There have been a great many deal of things that have happened of late, which has kpt me from updating for a very very long time.

I was about an inch and a haf from quitting entirely, with no explanations, but I just couldn't do it.

If for no other reason, it's because when I start a story, I damn well commit to finishing it, even if I don't want to, and even if I end it , and there are way too many stories on here that deserve an ending one way or another.

I wish the VIP fandom was a little more active, and I wish the boys were a little more active themselves, cause I know it would have helped in bringing me back.

In the end, it was bunbun28, so you can thank her for my return.

In  terms of trying to even start explaining while I was gone, I don't know where to start.

I really don't.

Just as physical health went on the up, my emotional health plummetted, and unfortunately, that's what I need functional to actually write.

There are about a billion other things that went hand in hand with that: Alcoholism, self isolation, brief hospitalisation, being monitored by family, a load of medication, the list goes on.

Basically, I'm a little messed up.

But I've been told that writing may help, and I've had gentle coaxing from a few different parties that has made me consider it a little more seriously than I had been.

So, this is me attempting to make a come back.

Please don't expect miracles, but holy , I am going to try so very hard.

A big BIG thank you to banjak, for keeping tabs on me in my absence. You really are one of my biggest and most sincere, albeit private, supporters, and I honestly love you dearly for it.

Big thanks also to bunbun28, who, for many reasons, is one of the brightest lights in my life. Thank you for bringing me back.

Also, a big thank you to the others who have been checking up on me:

bluemarriot, who left me a beautiful wallpost. Thank you.

ginniettran, for ongoing support and being a general darling.

ericaababyy, who will forever be one of the best people ever. Wuvs.

maddiefosset, who may very well need to be awarded for the title of being my biggest fan. This girl is dedicated. hahaha. Thank you!

ahesan, who is an absolute sweetheart, and one of my tumblr darlings as well. <3

delbadae, for noticing I was missing and subtly making sure I wasn't dead.

You're all wonderful.

Belated happy birthday to my baby maknae, BlueJohnXD, while we're at it.

I hope everyone hasn't completely forgotten me, ad I hope to post for you all soon.