eew, what a mushy title....no i don't come up with that...the line is taken from this:

^ love the song btw /oppar saranghae lol/

anyway...

i just want to take this space to say thank you/in public,haha/. a friend i got somewhat(?) close to(are we?) for less than ten days, wrote a fic for me /though the character's name she chose cracked me up somehow n made me LOL.../...n uhm, don't misunderstand i don't have bias/coughs/...or not that i would reveal :x/. but can u imagine that? less than 10 days? it's like...what have i done to get such honour? Even though she does like to write fics for others, but why me? what did i do to deserve? that kinda thinking....the last time somebody dedicated a fanfic for me was like eight years ago? so it was no surprise i'm being overdramatic n shocked n ....uhm..../shy/....abt it...who doesn't like being a fic character? certainly not me....so far, i've been portrayed with the somewhat spot-on characteristics though i don't drink milk isn't it amusing someone you never even met could portray you? i don't have this talent tbh...so i can only envy n be thankful. and I love how the story has this very subtle understated slice-of-life, hopes with a little mix of nondramatic-mystery all in a very average people way...nothing exaggerated...or grandeur events....i like the metaphor of human n their potential with garden....i guess understated meaningful life related thing really captures my attention even if there aren't much plot going on because it's close to my heart who often feel that i'm messing up my life n losing hopes....stories of hopes give me ....hopes. lol.....n oh cmon...you don't need a whole circus of events going on to make a oneshot interesting.... i'm just glad i dragged her to be made a character too. we need some normal space because the fic we wrote together have made us so....idk....beyond crazy....and speaking of that....here's a little something for us cuz we deserve it...xD....though my recommendation place isn't popular anyway...for the first time ever, hopelesswriter finds courage/shamelessness to recommend her own/half fic, well since her coauthor is awesome anyway. /you can advertise if u want to, twinnie/ and Thank you for the beautiful story. i still can't believe someone would write a story for me...../shy/....hahah. well, i kinda fail with writing fic for others but....i can write blog post like this....xD...i think rambling aimlessly is what i do best...

not just that, she also made me poster...but nah, i have not put it up yet...you'll have to wait for next update to see it....erm...yeah...><....i guess....and all the comments....well, there's another friend who made me 4posters for one ficO_O without me requesting/but i don't think she's that much in aff anymore anyway/ but still...thank you both of you, my twinnie n my granddaughter...i feel like i hardly do anything for anyone but i'm always on the receiving end...i guess i'm lucky^^ n blessed for you wonderful people who have made me happy in one way or the other? that also include anyone n everyone who have been nice n friendly n made my day in aff everyday /coughs Unnie too^^ n everyone who shared all ZE:A updates with me...lol/...if we talk to each other than you can consider you're included in my thank you list...

wow...what am i still doing here? actually i'll be having an important presentation that might bring change to my future direction if i do well...but i haven't prepare anything cuz i'm too lazy...yeah...last minute ftw....i just hope i don't get nervous n mess up everything...but already am too nervous...oh well....T^T...wish me luck, i guess? i'm too lazy to prepare anything......in fact i want to write new fic...lately i have too much mushy feels so it's hard to update unlock the devil fourever bcuz yeah, that one can't be mushy eventhough some commenters have been nice to encourage me so i shud update ASAP.../thanks n sorry~...but i'm trying my best...maybe i'll succeed in the near future?....but i want to write a love story nowT^T....jbngjdfgjkfsdgbfjkgbjdfkgbngj....why?....idk...i blame the songs i listen to...they're the evil behind so many fics started.....lol.....bcuz i want to start before lose the feelings but in the end...i had no time for them all T^T.....for this one...i don't even know who to use as character/maybe just nameless random idol...lol.../....i just want to write something mushy...that feels normal n relatable....but somehow it always ended up a lil off...ah idk...hey no of fics i have in aff now is 50...lol. that's seriously frightening. of course half were either deactivated or never published from draft...but my self control is getting worse....

there....let me end it.

this post is just supposed to thank you.

but it won't be me without sidetracked to all the unrelated corners...

and....a song i dedicate for my crazy coauthor/twinnie...whom i would blame for myself getting mushier by the day and /Superchipmunks don't hug...superchipmunks are fierceeee...grrr..../

Otter Song!

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