Two months have passed and the seasons are changing. Slowly the summer that felt like a sudden dream was coming to an end and the brief time we where together is now gone. I have sought the warmth and comfort from others but none of them have been like you. Is it bad that we only spend one month together and I still can’t seem to let you go? I erased you from all my social media but you’re still following me on Instagram. I know you see all my pictures but why are you still here?

We had only broken up 6 days ago but your Facebook account says you’re in a new relationship.

Ouch.

Did I really mean nothing to you? Was it really just a fling?

To me you were my first love. My first everything. But was I really that bad of a girlfriend? I know that asking all these questions is irrelevant at this point in time but I wonder why does it still hurt so much?

Why can’t I seem to forget you?

Sadly I can’t wish you the worst in your new relationship. I sometimes wish you could feel the pain that I felt when I read “It was fun while it lasted”.

Call me pitiful I don’t care. It just hurts. Will I be able to fall in love again?

Will I be able to trust anyone anymore?

The idea of finding someone new terrifies me. I look for you in others and say no one can compare to you. I know there’s plenty of fish in the see but why is it that I only know you.

I tell myself I should move on and that I wi