As we all know about Luhan, I am just as helpless as others to let out my thoughts and I want to share it with you also, here in AFF.

Yup! My love for Luhan is unconditional.

When my sister told me about this matter (the time when it still a rumour) and the time when the official announcement was made, I don’t know but I’m not that heartbroken once it has been confirmed.

I told my sister that I’m both sad but happy at the same time. Maybe the reason for me being feeling strangely happy was to know that Luhan could finally be with his family, returned to the place where he belongs to, and probably his endearingly well-kept homesickness, and the fact that Luhan could finally breathe like a person, a real person.

The news of him being unwell and fall sick was heart wrenching. Seeing him came on the stage with hidden bloated face and the look in his eyes made my heart fluttered, because as we know he’s been really a devoted of EXO member and his side notes made us know his dreams; the notes which he claimed that the celebrity life that he hold now (in SM) was different to the life of celebrity that he had imagined (note his pure dream) and how he felt the awesome part and the unfortunate part of a real celebrity.

On the other hand, I’m sad because my favourite group was totally shaken by the sudden of Kris filing lawsuit and leave the group and now with Luhan, my ultimate bias will no longer be with the band. Could you just imagine that, how, we as their fans feel? And how the members of the group itself might be feeling now? Devastated. What was in the beginning as OT12 was now OT10? Despite, that they didn’t let their guard off, might who knows what was in their deepest was feeling.

I am sad that when EXO will be making comeback, which was now rumoured, there will be no part of him any longer; no more Luhan’s voice, no more Luhan’s face, no more Luhan’s footage and…. cries :”””(((

I initially putting this as a comment but as I write, I found out that this was more of a fan emotion that need to be let out – the thoughts and feelings about this matter and I badly want to share this.

There were a lot of comments, and there will be a lot more in the future, in twitter, fb, weibo, Instagram and other social sites. This made me thought: what the hell wrong is happening to the K-pop world?

I won’t deny that I had also the thought of 2014 curse. Oh scratch that. But hey, again, it was all about how the management leads to…. not going to give further comment on this. orz.

There are a lot of thoughts, but I am more to feel relieved. No matter how and what, let us be strong and get our grip tight and support him. Because I know that I will always be by his side, supporting him although invisibly and I hope you guys too will do the same. :)

Because I believe, there will be a lot more opportunities to anticipate <3