i woke up super late than i usually do and damn hella tired, now I'm scrolling through timeline and visit fansites to watch fancams of the concert last night.

I was in MOA yesterday by the way. But didn't get near MOA Arena, across the street was the nearest I can be cause *heartbreak*. I didn't really mean to be in MOA, I just wanted to get out of the house because if i stayed and see concert live updates (tweets) im gonna lose it. At first I went to Galeria and Megamall then went to MOA cause I had arrangements with a really good friend (-carpediem, darahae author. see her works here) we'll watch Paper Towns instead.

Yes. I know going to MOA is a bad idea and yes it really was. It's not that easy. The moment I saw the arena I got teary eyed before I got off the bus. And then when I saw these VIPS and their banners,crowns, headbands and clothes. I was like "Damn it!" went to the bathroom and cried. I'm always not an envious person, but the concert was something I reaaaallllly want so excuse the tears. Once I letit all out, I went to Starbucks as I wait for Yna.

And girl. if you see someone wearing a VIP shirt and sitting, sulking, pouting and observing every VIP that passes by through those glass. That's me. "I should be wearing one of those now" as I tell myself. Oversized black shirts (BB design or not), shorts, highsocks (optional),coolest kicks, caps, crowns, and a flannel shirt wrapped around their waist. That's the exact cothing i'm supposed to be wearing, but no I went with an all black from head to toe to show my grieving.

We didn't get to see Paper Towns either. There's no 6:30 showing (which is silly ecause we saw people coming out of the cinema around 9:30... so were they there since 4:00 showing???). So after seeing our friend (who was going to concert) off to arena, Yna and I started our VIP day together. Went to cookie dream and chatted, had long walks and chatted, went to shops to search for dresses and chatted. I'm just very thankful I get to spend with her. We thought we won't be able to see each other after BOB Manila, but yuhoo we did and hope it's not the last one.

Yna was scrolling through live tweets of the concerts and i was like "nah don't show me" I'm still bitter. lol.

We waited till the show gets over, and when I separated from them as I wait for my ride home, while dramatically staring at the arena I promised myself, that next time I'll see them definitely. Like what others say, maybe this is really not the time for me to see them. Korea maybe? Yg family con? Whenever... I'll save for it and make sure I won't go the same trouble.

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From the faces last night, and from what I'm seeing today. I know how the concert is definitely one of the best concerts. Of couse it's BIGBANG. and I bet everyone had blast. So I'm really happy for those who have seen it. Next time I'll see it with you and we'll cheer and sing together with them.

My Kind of VIP day.