.

 

Namjoon could not help but to reach out and held on to the trembling hands, as if giving it an assurance.

 

“I….. I was the one who notice Jungkook in the first place…”

Taehyung’s lips quivered, but Namjoon knew Taehyung was almost choking back his tears.

“But I didn’t know that Jung kook had set his eyes on Jimin too.”

 

Nobody knew that it would be so complicated.

 

Taehyung blamed himself for not being vocal about the interest towards Jungkook.

But that was not even in his plan at the first place.

He just wanted to look at Jungkook from a far, quietly.

 

But he did not know that a year later, Jungkook would become Jimin’s.

 

“I….ugh… I…”

Taehyung pulled away his hands from Namjoon and covered his eyes with his forearms. Namjoon could see tears rolling down his cheeks.

“Ugh……did…didn’t…ugh … know that ….i…it …would..ugh”

 

Namjoon leaned forward and gave Taehyung a hug.

He knew he was right about it.

 

Taehyung was indeed lovelorn.

 

And the saddest part was, he was in love with Jungkook.

 

Namjoon the back of Taehyung’s head.

“it’s okay.  Cry it out.”

 

“I….. ugh I was..really…..love…ugh..”

Taehyung bawled.

“why…ugh…”

 

Namjoon could felt a squeeze in his heart.

He knew that was not pity.

 

He as if feeling the same pain and sorrow that Taehyung felt.

 

.

 

I think I’m in love too.