ANNYEONG~ I've been a silent reader in AFF for a year, but I was flooded with some thoughts and I decided to write it all down here.

How does becoming a SONE feels like?

 I’m from  Philippines. I’m only a Sone for a year but my love for the girls are as great as other senior sones. 2013 March when my classmate gave me the link of a Fanfiction “Closer” ( I forgot whose the author mian,) which the main characters are Taeyeon and EXO’s Baekhyun. That time I only care about the story, the plot but then I got so absurd in the story that curiosity got me to search for the name “Taeyeon” since I already knew Baekhyun because my friends are spazzing about them all day. I searched her pictures all over the net I feel like I got a love at first sight, I really forgot I was a girl for a moment XD After days of searching I can remember myself having butterflies at my stomach when I discovered TaeNy then right after I just wake up memorizing all of the members’ faces. At first I was really confuse at Seohyun and Yuri.. but I got used to it after watching several music videos, variety shows they attend to, interviews etc. I watched videos about them to the extent of repeating several videos without realizing. When I found about Taeyeon’s loneliness/depression issue on 2013 I get so heartbroken seeing her sad that I wanted to fly to Korea and comfort her, but I trusted the other members to take care of her. Soshi Bond is one thing that makes SNSD different from other girl groups, they take care and love each other so much, the friendship and sisterhood that every single person here on earth want to have. No one even attempted to leave the group, they were stick together like nothing can’t tear them apart. When there comes a day when they look so tired, I badly wanted SM to get them rest even if it means they would miss some schedules and SONEs couldn’t see them at least SONEs knew they’re happy.  I didn’t have a perfect life, there comes a time when I got so many problems and I wanted to give up, seeing everything is not going on your way is so depressing, Whenever that time comes, I’ll just think of them, If I die, I wouldn’t get  to help them increase the SNS votes on music shows, I wouldn’t get to vote them on Several Awarding shows and I will not be able to spazz about them anymore. I know it sounds silly, but I honestly feel that way.

When the year 2014 comes, it was when Yoona and Seunggi was confirmed dating as well as  Sooyoung and Jungho and the worst for me is Tiffany and Nichkhun. I’m a Locksmith, and it hurts. A boyfriend and a bestfriend is way too different. In life, you would always end up with your boyfriend and not with your bestfriend and for me as one of the shipper of the famous “Lock and Key” couple just hit me so hard. I admit that I once, for real, believed that TaeNy is REALLY REAL you know that they are biual or what but I come to this realization that the 9 of them are just supeeeeeeeeeeeer dupeeeeeeeer close sisters XD. I feel sorry for them because I get hurt about their dating news, they say a True Sone would accept the news. I accepted it, I’m happy for them but there’s this feeling on the other part of me that you can’t avoid, I get hurt because of the fact that they’re growing up and sooner or later they would leave the music industry which I’m still not ready for.

On Healing Camp, Taeyeon said she’s afraid that the fans would leave them for another group that makes her flooded with thoughts that wouldn’t let her sleep at night unless she would drink a can of beer. Yuri also said that she’s afraid on how can they leave the limelight peacefully. It makes me think that they’re already getting tired of the 7 years with the world watching every actions you made.

On Fukuoka Love and Peace Concert 140426,

“We wanted to show the Girls’ Generation that SONEs have believed in is still the same.”

“It seems selfish to say “be our fans forever”. I am just glad that we were in your lives for a moment.”

“ I thank you for the fact that we are all in this moment together, that Girls’ Generation was in your lives.”

Source: TheSoneSource credits:hyoyoonkatekim

What’s with the past tense? They’re talking like they’re going to disband. Soshi please don’t worry we’re going to stay with you forever even if disbandment happen., It’s been 1 year since I become a Sone I would still want to support  you for atleast 5 more years please? Nothing lasts forever, even fame. I know that time will come you all would be  busy onn your own personal lives, but please not too fast I’m still fulfilling my duties as  a SONE. But if you will be happy on the thought of disbandment and freedom I would gladly and willingly approve to it although I would be lying if I say I’m okay XD.  I love you so much and you will always have a special place in my heart. Bbuing~ bbuing~ XD Please be happy unnies~ Saranghaeyooo~