A/N: Though I still have classes next week, I'll be freer because one of the subjects with the heaviest load will have no classes for the entire week. I sat in front of my computer, ready to flesh out the scenario in my mind for when Jiyong and Soojoo began their fake relationship... Typing for an hour got only these lines below. AN HOUR's worth of writing. I can clearly see what's going to happen but I cannot write it. Everything just sounds so wrong and robotical and I want nothing more than to bang my head on the computer. I've written in the style of writing I least appreciate. I've become the type of author I least like. :( 

I'm really sorry for those who really want for me to continue this story. I've actually sort of figured out the entire scenario of the last 2 chapters and have thought of at least 2 more chapters prior to those ending chapters. I've also mapped out the characters in my head and how they will affect Ri and Jiyong's lives. BUT. I. JUST. CANNOT. WRITE. IT. I hope people will be patient with me. I'm really sorry. I'll try to put up a proper update soon. :( 

Here's a teaser for the next chapter. I know it's not much, but I hope you'll stay with me til the end. :(

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“Jiyong, are you sure you’re ready?”, Youngbae says and a moment later I feel his glance focus on me. I do not turn to face him though. We’ve been friends for too long that niceties weren’t necessary nor favored.  I continue staring out the window, trying not to think of the queasy feeling in my stomach, nor how  sweaty my palms are, and especially not on how abnormally fast the beating of my heart is. 

“I have to be”, I eventually say, doing my best to not let my voice crack, still turned away from him. My whole night was going to be spent pretending anyway, so why not start now?

“Look, I know you said that it’s your duty as a leader, but ALL of Seungri’s friends are going to be there and they might be less than friendly with you… because, you know… you guys are broken up and haven’t really talked to each other since then”, Youngbae says hurriedly. As if the sting of his words might be less if he almost garbles the words together. It stings though. Every reminder that Seungri is not mine anymore will always hurt.

“I know. But people might start gossiping if I’m not there and yet all the other members of Bigbang are present”, I say, trying to sound unaffected.

“If you’re sure”, Youngbae sighs. He then shifts his body away from me and I feel my shoulder relax as I release the tension I've been unconsciously holding. The silence continues, enveloping the entire car. It's a comfortable silence though, reflective of the effect of Youngbae's presence. I'm going to need his steady support and calming aura for what I'm about to face tonight. I feel both dread and excitement warring within me. I know it will be worse later though. Especially when I see him.