“I want to say those word but I can’t, cause I know we can’t be together” –HongJisoo

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Wonwoo still sit at infirmary, he doesn’t know what to do. Suddenly the door open it was mingyu, his  boyfriend.

 

“what take you so long hyung? and where’s jisoo hyung? I think you see jisoo hyung here”

 

“ah, mingyu-a. jisoo just go home a while ago,”

 

“so what you do here hyung?”

 

“mingyu-a, what will you do if you must lost your bestfriend?”

 

“what do you mean hyung?”

 

“ah, nothing. I just ask abruptly, don’t mind about it” wonwoo said while walking out of infirmary

 

“ah okay hyung” said mingyu following wonwoo,

 

“ah, mingyuuu~” suddenly junghan appear in front of migyu and wonwoo

 

“junghan hyung, what is it?”

 

“ah nothing, I just call you cause I want to talk with your boyfriend, so wonwoo, jisoo already go home?”

 

“yes he is, he’s go home just a moment ago”

 

“so bad, I want to talk with him, okay then. I’ll go first, see you tomorrow you two”

 

“ne hyung,” mingyu answer while wonwoo just nod

 

“you seem not feeling well hyung, is it something wrong?”

 

Wonwoo shake his head

 

“nothing, maybe I’m just tired cause of many assignment to do, let’s go anyway”

 

Mingyu nodded and follow wonwoo instead.

 

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Night come, jisoo at his bed, still thinking about the mail earlier.

 

Jeon Wonwoo calling.

Jisoo see’s his phone, his bestfriend call him. He really doesn’t want to talk right now, but he know he can’t ignore his friend,

 

Jisoo answer wonwoo call.

 

“hm?”

 

“what are you doing soo?”

 

“me? Just stay at my bed, why won?”

 

“I just want to know..”

 

“you don’t tell anything to jihoon right? Are you with jihoon now?”

 

“no I’m not telling anything, and I’m alone here, jihoon just going out to buy something for aaron hyung-nim”

 

“o”

 

“so jisoo-ya, what will you do?”

 

“what I do won? There’s nothing, just spend my life like usual”

 

“you tell your mother soo?”

 

“…”

 

“I guess you not, when will you tell her? She must know about your condition soo”

 

“I know won, I just don’t know the exact time to tell her”

 

“one more. What will you do toward junghan? He ask me earlier about you when I walk home with mingyu”

 

“I don’t know won… It’s to complicated to think. This all so suddenly won”

 

“..” wonwoo doesn’t know what to say

 

“won-ah, if you in my position, what will you do? Will you allow your feeling or let the one you love have their own happiness?”

 

“HONG JISOO! DON’T SAY SOMETHING STUPID LIKE THAT! I know you can survive soo.., you already go to hospital?”

 

“I’ll go tomorrow, after school”

 

“want me accompany you?”

 

“I better go alone won, thank anyway”

“okay then. Tell me if you need any help soo, you know me and jihoon always support you and stay by your side.”

 

“I know won”

 

“okay then. Night jisoo, rest there, sorry for disturbing you”

 

“you never disturb me won, I know you worried about me, night too won”

 

Jisoo end his call with wonwoo, but he still thinking. Wonwoo is right, when will he tell about his condition to his mother, and what will he tell to junghan about his feeling? It so complicated for him. Jisoo decide to sleep, he doesn’t want to think about this anymore. He will face it.

 

Jisoo feel not well this day, he’s throw up at midnight and he feel so much pain in his head. Come to hospital next day must be a good decision.

 

*knock knock

 

“sweetheart you not prepare to go to school? Mom must go early cause there’s something to do urgently” said jisoo moms

 

“it’s okay mom, I already prepare myself just now, you must go then, don’t be late mom”

 

“don’t forget your dinner dear”

 

“yes moms”

 

Jisoo lie. He’s lie toward his mom. He doesn’t want to go to school this day, but he wear his uniform right away, so his brother hansol will think that he go to school,

 

“morning sol” said jisoo at kitchen while eat his breakfast

 

“ah morning hyung, are you sick hyung? you look pale” ask hansol

 

“ah, I’m okay, just can’t get peaceful sleep last night, ah, you’ll late if you not go right now sol”

 

“you’re right hyung, I’ll go first then”

 

“yeah, I’ll go after finish my breakfast and take my stuff, take care sol”

 

“yeah hyung”

 

Beep. You received new message

 

From : Jeon Wonwoo

Subject : where are you?

 

Jisoo-ya, where are you? Class will begin in a minute

Jisoo see the message from wonwoo, he think for a while, he doesn’t want to reply wonwoo message, but he must reply in order to reduce his worry toward him

 

To : Jeon Wonwoo

Subject : skip

 

I go to hospital right now so I skip today class. If someone ask you about you just say you don’t know anything. Say you not contact me today or you text me but not get any reply. Thanks won.

 

Jisoo send his reply.

 

In a minute, jisoo receive another message from wonwoo.

 

From : Jeon Wonwoo

Subject : skip

 

Take care then soo, text me if you need help. What will I say if junghan searching for you?

 

To  : Jeon Wonwoo

Subject : -

 

Just say you don’t know. He have my number, he will contact me after searching for me from you. I turn off my phone from now won, I’m on my way to hospital now.

 

Jisoo send his reply then turn off his phone,

 

……..

 

Arrived at hospital, jisoo wait his name to be called. Jisoo turn his phone on,

 

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