(Not author related. Just some ty rant post. Don't read. Warning super long post)

Yay! D-1!!

The concert is tomorrow and unfortunately I ain't seeing it. And I know I'm gonna regret it for a really really long time.

I'm supposed to buy my ticket yesterday but it has been one of the unluckiest days for me. Such a rough rough day really. I woke up with a metrodeal voucher promo for the VIP tickets and it got me immediately jump out of my couch (yes couch cause I am playing host to one sick family member and  he got my room) and signed in to my account and availed it. I opened my closet and threw out all the possible Yg-ish clothes I can wear, i was so giddy and excited, already imagined how I would scream and faint once I get to see white-haired Seungi like ojc what is air. I was SO POSITIVE I'll be able to watch it that i went to the mall to pay it through bank before attending my afternoon schedules.

Maybe the excitement got it jinxed though.

For upon arriving at the mall my atm isn't working, I tried all atm machines and the card just shows unavailable to process transcation - I can't do balance inquiry, withdraw - my atm is dead. Unfortunately it's the only card that has all my savings in it (for emergencies and sudden concerts... money i set aside for personal use) My other card has insufficient funds because I jsut paid the bills and went to grocery.

My paypal is short too so... I can't use it either.

So I have no choice but to attend my afternoon schedules bitterly and very hopeful that by afternoon maybe it works. I'm supposed to get done by 4 but it ended like quarter to 5 fcking pm, thus  have to go to MOA coz BDO closes at 8 and deposit counters closes late too. I called my bank during my trip to ask about it.

And she says it must be for excessive use from yesterday (Monday). and I remembered our help went to my place to borrow my atm so she can purchase all of my mom's stuff (which I was kind enough to lend my money for now coz I didn't know metrodeal would have a promo and she promises to change it that very same day after her work) so because it exceeded I have to wait 24 hours to reuse it again. And I was like okay so 6:30... i can wait for that.

With positive thoughts I waited for it to reactivate, and voila!!! It did work but! No money. I called my mom to ask if she did send it yesterday and she said she did, but I doubt she did so I came home feeling sad and teary eyed. Metrodeal expires on 12midnight, so I thought I can just reavail another one tomorrow (today) atleast the cash will be in my atm.

 I was upset and my brother even laughed how I'm crying over it calling it pathetic. I haven't eaten all day, I'm exhausted physically and mentally and I came home,with chores to do, to cook dinner and whatever.

But it still doesnt end there. I skipped dinner as well cause I'm not in the mood. I jumped to my bed, hid undermy sheets, and mom called and she said,she has sent the money to my brother's atm... if you think I have rejoiced after hearing that... no. Of course not, why? because my brother's atm was closed (reported stolen) like 2 years ago. 

Leaving me crying even more. So we reported the mistake to the bank, but they said it'll take a week to process. So wenkwonk. I have no bigbang tickets even I wait today or tomorrow.

I'm not blaming anyone. I won't point my fingers at my parents because it's clearly a mistake. And mom did pay for the moey she borrowed,it just so happens not onmy account.

I just accept that I'm very unlucky or seeing Bigbang isn't really for me.

Admittedly, I woke up still very sad. I wish I should've not have hoped though. I didn't buy tickets beforehand (May30) because I thought I will no longer be in Manila by July30, but after endless of flight delays and visa problems, I did and everything is sold out, and to see how pricey VIP and Royalty section cost, I got unsure whether to spend that much. I thought maybe I should save the money for Korea trip instead and or use it on my other travels. I also believed that there'll be ticket reopenings, sellers and promos days before concert. And i was right.

For the past months, I have already convinced myself I won't watch it. But the more closer the day gets and the more bigbang concert reports is shown, I can't help not too be drawn to it and feel envy. It made me feel like I really have to see it.

But hoohaa! I really have to see it but I am not destined to see it.

How sad.