I tried to focus and feel the music but I can't think of anything else. Everything in me feels numb. I feel listless. I feel like I'm slowly suffocating. It's getting harder to breathe. I stopped dancing and sat on the floor.  Our comeback will be weeks now and here I am, being so depressed.

"Ahhhhhhh! I hate myself!" I screamed so loud, I feel like my throat will tear apart. The tears I've been holding since this morning started to fall down. No matter what I do, why? Why can't I forget about him? Why can't I just move on?

I did not even notice when the door of the practice room opened, Sana walked towards me and sat beside me. She wrapped her arms around me.

"Shhhh, It's okay Momoring. Let it all out, Cry if you must"

"I----"

I can't help but hug her back and cry again.It hurts.

"Momo, don't you think that this is the sign? You've been loving him for like half of your whole life. Don't you think It's the time for you to free your heart from all the pain? Find someone new? Kai-sunbaenim, No, Your jongin is dating now. And from what you told me before he loved her even before his debut right? It means that he really does love her..."

Sana is right but I just can't help but be shock of the news. This morning their relationship was revealed to the whole world.

EXO's Kai is dating F(x)'s Krystal

What a great news to start the day with, right? I nodded at Sana and tried to control my tears. She's right