Announcement

I had thought that with the putting of my fics into draft, things might settle down. Unfortunately, this has not been the case. 

Today, I received another rude message on tumblr. It's not the only one I have received since making the decision to go into draft, but it was the last I recorded before making a decision. 

This year marks ten years of BIGBANG, come August. A full decade of the 5 people who mean so much more to me than any words I could possibly put down. August is a month of celebration for VIPs everywhere, and I will be one of them. 

As August comes to a close, however, I will be quitting AFF permanently. 

With that date almost 8 months away, that gives me time to wrap up all of my multi chartered fics and give them the ending that THEY deserve. The fics themselves. Not a majority of their readers. 

I am undecided, at the moment, as to whether I will keep them up for a set amount of time and then delete my account completely, or whether I will simply leave it be and perhaps use it to comment and encourage the fics that others write. 

In any case, I will not be publishing any new fiction aside from the 30 Days fics and one other, effective immediately. 

It was recently my 3 year anniversary on AFF. Three years. It feels like a lifetime. I have met some truly wonderful people on here, and it is unfortunate that I have had the bad luck of meeting some awful ones as well. Enough to guide my hand this way. 

 

As a parting wish, I ask only this: If you do see people making rude comments, if you see fanfic authors receiving hate on tumblr, if you see blog posts where authors are stressed or wound up or hurting - support them. Support your authors, people. They work so had for you and they don't deserve that. They don't. 

VIP fandom - I sincerely hope that you get your act together and grow as a community, but I cannot be here in the interim any longer.

It hurts too much. 

To those who have stuck by me, I'll stick by you. I know that there are some people I will have with me forever. Some people have been so so wonderful and I am grateful for the good memories I have made here. 

I am only disappointed with how many bad shroud them. 

~TOPcorn

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Walkyrie #1
As I forgot the password to my account I created a new one and wanted to find your stories to subscribe them. I was wondering why all of my favorites are in draft status and then I saw this. I just.. I don't even know what to say. I feel really bad because of that ty part of our fandom, these ungrateful bastards, and I'm really sorry, like seriously. I can only hope that they calm the down soon.
I'm a silent reader but I ing regret that I didn't leave any comment that would support you even a little. Forgive me. TT
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Daenosaurus #2
I understand entirely. This is why I rarely update, people commenting rude things ace since as far as insulting the ship(s) in a fic. Like "There's not enough _____ here" or "Can you please put ____ in so *insert their OTP* get together?" I've even gotten " I would read this if it were *insert their OTP* instead of *the one being written*"
It's quite rude. I'm sorry people give you for having your stories the way you want :( your writing is amazing BTW, it will be a sad day when you fully take leave
Nyaori #3
Honestly, love, I'm surprised you're letting s win. It may be my own stubbornness, but a clump of people being able to tear down such an important BB writer on AFF and in general is a surprising idea. I can see the benefit of withdrawing though, and sorry I didn't notice this before messaging you otherwise. Really will miss you and your writing. Rereading your fics always did make my days a lot brighter. This place will definitely be a lot darker with you gone.
sereri #4
I dont know what to say...You're first one of the authors I read in here. And one of my favorite authors. I feel close to you. So this is really sad for me. I will really miss <3
stargazerjunior #5
OMG!!! Are you really leaving AFF? You are one of my favorite author. I love all of your stories. Some of my favs are Fraternisation and For A Fistful Of Dollars. It's really sad that you receive stupid comments from stupid people. I didn't realize that you're going through such a horrible experience until one I tried to read one of your fics and wasn't able to. I always read and re-read your fics while waiting for new updates from you. And I'm sad that you've decided to leave in a few months. It will be such a huge loss. I just hope that maybe one day I will be able to read your stories again.

Good luck for your future endeavors and may you find happiness in whatever you do.
IndigoGrey #6
Such gross behavior that you've been experiencing, I'm sorry that you can't write in peace :(
cassiem #7
oh, sweetheart. I'm sorry s have driven you from writing. I don't have words to tell you how sad this makes me :(
BinguTop4Life #8
I'm heartbroken that you had to go through all this suffering and absolute nonsense. I'm even further saddened by the fact that you have decided to go down this path, but am happy for you. If you're happy, we fans are happy as well and the other selfish stuck-up arrogant fans who disregard you in any way, believing that they are above everyone else can go rot in a hole of their own bull.

These last 8 months will be wonderfully cherished and I'd love for you to know that you are loved . So very loved and are never alone as lonely as this journey may have seemed . This is your choice and I'll fully give you the respect and support that so many others should've shown you . I'm so deeply sorry that you have to be an example to the consequences of other horrid V.I.P's out there . I wish that during this short amount of time that we've known each other, your lips would turn into even the slightest hint of a smile at my comments and even though I didn't comment much, felt some joy from them .

Please also never let this hold you back from the so very obvious talent that you hold in the slightest movement of the tip of your fingers or a random thought that could turn into a full blown story . You're an amazing person authornim, inside and out and are one of my few friends that I've ever made online and will be cherished forever and ever as one . You've always made me feel such a range of emotions , tears from your hearts wrenching stories, crazy laughter from your random crack fics or a simple bashful smile at the very thought of coming home and unwinding to your awesome stories after an exhausting day. It is only a dream to make you feel the same and I hope that someday, you'll receive the same joy that we fans do when reading your fics . I sincerely wish that Bigbang, their wonderful dorky selves, and amazing music would give you the solace that many of us couldn't give . Thank you so much for all that you've done authornim <3<3<3<3
didoe84 #9
I'm really really sad to hear that you'll leave us definitely but I'll support you no matter what because in a way I understand that the bad comment could really affect you!!! I'm really angry about those people who thinks it's okay to bully others because they're hidden behind a screen and just kill the andom little by little!! your work is your baby it's difficult to heard bad things about it even if other are kind enough... it's easy to lose himself in the bad comments... I think that maybe taking time out of it would do you some good because you would be able to escape the infernal spiral and take some recul... focus on what's important!!! I feels like you're not even enjoy writing bcause of all that so maybe writing just for you (not publishing on internet) would be a good thing to go back to enjoying writing!!! then maybe you could let friends read it (on the internet you could change username maybe) ... I promise you that I'll give a good lecture if I ever see someone being harsh to a writer!! I already post a thing like that on my Rec Fic.
Anyway you know I really love your work so I'll keep supporting your GTOP 30Days challenge and the next one you planned, enjoying while it last!!!
rockconuong #10
Knowing you're gonna quit AFF in 8 months is too sad for me. It's only a few months since I joined AFF but you've always been one of the authors I admire the most here. I'm usually a silent reader but your stories always give me the urge to comment because they are so good. I'm really thankful for the time, effort and patience you've spent to make such great fanfics.

My dear authornim, sorry for my poor English but I hope you know that whatever your decision is I'll always support you. I also hope you keep writing, even when you just write for yourself. I will still catch up with you on your Tumblr.

Fighting, my dear authornim ^^
maddiefossett #11
Oh, and if I ever find out who the little asshats are who have terrorized you so, I shall...well, my own morales prevent me from doing what I WANT to do to them...stupid asshats.
maddiefossett #12
I shall treasure the next 8 months...and I know I will cry when the time comes that you will no longer be writing. Selfishly I want you to start a new name that only your friends know and continue on!!! But that is as I said selfish. I will enjoy your farewell tour and continue to support you in the actions you feel you need to take.

~Maddie

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AllisonRowe #13
I feel really sad right now. I'm new to the VIP fandom and I am one of your new subscribers. I'm always looking forward to your stories and i really think that your fics are great and you have a cool personality (and you called me cute hihi :) ) I still dont understand why other people are so agressive and rude and gives harsh criticism to others or even have the audacity to demand an 'update' AND get mad when the author took weeks or even months to update, especially if it's a reader who cant even write a single fic (like me :P ) like wtf you cant even write a one shot fic and you have the nerve to criticize and demand an update to authors ? I honestly dont get it.
Maybe because they're s. Just plain s who lives in the darker side of the fandom. I really think that they should be the ones to leave this fandom or they should just stop.reading.fanfics.completely. those annoying little s.
It's sad to know that you are leaving the VIP fandom but i understand and i fully respect your decision. If leaving this fandom will make you happy. Eh, why not? It's your freedom! Do what makes you happy and dont let anyone dictate you(especially those annoying s) but hey. I will miss you and your stories :) <3 <3 i wish u all the best and the bestest (see this is the reason why i should never be an author im not really good with words hehehe) Fightingggggg!!!
laydae #14
This is a sad day indeed but can be turned into a nice one. I understand and respect your decision completely and hope that whoever these demanding s are, they are feeling guilty as hell for what they made you feel. I think many people here reading this express the same sentiment, we will miss you and your stories but at the same time, if it means leaving AFF for you to be happier then by all means enjoy the freedom and don't let people who cannot even write themselves dictate you to their own wishes. I only regret discovering you now and not before but I also hope you can remember the small good moments that happened within the fandom.
Good luck and I hope you feel lighter and happier, I will definitely support you in this! ʕ♡˙ᴥ˙♡ʔ ʕ♡˙ᴥ˙♡ʔ ʕ♡˙ᴥ˙♡ʔ
mikadosm #15
I feel so sad hearing that but like the others here I understand your decision. It's these readers' fault that this fandom lose another great person who did a lot for this community. I respect you and will definitely miss you and your stories which always were able to cheer me up on bad days. Hope you will still remember the good things that happened in the fandom to you :)
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