i finally got my own laptop guys!! however i am not sure if i should contiunue writing now or not since im in a boarding school now. life is hard there. and i dont think my grammar is good either nowadays since, there, the school, the people there, cant really speak in English and they somehow bash people who can speak English or whoever good at it. they say that these people, who speaks and understand English, are ignorant and not friendly. which i was the opposite of it. i tried to blend it with them, trying my best not to speak English too much. but goddamn, that's the worst ever. i got bored and scared easily. i am always a fan of writing but once i entered the school, they only learn basic English. no literature, no super long essays, no creative writing. the only we learning for the first semester is communication. since i took accountancy, i expect to learn something like bussiness communication but god, it was basic English. HOW TO SAY HI. HOW TO SAY NO. HOW TO INVITE PEOPLE. HOW TO DECLINE AN OFFER, 

and did i mention about the people there? they are friendly but i am always the outcast member. i am always the left out member. i am always that one person who is not that important. it had always been that way since day one. since i was born but damn, i tried so hard to live like normal people. and the seniors there are super ty and the guys there are s. 99% of them are jerks. oh god. 

so, the only way i get out from this ty life of mine, i listen to music, of course. and i know this is kinda late, but few days ago i went deeper inside Fall Out Boy music. they are a band(duh..) and well their songs are really famous to be honest. but as i read the comments nowadays, their fans said that their music style had changed. i am not sure from what to what but i still like their music. for those who likes calm music, i dont think you like it but i still recommend you all to listen to them. bring back the rock and roll, baby!

and the lead singer is super duper cute. for me. since you guys like korean men, i know our taste is super different right now but i tell you, he is cute. he is cute for a 30 years old man, 

okay he always in his fedora hat. his name is Patrick and he is my new crush. lol. okay guys, one fact he is married, and already have a son. ahahaah i know sad life for me. but well beside 5sos this cute man makes me happy. let me find more happiness in my life okay? ahaha and i realize i am starting to listen to Justin B. again. he was my old crush back then when i was 12. oh and patrick is short. 165? yeah.. but guys, i really appreciate if you watch his live perfomances. his voice sounded the same like the studio version. no man. that's it for today. 

and i dont know if i should write again...