writerly depressions

i don't know what's up, but i can't seem to write anything decent anymore. to be honest, i've had this weird dry period ever since i finished writing forevermore, but these days i really dislike every single word i write. i think it might be because whenever i sit down to give myself some time to immerse myself in the plot, i feel guilty for pushing all my other priorities aside (like schoolwork, especially that) and also because i feel like i'm just - not... making progress? i keep thinking i should be able to do better but i get lazy with writing and i hate myself for it but i'm just so, so tired but i want to see results, just - god... it's a really hard push and pull. my head is always so blank these days and it saddens me that i'm not thinking. i used to always be thinking. literally always. but now, all i want to do is just sleep. school is really taking a toll on me, i mean to the point where i just want to lie on the floor and just let myself sink into the earth that way. i sleep at 10 and wake up at 3 and i still don't have enough time to finish all my work, it's ridiculous. and because i have to stress so much over all this bull schoolwork, i never get to do creative thinking anymore. i mean, i do have all these plot bunnies like a sekai+exo-k boardinghouse!au and a superpower!au i've been planning for over a year already plus all the other 80+ notes in my phone that i've jotted down, but whenever i sit in front of my computer to write, i automatically deflate.

 

is there... something wrong with me? i want to write so desperately but it feels like everything is pointing me away from it. is this just a slump i'm going through? because it honestly is so hard to be happy about writing these days and that depresses me.

 

anyway, i'm still trying really hard to continue writing though. i write in my web development class mostly, because i have access to a computer and i code pretty quickly compared to my class so i utilize the extra time. it kind of though because it's such a metalic (crappy) place to write in. i wish i had a little loft that i could make my workspace. man, that'd be nice...

but yeah, back to fics - i post little sneak peeks on my fic update twitter if anyone wants teasers (because i seriously haven't updated anything in ages eep...). hopefully i'll recover soon enough, but right now, the best i can manage is a few paragraphs at a time. baby steps? maybe i just need an emotional healing or something. hopefully i'll have time to go to the beach or something and walk off all my stress. breathe some fresh air.

 

i think i also need a writing partner.

/sigh/

 

 

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SHINeeGeneration364 #1
I know exactly what you're talking about, I'm also going through the same thing. I hope we can get through it together!! :)
Violet_Joker #2
same here, do you want to exchange e-mails? we could write to each other and maybe its the cure :D
holdbaek #3
dohee bb i think we're in the same phase. ;__;
Sir_Epicurean #4
I'm not exactly a great writer and I don't know if it's the same for others...but it just happens you know...like one second you are all immersed then lost then lazy then motivated...Happens to me all the time...Don't stress yourself tho okay? It's just timing I guess...
Oyechi #5
Maybe you need some time to relax? I honestly think that a writer at least goes through that once. All of us at one point are really tired and our brain can't come up with anything at all! Remember that school is important and all, but it's also important to take some to relax. With time and lots of patience, words will come. Eventually. And before you know it, you'll be inspired again, and up and ready to write more. Hwaiting! :3
Katy13 #6
oh baby I totally undrestand you!
I hate every single, EVERY FREAKING SINGLE word that I write these days!
I think of a plot, get excited then when i sit on my laptop to write it... it just vanishes.
It's annoying !!
katiemee #7
I suggest you take some time off. We'll be waiting patiently. No pressure. We understand there are more important things in life we have to work on. Stay healthy! ^-^
VenenatisPicus #8
I think writing is something that comes to you naturally and no one can force their stories out. You're always allowed to take a break :D
Hwaitingggg!!!
yifanator #9
there’s nothing to worry about, dohee. consider it as a phase; you’ll get over it soon. it needs time. there nothing wrong, because trust me, all those famous authors in real life have these types of feelings too!

i, too, have those feelings. they’re annoying, i know! hahaha but i overcome them by just taking a break from it all--school works, fics, chores, everything. go outside, take a walk! breathe a little, please don’t stress out. i find inspirations from the slightest things i see. .and i turn them into (really bad) fics! hahahahaha

let your feelings out, talk to a friend! but there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you, just don’t think negatively. smile, dohee, smile! ♡
nielratu #10
Maybe you suld focus on your school problems, that's more important than makes your reader happy to see you update *I'm crying while I typed this* and then relax your self take some free time with your friends ,family ,neighborh, or your boyfriends.. And after that read some other fic just for sparking your creavity again..
And BAM!! you back with your not awful grated/great grated! And you maybe you've become be more creative ..!!

I Just can pray for you ..
And FIGHTING ..!!!
DONT STRESSED YOUR SELF..
JUST FOCUSED ON YOUR VITAL LIFE PROBLEMS..
GOOD LUCK
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!
HaeGirlM #11
just temporary leave aff for little time and rest yourself :)
we'll wait for you
dream_keeper88 #12
you just have to give yourself permission to . go write draft zero of your chapter, put the words down, edit as you write it if you must, but don't overdo it. tell yourself you'll edit it later. then give yourself a deadline. use a timer. pomodoro technique. so that you can still focus on other things, like priorities xD joining nanowrimo taught me this. i have a story but it won't write itself. the scenes look pretty inside my head but it would be ugly once i write it down. it would frustrate me because it looks so dirty. but because i can always edit it later, i had the freedom to just write as the words come. so just write. remember: you can't edit what you have not written.
yejiapsaranghaja #13
What's going on with you sounds normal, because I am the same, only when I do get the chance to sit down and write, I want to use as much of that time as possible to its fullest because I know I have other obligations but writing has become a necessity in my life so I don't think you should ever feel guilty for making a little time for it. Maybe if you tried to get out of that mindset, it'd be easier? Though I'm not certain for myself...

I know that if I have difficulties with writing, I don't focus on my stories as much as I do free writes. It's a great way to spark your creativity again, you know? Maybe you should try a few prompts and just go with it to see if your writing is up to par, and then go from there?

Or, you can gush. Don't worry about what you're writing and just write until you've hit a stopping point. Set that piece you've written aside and then return to it a couple days later to revise and edit. Don't edit as you go along because that's what also stumps your creativity.
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