Mors Voluntaria

Mors Voluntaria
Please log in to read the full chapter
MORS VOLUNTARIA final  

Jonghyun goes to sleep around midnight. It has been a long day and he's completely exhausted. He doesn't greet his roommate and best friend Taemin goodnight when he finally snuggles into his sheets despite the other being in the living room playing on their play station. He's asleep shortly after.

He's woken up a few hours later though, his ring tone cutting through the comfortable silence. He grabs his phone from his nightstand and squints when the light hits his face.

It's 3 AM.

His phone keeps ringing in his hand, an unknown number. Jonghyun contemplates not taking it and just hanging up on the stranger that has obviously gotten the wrong number in the middle of the night and go back to sleep but ends up accepting the call anyway. He guesses he can just politely tell the other that they have gotten the wrong number and go back to sleep. It should probably only take 30 seconds.

"Hello," he mutters and wets his lips when he realizes they're extremely dry. He has closed his eyes in the darkness now that his phone is against his ear and he's about to drift back into sleep when the other starts talking.

"I'm scared," they whisper and Jonghyun cracks an eye open. He can only see the vague silhouettes in his room but something about the others voice gets to him. He's about to ask who he's talking to when the other voice talks again.

"Help me," it says and Jonghyun thinks he can hear the other cry as well. With a little rustle Jonghyun sits up in his bed with his back against the headboard and turns on his bedside lamp.

"Who am I talking to?" he asks but the other doesn't answer his question.

"I'm so scared," they say again and Jonghyun nods a little. He sort of understood that the first time. "I have the pills right in front of me. I just can't... I can't... What do I do?"

The other breaks down crying again and Jonghyun decides that a name is not important. He can always get a name later.

"I'm too cowardly to do it," the stranger cries and Jonghyun sits there and listens to the broken sobs on the other end. He doesn't know what to say exactly. He has always been bad at comforting people, Taemin has always told him that. He doesn't know what to say whenever someone is hurting but he can't hang up on this stranger. There's so much hurt and desperation in the others voice. Jonghyun swallows the lump in his throat and drags his sheets a little closer around him.

"Talk to me. Tell me everything."

That seems like a good approach to this. If only he can get the stranger to talk. There's a reason they called him, right? It may be the wrong number but Jonghyun can't let the other kill himself. Jonghyun thinks it's a pretty good plan just to get the other to talk.

"I don't want to live anymore but I'm so scared," the stranger says and sniffles. Jonghyun is pretty sure the other is still crying.

"Why don't you want to live anymore?"

It's a daring question and Jonghyun crosses his fingers silently that it won't be the wrong question.

"I'm sorry," the stranger says and Jonghyun hears the sound of tin foil being broken and a glass being opened. It scares him. It scares him a lot and it doesn't make his anxiety any smaller when there's absolute silence afterwards.

"Hey?" he says into his phone but he doesn't get an answer. "Hey, you there?" Panic is rising in Jonghyun and he even contemplates hanging up and calling the police or 119 but how is he supposed to save a stranger he doesn't know and can't direct the paramedics to?

"Hey!" he says again, panic present in his voice. He gets out of his bed and slips on his slippers. He's going to wake up Taemin. Taemin can help him. "I'm scared," the other suddenly whispers and Jonghyun sighs in relief.

"Tell me what happened." There's silence again for a few seconds. "Tell me what happened!"

Jonghyun wills himself to calm down when he hears the other gasp.

"Oh my god!"

Jonghyun stands in front of his bedroom door, hand on the handle.

"Oh my god, I called the wrong number," the voice whispers scandalized. "I'm so sorry!"

"No, it's okay! Please just tell me what happened. Did you take the pills?"

He bites his lower lip and waits for the other to answer.

"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry."

And then he hears a click and the call disconnects and Jonghyun is left perplexed the next 10 seconds. He tries calling the number again but the other doesn't pick up and Jonghyun can feel panic rising in him again. He can't go back to sleep now. Not knowing that someone reached out in misery. So he hurries into Taemin's bedroom and shakes the other awake.

"Taemin!"

The younger groans and turns his back to Jonghyun in his sleep. It's 3.30 AM and he needs Taemin's help and he needs it now.

"Taemin!"

Jonghyun shakes him awake and the taller boy turns around t

Please log in to read the full chapter
Like this story? Give it an Upvote!
Thank you!

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
phiiee #1
Chapter 4: This is incredibly bittersweet <\3 But none the less amazing! Thank you for sharing :)
Cereal_Shipper #2
Chapter 3: I just read this and I like it a lot Minji (;-;)
They know nothing about each other, just that Kibum needs help and that Jonghyun wants to help even if he doesn't know how to. That's what brings them together. They're perfect strangers but it just feels... genuine. Even the awkwardness when they wake up feels so real
Btw, Jonghyun who doesn't know what to say so he just hugs him. It can totally relate... Sometimes there's nothing you can say to make it better, and sometimes you don't need to say anything because your presence is enough...
I was wondering why the story ended this way but then I read your explanation and I get it now ! I can definitely see why people asked for a chaptered fic, there's potential but I get why you kept it that way. A slice of life, a little story about the people you meet and you will never see again... I've never seen this kind of fic before ! I like it (;-;)
Falling_Leaves_ #3
Chapter 3: Ah, this is really cool :) I was looking forward to an extension chapter but your author's note justified why you left it as a one shot and I couldn't deny that it felt a reasonable choice. Anyhow, this was really good~ xx
reyaakoh
#4
Chapter 1: Its a nice plot... ^__^ you are a great writer
kayla13fearless #5
Chapter 2: Yah, so interesting! Want more ~
nedy90
#6
Chapter 2: This gonna be a chaptered fic? Awesome!! I really want to know what had and will happen to kibum. B
Layni17
#7
Chapter 2: XD Imma still write my own continuation, still will never post it. But yay!