First day... For some it may be the most interesting day during the whole school year span or something, but for Ahyoon, it was the worst. Why?, you might ask. 

Well she didn't want to meet her ex boyfriend. She didn't want to meet him again, not because she hates him but because she feels tightly held and gripped onto when he's around. She hates it when her breath hitches whenever she sees him- not because she still loves him but because her conscience is eating her. She tried her best to return his feelings back but her best wasn't enough. She eventually gave up anyway. 

Back in her previous middle school, one of her teachers would always say "It's impossible to teach a heart whom to love. You may dictate whatever you want to it, but it's like a stubborn child. It would do whatever it wants to do, and it would crave whoever it wants." 

True enough, it is.

But, she wasn't those type of girls that's into relationships. And perhaps, maybe- the only reason she got into a relationship with him was because she pitied him. She knows he's a good guy and she knows how much heart break he has gotten, and it's a stupid thing to do but she told herself that she'll be his black rose. Someone that would save him from the sorrow of loneliness. But in the end, she ended up hurting him as well. 

And maybe, just maybe it's the reason why she's not looking into this year's opportunities. 

T'was 6 in the morning and she was already wide awake. Thrilled, nervous, scared and unmotivated. That's what she was feeling. Her stomach is churning, heart pounding. She wasn't ready for any of it. Facing him, facing everyone knowing that all of her friends must've hated her for breaking his heart. 

After her morning routine, she grabbed onto her bag and slithered her hand inside looking for a particular object. Her bus card of course. Her parents would normally leave for work before she could even wake up so normally, she's the only one left every morning and of course her budgies that she's been taking care of for about a couple of months now. 

The ride to her university didn't take that long since she lives quite near to it. And again, she wasn't ready for it. 

She wasn't ready for the constant morning calls from her mother, nor she wasn't ready to meet those new freshmen students that she would probably hate. And especially, she's not ready to meet their school's director who's one heck of a big dollar sign. 

And there she was, standing in front of the familiar gate of the university. There were a lot of new people she have never seen before. Probably, or mostly freshmen. She knew some of them, but not to the point where she would approach and make conversations with them. And not to mention, they all look like those type of friends Regina George would only befriend. 

"ugh." she mumbled, going straight onto her first assigned room. The room wasn't fully packed yet, in fact she's early for their first subject. She didn't want to come late, sit down while everyone stares at her like she's just committed a crime. 

One by one, her classmates piled in, most of them are old students and some are new. Her friends went to sit beside her, of course and just like last year, though they're in one room, the row of guys are separated to the girls. Meaning, they can't really stay near each other. 

It was a normal drill, for first days.. Teachers introducing themselves and the subjects they're going to handle, and some would even ask for everyone to introduce themselves in class which Ahyoon hated the most. She doesn't like talking in front of many people.