[ BEWARE : THIS IS A LONG *SS BLOG ]

We're days away from reaching the middle of December.
We're nearing Christmas... and New Year.

2015 seems to be just around the corner, a few sleeps more then bam! I will get mistakes on writing dates on my papers again.

And with that thought, some of us probably are starting to make their plans on how they want their new year will be.

I am not a planner... I do have lifetime goals, but not plans. New Year's resolutions list is just a mere list to me.

• Lose weight? Bleh~ I love to eat.
• Work hard? Meh~
• Have my own personal blog? OJC it's always on my list... every single yr, and I still havent done it.
• Travel more? Give me more money juseyo~
• Visit Korea? Oppa. orz next year I promise... You better be promoting that time.
• Lovelife? Ugh Error.
• etc.

But I do have ones that I actually followed, like no softdrinks, less partying, and quit my job, however they're things that I chose to do/change for myself when I felt like it. Not because I planned to do this in this year or that.

Whatever. The point of this blog is about my wondering of my life in AFF once 2015 enters.

2014 has been an active year for me here. I was only a reader here before, I have no accounts and what, I only lurk here and there to the non-subscribers only stories. And when I actually became a member, it's the same time when Still You, Just You started. 

Yes, can you imagine? SYJY is already turning 1 years old on January! Yaaaay! *throws confetti* *put dancing emotion**place ugly sobbing gif*

For a whole year, it's what keeping my free time occupied. hehe. And within that short time in writing world, a lot has already happened to me. From my house being robbed taking some of our gadgets (including my laptop), accounts got hacked ( =____=), really busy work tasks, upto the times when I awfully got lazy on updating because I feel drained and tired and it took me a month and more to update again.

But despite all that shtty craps, there are more a lot of things I am grateful and I feel blessed for. From having 12 subscribers turn 800 (and still counting). From the old time where I pray a single person to miraculously leave a comment now changed to a scenario that just when after tweeting about the update the notifications icon would turn orange, or my twitter notification will immediately have retweets, favorites and thank you's. And of course the DARAHAE moments and the crazy spazzing what became the cherry on top of my year.

And that's what kept me going, atleast I want to continue writing for those who appreciates my work. It's what inspired me.

I'm not good at writing, to be honest. 

I'm terribly bad at words.

It was just something I find interested on doing after a boring day and all I did was daydream :))

I can't believe that I actually reached this long.

However, as a few of you may know the only reason why I can update actively for the past few chapters was because I quit my job, travelled to places, went back to my hometown and having a long long loooong holiday vacation (but still have activities I attend to, and business that keep me busy).

And all that good-o-free time will most likely to end on 2015. I will probably be back to the busy bee life again, as I start a new job. A new life... career. Ugh~~ I can't help to think how my life here would be then. I still have two stories on-going... SYJY is on it's way to ending, GOD of Second Chances has barely started... (>A< )... but with SYJY ending I'll probably have more time to focus more on it by then.

But besides that. I actually have 2 more in mind. A story drafted, which is Till I See You... Dara-Hae-Hara fic... and another which is big secret.

BUT! I don't know if I'll continue doing them. I have a feeling that I won't be into writing anymore?

If you're following me in Twitter or Instagram, you could see how I am fond of doing chapter banners and manips lately. It's actually results of missing working. I'm a Graphic Designer / Illustrator BTW... That's why I spend more time in photoshop than in Word, and instead of drafting a chapter on paper I end up doodling and drawing. huehuehue.

Now I started thinking, maybe after the stories (gosc and syjy), I would perhaps stay in AFF but no longer as an author and try applying as a Graphic Artist? Atleast by then, it is something that I can do even at work...

I don't know. I'm still deciding.

I told you I'm not good at planning. So maybe I won't do it... or maybe I will.

If you read SYJY, now you know where Dara got the confusing mind... hehe from me... Hahahaha I need a Donghae please.

*sigh* Anyway, I have to throw it in here. It's just one of those nights where your mind is filled so much thoughts and you just have to take out some of them.

Did you read the entire blog? Hul~ you shouldn't have! k k k k but thank you.

You can share your thoughts too. ^^

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- LadyKika