Come on wait, Wait up

Wait goddamnit, what is up with you?!

 

Let go

 

No

 

Let go..

 

Why can’t you just tell me what’s wrong-

 

YOU ARE what’s wrong!

 

…

 

I-I can’t anymore okay? Everyday I get to watch you live your life to the fullest. I’ve been there for your ups and downs through the depths of hell and up.

 

I’ve witnessed you in your prime, what I thought was your most happiest times

 

But I was wrong.

 

You showed a smile greater than Ive ever seen. Brighter than all your other ones when with me.

 

Ones that weren’t for me. Weren’t because of me.

 

They were for him.

 

Him who entered the picture out of nowhere taking, stealing you from me.

 

He got to see, experience, cause that god of a smile you wear.

 

I watched. I watched, comforted, hell I’ve even helped you get closer and closer with him despite knowing goddamn well I was digging my own heart a grave.

 

 

W-what..?

 

 

It’s exactly as your heard it. 

 

I was happy. I was happy as long as you were happy. As long as I was the one making you happy.

 

But then it all changed. Suddenly there was something else making you happy. Someone else, making you happy. 

 

I was replaced.

 

Those precious moments of your time I had was taken and then given away. 

 

To him.

 

I despised him. Hated him. Loathed him.

 

He took the only thing I wanted to keep.

 

You.

 

I have loved you ever since I first laid my eyes on you.

 

I knew.

 

I knew you were the one I needed to keep close. 

 

My partner til the end. My ride or die.

 

But I guess I wasn’t yours.

 

So sorry. Sorry if me leaving you, because my heart couldn’t take it anymore, hurt you. I’m sorry you had just realized now. That you had realized a little too late.

 

So I’m sorry, that there is only so much of me left.

 

I am hanging on my last strand. And seeing you with him… 

 

You and him up that stage that we were supposed to be on…

 

Im sorry I wasn’t able to stomach the thousand daggers being sent to my heart.

 

 

I-I never knew…

 

 

As if you knowing would have made it any better at this point. Nothing matters. Not anymore.

 

I don’t care anymore. 

 

Have fun.

 

Enjoy your time with him. I hope he gives you what I failed to give. 

 

I hope he.. I hope he is worth it.

 

Because clearly, I wasn’t.

 

 

Goodbye.

 

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