Do I still love you?

Do you love me?

Jiyong watched the retreating back of seungri. His heart constricted at the image of Seungri's panda eyes that was wet with unshed tears. He was stunned by his question. He did not realise how serious the problem was when seungri started asking the same old question over and over again. 

He was distracted by kiko who cupped his face coyly and peck his cheeks. He was not in the mood for flirting but he did not have the heart to reject her as well. He was confused by his own feelings. He knew he loved..loves seungri. He has been loving him all these years and there was no reason for him to stop doing so. 
However, he felt free when he was with kiko. There was no fears, no burden. She was lovable and highly sought after which made him even more flattered to gain her interest. She was testing his limits with the endless flirting and outright love confession. It was like a whiff of fresh air in his mundane life. He hated to admit but his heart wavered when he was with her. He could imagine a having a perfect family with her.

However he has seungri. Seungri who knows him inside out. Seungri who stayed by his side through thick and thin. Seungri who loves him unconditionally. Seungri who he loves as well. He knew he shouldn't be developing feelings for another but he could not stop his heart from doing what he wants. What should he do now? Who should he choose? If he choose Kiko Seungri would leave him and he couldnt let Seungri out of his life like this. 


Jiyong excused himself without any explanation leaving a confused Kiko behind. He ran out of the club but his panda was no where to be found. He had a very uneasy feeling and hailed a cab home immediately. He was glad he did just that because he ran into his panda who was leaving the apartment with two luggages in hand. 

"What are you doing ri? What is this?" Jiyong asked calmly.

"I am leaving. The owner of this home is not me. It's time for me to leave. Dont worry, I didnt leave any traces of me." Seungri answered, not looking at the love of his life.   

"Wait! Why? I love you. I am sorry for earlier but baby I didnt mean to. Forgive me Ri. Stay!" Jiyong pleaded, finally realising the severity of the situation. 

"Hyung, do you love her?" Seungri asked, not wanting to know the answer at all. 

"I..."
At the hesistation, Seungri knew it was game over for him.

"I love you hyung. I really do. But do you still love me?"

Without waiting for his reply, Seungri pushed past him and left the apartment in tears. Jiyong did not stop him. He could not bring himself to lie to him further when his mind was in a mess right now. It would only hurt him further.

Right now the same damn question echoed in his head.

"Do I still love you Seungri?"

 

 

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MochiCloud
#1
Chapter 4: *cries* I love angsty stories like this! Please update? Pretty please? I want to see jealous Jiyong :)
darkpanda-23 #2
Chapter 4: Why ! Why would anyone hurt Ri, he's too cute! TwT
levinerose #3
Chapter 4: so cute! poor riri! hes so adorable when he's drunk sooooo~hehehehe ^^ omoo I might have a heart attack from the cuteness! >^<!! kekekeke love this story! please update soon author-nim~ <3
AkiraYuri #4
Chapter 4: Go go......
don't cry anymore ri.
Jiyong will regret it later
Hinatory #5
Chapter 4: Drunk Ri is cute x3 I hope that GD & Ri will find back together ><
choiismychoice #6
Chapter 4: hahahahaaa.. :D lol ! i love this chap! riri is super cute! hahahaa :D and what is that? so the third wheel is jyj? hahahaa :D okay, he's cool. Ahhh.. can't wait to see jealous ji. kkkk ^^ update soon author. thanks :)
choiismychoice #7
Chapter 3: huhuhuuu :'( it was so sad. 7 years of relationship ends like this :'( please make seungri happy, authornim. And i would b really grateful, if you can make each chapter longer. Thankyou authornim
AkiraYuri #8
Chapter 1: Omg... i can't handle my heart..
Poor seungri...
Update soon
eshave #9
Chapter 2: oh noooo!!! my heart.... T.T
I think this is really similar with real life,,, I really love nyongtory, and pray for them... but south korea still not accepting that kind of love.. and we just dont know the truth behind Ji's life, is he really love Ri, or Kiko??? I truly DISLIKE kiko,, but how if Ji really DO love her??? arrgh!! it's confusing!
please do update soon,,
akioryuu
#10
Chapter 2: OMG Riiiii..... Can't handle my tears anymore.... I need tissue here.... Ji when you doubt yourself like that than the answer is clear... You have to understand you own feeling than perhaps you understand other feeling, the pain of other... It's hurt Ji... Hurt so much....

Love you author nim cz you give us quick update... Hope tomorrow i will see this story update again...